It was a hard truth to swallow, one made harder by the fact that she had never stolen from him. Not then, and not now.
No, she hadn’t stolen from him, she forced herself to acknowledge as she kept walking, her shoulders hunched against the wind blowing in off the water. But she’d certainly thought about it six years ago. It would be a lie to pretend otherwise.
That was who she’d been then, what she’d done. Not because she needed the money—her father had stolen enough through the years that her children’s children would probably never need for money—but because she’d wanted the thrill.
The old Isa had been an adrenaline junkie, raised by her jewel thief father after her mother passed away. She had loved the game, the con, the robbery more than anything else in the world. Except her father...and eventually, Marc.
She’d met him at a big society party she’d been casing, had fallen for him hard the moment he’d handed her a glass of champagne with a smile and a quip. And that damn raised eyebrow of his. She still remembered what he’d said to her at that moment—would probably remember it until she died. Because even as it was happening, she’d known that it was one of those life defining moments.
She’d looked up into his shining sapphire eyes, ripe with amusement and desire, and she’d realized that she wanted to know more. Realized that she wanted to know him.
And so she’d ditched the friends she’d been with, ditched her plans to steal the big, fat Poinsettia Ruby that had drawn her to the party in the first place. She wasn’t going to lie—it had hurt a little to walk away from the huge, thirty-five-carat stone surrounded by ten carats of flawless diamonds—but she’d done it. Despite the fact that it had been right there, just waiting for her to pluck.
Okay, so maybe it had hurt more than a little. Maybe it still did.
But that night she’d wanted Marc more than she’d wanted the stone. More than she’d wanted to please her father. More than she’d wanted the life she had. And during the six months they’d had together, she’d continued to want him more than anything.
She’d given it all up, cold turkey. She’d missed it—of course she had. For most of her life, stealing big, flashy jewels and pretty paintings had been as natural to her as breathing. But she’d wanted what she saw in Marc’s eyes, what she felt in his arms, more than she wanted the dark, shiny, illicit thrill that came every time she’d pulled a heist.
Her father hadn’t understood—he’d never wanted anything more than he’d wanted the rush of the next job. Had, for the longest time, thought she’d been casing Marc, trying to find his weakness. Trying to get inside Bijoux’s vault, where—at the time—two of the most perfect diamonds ever found were being housed. The Midnight Sun, a colorless and flawless forty-carat Russian diamond valued in the tens of millions and Hope’s Fire, a twenty-seven-carat nearly flawless diamond whose value came as much from its rich and violent history as it did its quality.
Marc had been preparing to auction off both of them—at the time, he’d spent the first few years of his career moving Bijoux away from blood diamonds and firmly into the conflict-free arena. A huge event was planned—a huge gala that she had contributed time and expertise to helping him pull off—with the proceeds going to a charity that helped children in areas where blood diamonds were mined.
Her father had been thrilled when he’d found out, had been convinced that she was just using Marc to find an in with the diamonds. When he found out that wasn’t the case, found out that she was with Marc because she loved him and wanted to spend the rest of her nonthieving life with him—he’d been furious. He’d accused her of turning her back on him.
And she hadn’t been able to argue, had she? Because she had turned her back, not on her father, but definitely on the life he’d given her. The life he’d raised her to want, to expect, to relish.
She should have known then what would happen, what he would do. In many ways, her father was a child, as thrilled by the chase, by the hunt, as he was by the shiny baubles he stole. And once he was focused on a score, nothing short of the apocalypse could tear him away.
What she hadn’t realized—what she’d been too naive at the time to understand—was that in falling for Marc, she might as well have painted a target on him and his business. In giving him her attention, her love, her loyalty, she’d made him and his diamonds the focus of her father’s attention. In fact, when she’d told her father that she wasn’t going to steal anymore, that she was going straight and building a life for herself as a normal person, she’d pretty much put a giant red X over Marc.
When the diamonds turned up stolen and Marc’s whole business—his whole life—had gone to hell, she’d known who had done it. Of course she’d known. She’d stolen with her father since she was nine years old, had recognized the earmarks of a Salvatore job as easily as she recognized her own face in the mirror.
That was where she’d made her second mistake. Because she hadn’t told Marc then what she knew. Hadn’t gone to him and explained who she was and who her father was and offered to help him get the stones back. Instead she’d gone to her father, and tried to convince him to return the stones. He’d refused—of course, he’d refused. It was, in its own way, a matter of honor to him. Marc Durand had stolen something precious from him and he had returned the favor.
Even after that encounter, she still hadn’t told Marc the truth. How could she when doing so would not only send her dying father to prison but would also make Marc look at her with scorn, hate, disgust. She hadn’t been able to do it then. Hadn’t been able to ruin all of her dreams, all of her happily-ever-after fantasies, in one fell swoop. Even though in keeping her own dreams alive, she’d destroyed Marc’s.
And perhaps she would have gone on living a lie forever if things hadn’t gotten so bad for Marc. She liked to think the guilt would have made her confess eventually, but after everything that had happened these past few years, she was honest enough to admit that very well might not have been the case.
As it was, she’d stood by for weeks as Marc’s life became a nightmare. As the insurance company hounded him, refusing to pay because they were convinced the entire thing was an inside job. That he was guilty of fraud and a myriad other crimes. That he’d done the entire thing for the money, and as some sick kind of publicity stunt.
He’d kept most of it from her, but she’d seen. How could she not when he was growing more haggard, more worried with every day that passed. And when the cops, at the insurance agency’s behest, started looking at him and Nic, she’d known she couldn’t keep quiet any longer.
She’d talked her father into returning the jewels—largely because he’d known she would steal them back if she had to—and then brought them to Bijoux headquarters in the most complicated reverse heist that—she was sure—had ever been pulled off.
The insurance company, the cops, Marc’s board of directors—none of them had known what had hit them. And they still didn’t—except for Marc, who she had confessed everything to.
And who had returned her grand gesture by kicking her out of his life without a backward glance.
She’d known it could happen before she told him—she had been lying to him for weeks, after all, while he went through hell. While the company he’d worked so hard to build had begun falling apart piece by piece. But there was a part of her that still hadn’t expected it, still hadn’t been ready for it. How could she have been when her love for him was so absolute, so boundless, that there was nothing he could have done that would have made her turn her back on him?
And now he’d turned his back on her again. Even after everything she’d done to create a new, legitimate life for herself. As she’d wandered the streets six years ago, she’d promised herself that she would turn her life around. That she would become someone better, someone that no one could ever accuse, ever toss aside like that, again.
She’d done it, too. She’d given up being a jewel thief when she met Marc, and once her father had died she’d given up all connections to that life—her friendships, her apartment, even her name. She’d built a new life instead, one where she could use her expertise to help, to teach, instead of to harm.
She’d done it for herself, because it had been important to her to make amends for everything she’d done. And, she realized as she walked the lonely stretch of beach watching the sky slowly turn the inky purple of twilight, she’d done it to impress Marc, too. Though she’d never sought him out, never told him who she had become, there was a part of her that had always believed that if he knew—if he found her—he’d accept the new Isa and forget the pain and the disloyalty and damage of the past.
She hadn’t let herself acknowledge any of those hidden hopes until this moment, however, and now that she had, all they brought was more of the crippling pain she’d sworn she’d leave behind.