The man nodded, scribbled one final note, then he closed the file and put down the ballpoint pen. Two pale hands rested on the gray desk like pink animals. He brought his hands close together, made a steeple of his forefingers, and stared at Shadow with watery hazel eyes.
“You’re lucky,” he said. “You have someone to go back to, you got a job waiting. You can put all this behind you. You got a second chance. Make the most of it.”
The man did not offer to shake Shadow’s hand as he rose to leave, nor did Shadow expect him to.
The last week was the worst. In some ways it was worse than the whole three years put together. Shadow wondered if it was the weather: oppressive, still, and cold. It felt as if a storm was on the way, but the storm never came. He had the jitters and the heebie-jeebies, a feeling deep in his stomach that something was entirely wrong. In the exercise yard the wind gusted. Shadow imagined that he could smell snow on the air.
He called his wife collect. Shadow knew that the phone companies whacked a three-dollar surcharge on every call made from a prison phone. That was why operators are always real polite to people calling from prisons, Shadow had decided: they knew that he paid their wages.
“Something feels weird,” he told Laura. That wasn’t the first thing he said to her. The first thing was “I love you,” because it’s a good thing to say if you can mean it, and Shadow did.
“Hello,” said Laura. “I love you too. What feels weird?”
“I don’t know,” he said. “Maybe the weather. It feels like if we could only get a storm, everything would be okay.”
“It’s nice here,” she said. “The last of the leaves haven’t quite fallen. If we don’t get a storm, you’ll be able to see them when you get home.”
“Five days,” said Shadow.
“A hundred and twenty hours, and then you come home,” she said.
“Everything okay there? Nothing wrong?”
“Everything’s fine. I’m seeing Robbie tonight. We’re planning your surprise welcome-home party.”
“Surprise party?”
“Of course. You don’t know anything about it, do you?”
“Not a thing.”
“That’s my husband,” she said. Shadow realized that he was smiling. He had been inside for three years, but she could still make him smile.
“Love you, babes,” said Shadow.
“Love you, puppy,” said Laura.
Shadow put down the phone.
When they got married Laura told Shadow
that she wanted a puppy, but their landlord had pointed out they weren’t allowed pets under the terms of their lease. “Hey,” Shadow had said, “I’ll be your puppy. What do you want me to do? Chew your slippers? Piss on the kitchen floor? Lick your nose? Sniff your crotch? I bet there’s nothing a puppy can do I can’t do!” And he picked her up as if she weighed nothing at all and began to lick her nose while she giggled and shrieked, and then he carried her to the bed.
In the food hall Sam Fetisher sidled over to Shadow and smiled, showing his old teeth. He sat down beside Shadow and began to eat his macaroni and cheese.
“We got to talk,” said Sam Fetisher.
Sam Fetisher was one of the blackest men that Shadow had ever seen. He might have been sixty. He might have been eighty. Then again, Shadow had met thirty-year-old crackheads who looked older than Sam Fetisher.
“Mm?” said Shadow.
“Storm’s on the way,” said Sam.
“Feels like it,” said Shadow. “Maybe it’ll snow soon.”
“Not that kind of storm. Bigger storm than that coming. I tell you, boy, you’re better off in here than out on the street when the big storm comes.”
“Done my time,” said Shadow. “Friday, I’m gone.”