I did not look at the thing. It was tight in my hand, slimy with my saliva and my phlegm. I did not want to look at it. I did not want it to exist, the bridge between my dream and the waking world.
I ran down the hallway to the bathroom, down at the far end of the house. I washed my mouth out, drank directly from the cold tap, spat red into the white sink. Only when I’d done that did I sit on the side of the white bathtub and open my hand. I was scared.
But what was in my hand—what had been in my throat—wasn’t scary. It was only a coin: a silver shilling.
I went back to the bedroom. I dressed myself, cleaned the vomit from my sheets as best I could with a damp face-flannel. I hoped that the sheets would dry before I had to sleep in the bed that night. Then I went downstairs.
I wanted to tell someone about the shilling, but I did not know who to tell. I knew enough about adults to know that if I did tell them what had happened, I would not be believed. Adults rarely seemed to believe me when I told the truth anyway. Why would they believe me about something so unlikely?
My sister was playing in the back garden with some of her friends. She ran over to me angrily when she saw me. She said, “I hate you. I’m telling Mummy and Daddy when they come home.”
“What?”
“You know,” she said. “I know it was you.”
“What was me?”
“Throwing coins at me. At all of us. From the bushes. That was just nasty.”
“But I didn’t.”
“It hurt.”
She went back to her friends, and they all glared at me. My throat felt painful and ragged.
I walked down the drive. I don’t know where I was thinking of going—I just didn’t want to be there any longer.
Lettie Hempstock was standing at the bottom of the drive, beneath the chestnut trees. She looked as if she had been waiting for a hundred years and could wait for another hundred. She wore a white dress, but the light coming through the chestnut’s young spring leaves stained it green.
I said, “Hello.”
She said, “You were having bad dreams, weren’t you?”
I took the shilling out of my pocket and showed it to her. “I was choking on it,” I told her. “When I woke up. But I don’t know how it got into my mouth. If someone had put it into my mouth, I would have woken up. It was just in there, when I woke.”
“Yes,” she said.
“My sister says I threw coins at them from the bushes, but I didn’t.”
“No,” she agreed. “You didn’t.”
I said, “Lettie? What’s happening?”
“Oh,” she said, as if it was obvious. “Someone’s just trying to give people money, that’s all. But it’s doing it very badly, and it’s stirring things up around here that should be asleep. And that’s not good.”
“Is it something to do with the man who died?”
“Something to do with him. Yes.”
“Is he doing this?”
She shook her head. Then she said, “Have you had breakfast?”
I shook my head.
“Well then,” she said. “Come on.”
We walked down the lane together. There were a few houses down the lane, here and there, back then, and she pointed to them as we went past. “In that house,” said Lettie Hempstock, “a man dreamed of being sold and of being turned into money. Now he’s started seeing things in mirrors.”