I started to answer, to say whatever was necessary to make her understand. But in the end, I hesitated too long and finally only managed to suggest she should pack her things before Conner was ready to leave.
She shook her head, then hurried back into the house. As much as I wanted to follow her, gut instinct told me that would only make things worse. She could believe whatever she wanted about me, but she was still coming to Drylliad.
There were a few stable boys tending to the horses when I arrived there a few minutes later. No sign of Cregan, who was probably now having to get ready for our journey. The longer I avoided him, the better. Cregan had wanted Roden to be chosen. He’d be furious with me for winning out at the last minute.
I chose a quarterhorse named Poco for the ride. The stable boy seemed reluctant to let me have it without direct orders from Conner, so I began preparing the saddle myself. Finally, he said he’d do it before I ruined my clothes and got us both in trouble.
Riding Poco through the open field was refreshing. I’d found spots of time alone over the past two weeks, but nothing of freedom. Poco was an excellent horse, instinctively obedient and eager to be tested. It wasn’t long before Farthenwood was lost behind a wooded hill, and all was silent except for the gentle river nearby with birds chirping overhead. A slight breeze rustled the leaves of the tall trees over my head. I lifted my face to the sky and let the wind and the sun caress my skin. This was freedom.
As much as I’d ever know again, anyway. If Imogen had been right about anything she accused me of back at the house, this was it.
I slid off Poco’s back and walked him to the edge of the river. This wasn’t far from where Windstorm had left me several days ago, and the memory forced a smile to my face. I wished for a friend or a father I could tell the story to and make them laugh. Either with me or at me, I didn’t care. Several smooth rocks lay along the bank of the river. I grabbed a fistful and flung them one by one into the water, watching them skip a time or two before disappearing. One rock I kept for myself.
It was little surprise only a few minutes later when another horse snorted in the background. Mott had come, no doubt. I’d seen him watching me from a distance when I was in the stables. And by the time I reached the arch of the eastern hill, Mott was in the stables. It must have killed him to wait this long before finally approaching me.
“Do you mind a little company?” he asked.
“Yes.”
It didn’t matter. He dismounted and walked over to me. We stood side by side for a long while, watching the river.
Eventually, Mott asked, “Did you know he’d pick you, because of that trick you can do with the coin?”
“I don’t think anyone can predict what Conner will do. It’s what makes him so dangerous.”
“But you must have guessed it, or else you would have escaped this morning. Using the passages, it would have been an easy thing to run.”
“Look what happened to Latamer when he tried to run.”
That brought on an uncomfortable silence. Finally, Mott said, “Conner wants you to know that we’re ready to leave soon. Errol is waiting to help you change into traveling clothes.”
“You’d think they’d make traveling clothes more comfortable,” I muttered. “I believe when I’m king, my first order will be to let everyone wear whatever clothes they want.”
Mott chuckled. “Fashion. What a mighty beginning that will be for your reign.” After another pause, he added, “What kind of king will you be, Sage? Tyrannical and fierce, like Veldergrath would be? Complacent and indifferent, like your father?”
I turned to him. “Like Eckbert, you mean?”
“Of course.” With a cough, Mott added, “Get used to it. If you are Jaron, then Eckbert is your father.”
I let that pass. “If I’m the prince, then you have a higher loyalty to me than to Conner, correct?”
“Yes.”
“Then tell me this, did Conner kill my family?”
“I can’t answer that, Sage.”
“Can’t, or won’t?”
“You haven’t been declared the prince yet.”
I held out my arms to Mott. “Who do you see now, Sage or Jaron?”
Mott studied me for a long time before answering. “The bigger question may be, who do you see?”
“I don’t know. It’s not easy to be one type of person when you’ve worked so hard to be a very different type of person.”
Mott’s reply came so fast I wondered if he’d been waiting for just that type of opening. “And tell me, Sage, which person have you worked so hard to be? The orphan or the prince?”