"Thank you. I would love to," Jolena said, her knees weak at the thought of taking his hand.
When she reached her hand to his and his flesh met hers as he circled his fingers around hers and drew her on toward him, Jolena's breath was sucked away and drawn deep down inside her, causing her to sway from lightheadedness. She swallowed hard and steadied herself, then moved toward him.
Her knees trembled as he helped her down onto the warm grass beside him, regretting it when he released her hand.
Jolena could not keep her eyes off his uncovered chest. She had never seen such muscles, and he was bare of hair, unlike her white brother and father, whose chests were covered with featherings of golden hair.
Beneath the light of the moon, the sleekness of Spotted Eagle's copper skin was very tempting. Yet she was not daring enough to place a hand there, to feel how it might resemble her own when, at age six, she had stood in front of a mirror and had run a hand over her body, wondering why it was different in coloring than her playmates'.
She had then discovered how smooth and soft her copper skin was and took pride from that time on that it was of that color and texture.
"You followed Spotted Eagle to river," he said, yet not looking at her. "That was foolish. Many creatures stalk at night."
Jolena felt awkward, knowing that to reveal the truth to him was to open her soul and heart to him. Instead, she said something else, hoping that might satisfy him, at least for the moment. "I could not go to sleep," she said softly. "I, too, followed the path of the moon to the river." Then she told a lie that she thought was needed. "I had no idea you were here. Again, I'm sorry if I've become a bother to you. Just say the word and I'll leave."
Spotted Eagle quickly looked her way. "You will leave when I leave," he said. "My weapons will protect you."
Jolena was surprised that he was being so talkative with her. All day, in the presence of everyone else, he had been grave, silent, and reserved.
She was glad that he was more open with her. She so badly wanted to question him about what there was about her that was familiar to him, and then tell him about her dreams and what they might have foretold.
She also wanted to prod him for answers to her questions about the Indians in this area, about whether or not he knew of a father whose child had been lost to him eighteen years ago.
But now that she was here, the opportunity staring her in the face, she could not find the words to ask him anything. If he was from her tribe, then she would want to be taken to his village to meet her true people.
Perhaps even her true father.
Then she might never want to return to Saint Louis,
to the man who had raised her with much love and warmth. She felt a keen devotion to Bryce Edmonds.
"Whenever you wish to return to the camp, I would be grateful for whatever protection you lend me as I accompany you there," Jolena said, nervously drawing her legs up before her and circling her arms around them to hold her skirt in place.
Spotted Eagle gazed at her, smiled, and nodded. As their eyes locked in an unspoken understanding, he was reminded of the many questions that he wanted to ask her, yet at the same time he saw no need to ask her why she had been raised as white, for he believed he already knew the answer. He would wait for the perfect time to tell her.
When he knew that her heart belonged solely to him, then he would tell her…
"You like stars and I like butterflies," Jolena said, laughing awkwardly as she wrenched her eyes from his, feeling the danger in his hypnotic stare. She could feel herself being pulled deeper and deeper into the mystique of this man, her very soul crying out to be held by him.
She wanted to experience everything with him. She wanted to share her deepest feelings and emotions with him, if he would allow it.
For now, she must make small talk only. She must move slowly into this true knowing of him and his people. She did not want to regret later something that she might do now because of the sensual lethargy that she was experiencing at his nearness.
She wanted it to be totally right when she moved into his arms and allowed him to teach her the true meaning of being a woman…
"You seek a special butterfly," Spotted Eagle said softly. "I have seen it. Soon I hope you will also see its loveliness."
He was glad to be drawn into small talk, knowing that this would delay what he so badly wanted to do. He had waited a lifetime for her, and it was hard not to hold her and tell her that she was already everything to him without even that first kiss.
In time, he thought to himself.
In time, the moment would be right for him to draw her into his arms, to kiss… to hold… and to claim her totally as his.
For now, he would just enjoy being with her, absorbing her every move, her every word, her every smile.
All of these things pleasured him more than he would have imagined a woman could affect him ever again.
But she was not just any woman. She was the mirror image of Sweet Dove.