Kirk looked at Jolena. "I'd say it was worth it," he said, smiling softly. "Seems I've got my sister back."
Jolena smiled weakly at him, knowing that it did appear that way, yet she knew that this closeness was only temporary.
Even after they continued on with their journey and made camp for the night, Jolena continued to pamper Kirk with all sorts of attention. She was thankful that he was all right, and she could not help but feel somewhat guilty for how she would soon abandon him. So for now, at least, she was trying to make up to him all at once.
"Here's another cup of coffee," Jolena said as she brought the tin cup back to Kirk, where he was leaning his back against the trunk of a tree, resting before the slowly burning embers of a campfire. "Can I get anything else for you? There's plenty of rabbit left. Would you care for more?"
"Sis, sit right down here beside me," Kirk said, patting the blanket that was spread out beneath him. "All I need is you."
Jolena lifted the hem of her travel skirt and plopped down beside Kirk. When he reached an arm around her waist, drawing her close, she allowed it. They sat quietly watching the fire as they had so often as children in their granite fireplace in their plush parlor in Saint Louis.
"We've shared so much," Kirk said, his voice thick with melancholy. "Remember how we used to share our dreams? Do you wish to share them again, sis? I… I feel as though I am losing you. As each day passes, I sense I have lost a little more of you to this land of your ancestors."
He reached for one of her hands and clutched hard to it. "Oh, God, Jolena, please don't let it happen," he pleaded. "No matter the color of your skin, in every sense of the word you are my sister. You are my best friend." ''I know," Jolena murmured, easing into his embrace. "I know, Kirk."
She hugged him as though it might be her last chance to do so.
She wanted to whisper to him that she was sorry for the decisions that she had recently made in her life that would sorely affect his. She wanted to beg him to understand, yet she felt that this was not the timeif ever there would be a right time.
Spotted Eagle watched, but did not grow jealous at the sight of his woman being hugged by another man. He could see the desperation in the brother and sister's embrace.
And he understood why.
Without Kirk being aware of it, it was the beginning of the farewell between him and his beloved sister.
Spotted Eagle glanced over at Two Ridges, who sat sullenly at his right side, staring aimlessly into the fire. Spotted Eagle had not yet told Two Ridges the truth about Jolenathat she was his true sister. He wanted to savor the secret that was now only Jolena's and Spotted Eagle's for as long as possible.
And he feared that a chain reaction might be started should he reveal the news to Two Ridges or Jolena too soon. Kirk Edmonds would then know also and would realize that Jolena's days and hours with him were numbered.
It was best delayed, this telling of truths that could hurt and possibly jeopardize Spotted Eagle's future with Jolena. Kirk could become crazed enough with the knowing and steal Jolena away, forcing her on the large, white canoe that would take her back to Saint Louis, where she would be lost to Spotted Eagle forever.
He nodded, knowing without a shadow of a doubt that this secret was best left alone, for now.
Chapter Eighteen
The next morning, a mist filled the air, so that in the uncertain light objects seemed shrouded in mystery as the wagons moved slowly alongside a steep cliff, then momentarily away from it as the mules ambled along, squealing as the wagoners swore at them and uncoiled and snapped their whips like fusillades of rifle fire over their heads.
Jolena clung to her wagon seat, fear entering her heart as black storm clouds began gathering more thickly in the sky overhead and lightning moved in bright zigzags between them.
"Kirk, I don't like the looks of the sky," Jolena said, breaking the silence between them.
She looked over at Kirk, whose lips were pursed and whose eyes squinted angrily as he stared ahead, tending to his team of stubborn mules. "Kirk, did you hear what I said?" Jolena persisted. "It seems as though you are in a different world today. Is it because of what happened yesterday? Because of your fall?"
She glanced at the purple knot on his head, knowing that it must be throbbing painfully. Kirk had not allowed Spotted Eagle anywhere near him when Spotted Eagle had brought herbs gathered from the forest to place upon the wound. Even though Kirk had not been told anything about Jolena's plans to stay with Spotted Eagle when the time came for everyone else to return to Saint Louis, Kirk seemed to sense it. When Spotted Eagle had offered to help him, Kirk had shunned him.
"It's this whole damn mess of an expedition," Kirk finally said in a low grumble. He gave Jolena a frowning glare. "I've had enough. I want to return to Saint Louis. Both you and I have almost lost our lives trying to find that damnable butterfly. And now it's not only the euphaedra that you are so obsessed with, it's also the nymphalid."
Kirk paused, his eyes locked momentarily with Jolena's. Then he looked ahead again, watching the procession of the wagons that were traveling in front of him and Jolena today, instead of following. Somehow he felt safer lagging behind instead of being the lead wagon.
Jolena started to comment on what her brother had said, but stopped when he began talking again in a monotone. "If you ask me, sis, the nymphalid is living up to its legend," Kirk said exasperatedly. "It has not only almost teased you to your death, but also me. I don't want to be around when it appears again, as though out of nowhere, with its teasings."
He gazed at Jolena again, his eyes pleading. "Let's turn around right now, Jolena, and return to Saint Louis," he said softly. "Once father hears the dangers we put ourselves in to catch the butterfly of his obsession, he will know that our decision to return home was right. He would not want it any other way."
Jolena reached a hand over and patted K
irk's knee. "I know that what you experienced yesterday was frightening," she murmured. "And when I almost plummeted to my death, I was petrified. But both times it was an accidentnot the doings of a butterfly. Surely nothing else will happen."
She moved her hand away from him and clung to the wagon seat again when the wheels sank into a pothole, then rolled free again, the wagon swaying dangerously from side to side from the jolt.