Hands gripping her shoulders, almost painfully, caused Jolena to look suddenly up, finding her Blackfoot father's dark eyes silently pleading with her.
"Tell me the rest," Brown Elk said, his voice drawn. "Did Two Ridges and Spotted Eagle lose control of their horses? Were they thrown and trampled to death? Tell me. I must know the fate of my son, Two Ridges!"
Everything that Brown Elk was saying was lost to Jolena except that he had called Two Ridges his son!
Jolena become numb inside to know that Two Ridges was kin to her by blood!
They had the same father!
That meant that although Two Ridges certainly had not known it, he had fallen in love with his sister! The thought sickened her, and the only thing that helped her keep her sanity was that neither of them had known that when they were together they should have been rejoicing over a brother and sister having finally found one another!
Now she pitied Two Ridges more than she could ever hate him.
She even pitied herself, for never could she love Two Ridges as a sister loves a brother.
He had made that impossible!
"Two Ridges is all right," Jolena said, searching within her scrambled brain for a way to tell him that she knew he was alive without actually being forced to tell him how she knew and the circumstances of how she had escaped from her captorBrown Elk's very own son!
"Before I was thrown from the wagon and rendered unconscious II saw Two Ridges jump from his horse before it plunged over a steep cliff… along with the others," she murmured, lowering her eyes. She hated to lie, and she cursed Two Ridges for having caused her to!
"My son is alive," Brown Elk said, showing his relief as he sighed, then asked, "Spotted Eagle?" He implored Jolena with another look of concern. "You saw Spotted Eagle plunge to his death?''
"No, I did not witness it, butbut I believe that it is so," Jolena said softly. "Were he alive, he would be here now. As for Two Ridges, he most surely did not see me thrown from the wagon. When he was forced to travel without a horse, I am sure he began walking even then toward the village. I do not know why I arrived before him. Perhaps he stopped to rest, or… to pray."
She hated Two Ridges more by the minute for putting her in the position of having to add lie upon lie. Two Ridges had told her that he had seen Spotted Eagle fall to his death, yet she could not tell her Blackfoot father that Two Ridges had told her this without having to explain why she had been with Two Ridges, while she was trying to pretend that she had not been with him at all.
She circled her hands into tight fists at her sides, finding this awkward and confusing and hating it because she wanted to be free of all emotions except for being happy at finally having found her true fatherand sad for having lost the only man she could ever love!
"It is not certain that either warrior is dead," Brown Elk said, hope showing in the depths of his eyes as he smiled at Jolena. "Let me take you to your true people and let them see this daughter of mine who has never forgotten her father. I will introduce you and then tell Chief Gray Bear the news of his son, Spotted Eagle. We will then send out many of our warriors to search for both missing sons."
Jolena could not help but hope, after seeing her Blackfoot father's calm reaction to the news, that perhaps Spotted Eagle was alive after all. A gentle peace seemed to embrace her as she allowed herself to believe that Two Ridges had lied to her about Spotted Eagle's death!
Oh, but if only he were alive!
Jolena walked beside her Blackfoot father, absorbing everything around her, feeling strangely as though she had been in this place before. It was eerie how she felt that she had seen the same hides pinned out to dry outside the dwellings and how she had seen the same tepees, and the tepee paintings showing the exploits of the husbands.
Her gaze fell upon the rawhide shields that hung from tripods outside many of the tepees. Her curiosity having led her to study Indians, she knew that the shields were ceremonially turned by the owner several times a day to face the sun.
As they came closer to the activity of the village, she saw some women outside cooking in brass buckets which they had obtained through barter with the Pawnee of the North, who in turn had procured them from white traders. Old men sat in the sunshine and contemplatively smoked the aromatic mixture of tobacco leaves and bark they called kinnikinick.
Soon Jolena became aware that everyone had become quiet as their eyes discovered her at Brown Elk's side. The children hid behind the buckskin skirts of their mothers. Some women went back inside their dwellings, their large, dark eyes visible as the corners of their entrance flaps, which were drawn slowly aside so they could see this stranger who was of their same skin coloring, yet dressed as a white person.
Realizing how disheveled she was, Jolena reached a hand to her hair, groaning when she found nothing but witches' knots and tangles.
Her gaze then swept down the full length of herself, seeing the rips and tears of her travel skirt and the soiling of her blouse that now looked more muddied gray than white.
When Jolena and Brown Elk reached the largest, most beautifully decorated tepee of all, decorated with buffalo tails and brightly painted pictures of animals on the outside, her knees weakened when the entrance flap was raised and an elderly man, all stooped and thin in a long and flowing buckskin robe, came from the tepee, leaning heavily on a staff. As she gazed up at him and found herself lost in his midnight-dark eyes, she surmised that this was Spotted Eagle's chieftain father and felt humble in his presence.
He stared intensely at her, his lips parting in a slight gasp, and Jolena was quickly aware that he also saw her mother in her features.
"You who resemble someone of our people's past goes by what name?" Chief Gray Bear finally said in a weak voice. He gazed at Brown Elk. "Where did you find her? Brown Elk, how can this be? Your wife's grave lies just beyond that rise. How can she be here?"
"My wife Sweet Dove is always with me in spirit," Brown Elk said softly. He placed an arm around Jolena's waist and drew her to his side. "This is my ni-tunmy daughter. She has no Blackfoot name. She was given the name Jolena by those who took her from her homeland eighteen summers ago!" His eyes wide, Chief Gray Bear took a shaky step toward Jolena. "It is truly you?" he said, reaching his free hand to her cheek, guardedly touching it. "After all these years, you have come home to your father and people? How did you know to do this? How did you know about us?"
"For so long I didn't," Jolena said, trembling beneath his gentle touch and recalling how often Spotted Eagle had also touched her there with such feelings. Missing him so much at this moment, her whole body ached from despair and acute loneliness.
"From the time I was old enough, I knew the difference between myself and my playmates," she continued softly. "But only recently did I discover my true heritage."