The Soulmate Equation
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“Don’t tug her,” Jess reminded her gently.
“I’m not.”
Out of the corner of her eye, Jess saw Pigeon’s tail twitch just moments before she dove forward, catching something triumphantly in her paws. All that time she’d been hunkering down, she’d been on the hunt.
Juno squealed, delighted. “Mom!” She waved Jess over, and Jess halted just as Juno said, “Pigeon caught a praying mantis.”
That was a Hell No from Jess, but Fizzy jumped up, getting an eyeful of the six-inch-long insect Pigeon clearly had no idea what to do with. She trapped it, batted it with a paw, and simultaneously looked semi-disgusted by the entire thing.
“Juno,” Jess said, laughing, “baby, just get Pigeon to let it go.”
Juno bent, prying the cat’s paws apart and releasing the praying mantis, which calmly prowled away.
Fizzy settled back on the bench and, somehow, Jess knew what was coming. “We could all learn a lot from that cat.”
“Here we go,” she said.
“Jumping on an opportunity when we see it.”
“Mm-hmm,” Jess answered, distracted.
“Like, sure,” Fizzy continued, ignoring her, “I get being careful, but when the opportunity arises, take it.”
“Like Pigeon did?” Jess said, laughing. “She caught that poor thing and had zero clue what to do next.”
She felt Fizzy turn to look at her. “You think you wouldn’t know how to use thirty thousand dollars?”
“Actually, that’s the part that I’m stuck on—the greatest incentive and the biggest drawback. I need money, but in some ways, I think it’d be easier to do this purely for the sake of science or whatever.” She shrugged, tilting her face to the sky. “Being paid to ‘get to know River’ feels vaguely … illegal.”
Fizzy laughed. “And see, I put that in the ‘pro’ column.”
“You’re the adventurous one.”
“All I’m saying is you’d be insane to not do this.”
Jess let out a long, slow breath. “Trust me, I’m seriously considering it.”
“Good.” After a long stretch of quiet, Fizzy added, “Incidentally, I met someone I really like last night.”
They’d been together since almost seven thirty that morning, and she was only mentioning this now? “Really? Is he a match?”
“He is what’s known in science as an ‘organic match,’” Fizzy joked. “Daniel had a few people over, and this guy Rob was there. He’s Daniel’s brother’s friend from college and is now a banker, which I realize sounds so generic it has to be fake, but I made him show me his business card and it’s legit. It actually says ‘Banker.’ He’s funny and good-looking, and I was in peak Fizzy mode last night and he seemed charmed by it.”
“Peak Fizzy mode as in oral manifesto about the positive impact of romance novels on society? Or peak Fizzy mode as in spontaneously wallpapering your bedroom at midnight with pages from your favorite books?”
“Peak Fizzy mode as in three shots of tequila and recruiting Rob to help me hide Daniel’s shoes all over the house.”
“Ah.” Jess turned her attention back to Juno, who had given up on walking Pigeon and was letting other children pet the cat instead. “You should have Banker Rob tested to see how he compares to the other dates.”
“I’m not actually sure I want to,” Fizzy said. “I had the scores for those other guys, and we had fun, but going in knowing that they probably wouldn’t work long-term made it easy to not take it seriously. I didn’t expect my dates to be life-altering, and they weren’t. Was it because the test is right, or because I didn’t expect them to be soulmates?”
“I mean, statistically you’re more likely to get a soulmate with a Silver Match than you are to ever get a Titanium Match.”
“You’re statisticsizing me.”
Jess laughed. What could she really say to Fizzy when she was, herself, grappling with the opposite concern: Did people given a score of ninety-eight just assume that person would be their happily ever after?
“And I keep thinking you’re crazy to not get to know River,” Fizzy continued, “but if I got a Diamond Match, would I feel overwhelmed with the pressure and bail, too?”
Jess laughed at their mental symmetry. “Mm-hmm.”
“Then again, I think if I got even a Gold Match, I’d be pretty stoked.” Fizzy pulled a leg beneath her, turning to face Jess. “There’s something about knowing you align according to all of these biological factors that makes it easier to imagine compromising on some of the ways I’m set in my routine.” She paused. “But still.” She exhaled, puffing out her cheeks. “I like Rob. I don’t want to know yet that he and I aren’t supposed to end up together.”
“So you do believe it?” Jess asked, gently poking Fizzy’s knee with her index finger. “All of this DNADuo stuff?”
Fizzy caught her hand and interlaced their fingers. “I think the more important question is: Do you?”
TEN
CONSUMED BY A strange disorientation, Jess climbed from her car outside the GeneticAlly building. It was after seven, and the parking lot was empty, but the stillness was somehow more unsettling. Her hands seemed to float ten feet away from her body; it felt like she was gliding more than walking. This physical dissociation wasn’t new to her. She’d felt it on and off her entire childhood, and therapy had revealed that it happened when she was avoiding thinking about what it all meant. But every time she thought about the prospect that the DNADuo really was right and that she and River might actually be good together, a wall went up inside her and the entire mental monologue just went dark.