I raised my eyebrows at her. “That night with Jake…was my first time.”
“First time doing what?”
I smiled. “Having sex.”
Her brow furrowed a little deeper. “You mean it was your first time in a long time?”
I shook my head. “Nope.”
“Hold on,” she said, lowering her voice a little. “Are you telling me that you were a virgin before Jake?”
I smiled. “Jackpot; she finally got it.”
“You’re a virgin?” Melody exclaimed.
“Well, obviously not anymore,” I said. “But up until a week or so ago… Yes, I was a virgin.”
“Fuck.”
“Some people wait to have sex, you know,” I said.
“Not any people I know.”
“Until me, of course.”
“Wow,” Melody said, clearly processing through my revelation. “How come it took so long? You’re a hottie; I can’t believe you didn’t have the option before now?”
“I did,” I confirmed. “It was just different for me.”
“How?”
I smiled. “Maybe I was just waiting for my soul mate.”
“Are you serious?” she asked, mistaking my tone.
I laughed. “No, Mel,” I said. “I was joking.”
“Seriously, though, why did you wait so long?”
I sighed. “I came really close when I was about seventeen. I was in the back of Bobby Trevor’s father’s car, and we were making out. His hands were all over me, and we were both half naked. He removed my panties and then…he came.”
“Before—”
“Yup.”
“Oh boy.”
I laughed. “He was really embarrassed…so embarrassed in fact that he didn’t look at me or talk to me after that. I guess that experience made me realize he didn’t really care about me. He wanted my body. I was just a piece of meat to him. It made me see sex differently, and it made me raise my standards. I wasn’t about to give myself to a guy who didn’t give a shit.”
“Surely, there were other guys between then and now?”
“You’d be surprised,” I said. “I told myself that I’d only ever sleep with a man I was deeply connected to. And that didn’t happen for me.”
“Until Jake?” Melody asked.
“Right…”
“Wait, so what you’re telling me is that you’ve fallen for your boss?”