He was right.
"Kiss me," I whispered, and he did.
Kova's body made love to mine, his lips matching the tenacity of his hips, so nice and slow until I was quivering and on the verge of release.
"Oh, just like that," I moaned, my eyes closing.
"Look at me. I want to see your face when you come around my cock."
That was all it took. I opened my eyes and searched for his, my orgasm taking complete hold of me while my body rippled with pleasure. I gasped, taking little breaths of air as euphoria took hold of my body. My hands squeezed his, and he returned the gesture. I was coming so hard I was on the verge of tears.
"Yes, like that, Adrianna. Just…like…that…" He drew out like he was proud and rocked into me. "I wish you could see your face when you come. How your eyes get glossy, feel how your pussy pulsates around my cock. You squeeze me so fucking hard I just want to tear into you harder."
My thighs were sticky with my pleasure, but I didn't care. Kova loved it, and so did I.
"Do it. Give me everything and don't hold back," I said.
Desire subsided and Kova loosened his grip on my hands and sat back on his knees to straddle me, still nestled deep inside. Breathless, I didn't move and stared at my ceiling in a state of astonishment. How could sex be this good? I was dazed and confused by how something like this could be felt. It wasn't normal. It couldn’t be.
Palms skimming my stomach to my breasts, Kova cupped and tugged on my nipples. A zing shot to my core and I drew in a breath. I glanced at him and my eyes immediately dropped to the A on his chest. The blood had stopped and I could see the swollen outline of the letter. His eyes followed my gaze. The corners of his mouth curved into a sexy-as-fuck smile and he pinched my nipples harder as he looked at the mark—my mark—that would scar him forever. His cock jumped inside me and I exhaled from the tenderness.
Looking down at me, Kova's eyes were glittering with depraved thoughts, and it sent a shiver down to my toes. I bit the side of my lip and awareness sparked through him.
"You were wet when you cut into me. It made you feel good."
I nodded subtly. It was partially true. There were things that made me curious, I just never spoke about them because I thought it made me weird.
"I was also so over everything that I wanted to inflict pain on you because I wanted you to feel the pain that's consumed me for months. What I felt inside was because of you, and I wanted you to experience it. I wanted you to feel it more. But then the kidney diagnosis happened, and I feel like I'm constantly being lied to for my protection. I feel like I have to have this tight hold on my emotions for everybody else's sake and I just fucking snapped. Cutting into you felt like I was releasing all this pent-up emotion, like I was hitting this crazy high and it was all coming out of me. No one to fight me, no one to control me. No more lies. I was in control for once, and I was free of this fucking burden that couldn’t hold me down anymore." I licked my lips. "I'm ashamed I used you like that. I'm so sorry."
"You wanted to keep going," he stated, thrusting into me.
I mused over his statement. "I don't know. Kind of. The feeling inside my chest scared me a little. I don't think you would've stopped me if I wanted to keep going."
Kova reached between my sex and felt for the sensitive little ball of nerves. Separating my swollen lips, he caressed my clit.
"No, not yet," I said through a sigh and softened.
I was trapped under him with his hard cock still inside me. The sheer pleasure felt so good the way he rubbed my clit that my hips took on a slow roll. My teeth dug into my bottom lip.
"Do not tell me to stop," he said. "I told you, all night." Kova glanced down and pulled my lips open to expose my clit. "You are correct, though. I would not have stopped you. If you needed to mark my entire body, I would have let you because I understand what you were feeling, you forget I also felt strongly too. Every day it was getting worse for me, but then you pressed the blade into me, and I knew it was something we both needed. I felt like I could breathe. We were both letting everything go and starting brand new."
Kova was exactly right. I had felt like I was being born again. All my sins were washed away with his blood, and my knife was freeing his demons.
"I am yours, however you want me," he said. Something wild entered his eyes as he watched himself pump little thrusts into me. "Always and forever."
I could watch him do this all day, the way he looked at my pussy, how he reached forward and gripped my hips fiercely and drove in harder. His head rolled back in pleasure and Kova seemed lost to the sensations taking over. He was growing closer. I could see the thick vein in his neck trailing down and over his collarbone.
"I love seeing you like this," I admitted. My voice was so husky, but I wanted to compliment him the way he did me. He needed it too. "So free and open to me when you're yourself. I could stare at your body for hours, feel your hands on me for days. I've never felt anything like this but with you."
"Oh, Ria…" he ground out, "it is taking more restraint than I ever knew I had to not relentlessly fuck you again. I love watching you fall apart under me."
Licking my lips, I said softly, "I'm yours. Take me however you want."
Kova didn't hesitate. Gripping my hips, his fingers dug into me, nails scoring my skin as he drove his cock in and out with skill. Thrusting sinfully hard three more times, he was coming. He held me so resolutely and shoved his way in so fucking deep that I felt a little tearing again, but I didn't tell him to stop. His warm cum leaked from me down my ass. It made me feel good, sexy and wanted, to see him aroused from me.
Chest blushing from ecstasy, he looked at me, and said, "I am sorry. I should not have finished inside of you, but I do not know what happens to me. With you, I do not think clearly. I am consumed with us. This obsession takes over and I lose control and make stupid decisions. Only with you, Ria. Only with you do you make me do and wish for things I should never." He panted like he was trying to catch his breath. "I will be better about that. No more after this. I will buy us condoms."
"It's okay. I do too." I swallowed hard. "I like when you come inside of me," I said honestly.