“If you keep talking like that, I’m going to have to change my panties before we leave.” She exhales sharply.
“Then we better make sure they’re nice and dirty.” I pull up her dress and slide my hand between her thighs.
I feel like we’ve found equal footing with what we both need. It wasn’t perfect after she got out of the hospital. We still had some growing pains to get over, but it’s been months since we fought. It’s been weeks since Ainsley even asked if we could try one of her fantasies. I don’t want her to lose touch with them.
They’re a big part of who she is, and loving her means loving them as well.
Ainsley
It’s been one year since Sarah convinced me to trash Lawson’s office. Since then, I’ve shared so many of my firsts with him. So many that it’s hard to imagine another first without him in my life. Most of them are firsts that will never have a second, like the engagement ring he just put on my left hand, and the wedding ring that will join it.
I don’t get to experience many of Lawson’s firsts, but I get to experience him at his best. He’s an amazing man and a wonderful lover. He’s caring. He’s giving. He’s everything I could have wanted and more.
“Why do I have to keep my eyes closed?” I sigh as I feel the car make another turn. “You’re not driving me out to the middle of nowhere to kill me, are you?”
“Murder doesn’t usually follow the engagement.” He gives me a nudge. “That normally happens after the wedding.”
“Yeah, well, it’s pretty unfair that you put this ring on my finger and won’t even let me look at it.” I sigh. “Talk about torturing someone! I didn’t even get a chance to take a picture to show my mom!”
“Your mom saw the ring before you did.” He laughs. “Do you really think I would ask you to marry me without getting her blessing first?”
“Okay, I’ll calm down some.” I lean back against the seat.
Lawson continues to amaze me. Every day with him is an adventure, whether I’m the woman in his arms, or across his knee saying I’m sorry, Daddy. I didn’t even have to think twice when he asked me to marry him. I want to spend every single day with him that I can.
“You can open your eyes now.” Lawson squeezes my hand as the car comes to a stop.
“Finally!” I open my eyes and tilt my head in confusion. “Where are we?”
“A house.” He chuckles under his breath.
“Yeah, but why…” I look over at him.
“This is the first house the real estate agent is going to show us.” He points at a woman standing in the driveway. “She’s waiting.”
“You’re buying a house?” I finally put it all together.
“No.” He squeezes my hand again. “We’re buying a house. We have to have somewhere to live after we get married.”
“I just assumed we’d live in your apartment.” I raise both eyebrows in surprise. “It’s big enough.”
“For now.” He shrugs. “But I don’t really want to convert my office into a nursery, especially now that I have to work from home more than I used to.”
“Nursery?” I scoff. “I think I would know if I was pregnant.”
“I know it’s a ways off. You have to finish school first. This house does have more than enough room for a nursery; it has a pool, a jacuzzi tub, and there’s even a theater downstairs.” He smiles.
“Okay, I’m sold.” I reach over and open my door.
We hold hands as we walk to the house and get the grand tour from the real estate agent. Life is moving fast. It’s hard to keep up sometimes. A year ago, I was a foolish nineteen-year-old girl obsessing over every guy I met that checked a box in one of my fantasies. Now I’m back in school, engaged, and looking at the house I may be living in after we get married.
Am I ready to be a mom? I don’t know. Like Lawson said, it’s a ways off, but life will get me there at some point. Get us there.
If there’s one thing I’ve learned during my time with Lawson, it’s that real life is so much better than any fantasy I could come up with.
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