“Cal, I know you like to have control over every situation, but for once, I need you to just… relax.” His chest is rising and falling so rapidly, and I swear I can hear his heart pounding beneath my hands.
“Keep your fucking clothes on.” He growls and I nod. Fair. I close my eyes and begin to rock back and forth against him again. “Open them.” I assume he means my eyes and when I do, his gaze locks with mine instantly. His hands move to my hips, gripping them as I move back and forth.
“Fuck. That feels good.”
“Does…it?” He chokes out, and I nod.
“I’m going to come.”
He clears his throat, and when I meet his eyes, they’re filled with lust. “Tell me when.”
I nod and his hands move up my hips and rest under the t-shirt I’m wearing. He strokes the skin just above my belly button as my hips begin moving more erratically as I chase the orgasm that was just out of reach. “I’m going to come, oh fuck!” He wraps his hands around my waist again, moving my body faster against his cock. “I want to wait for you.” I whimper as my toes begin to curl.
“No. Come, Madeline. Come for me, right now.”
Come for me. Those three words are so much louder than the rest and have a direct line with my clit which feels like is about to splinter into a million pieces. “Oh, God, Cal!” I scream as I squirm and writhe on top of his cock. My body feels like I’ve stuck my finger in a light socket and I’ve short-circuited every single nerve in my body. I drop to his chest, my head resting over his heartbeat. My limbs feel like they weigh a hundred pounds, boneless and useless, and I’m fairly certain I’ve lost my sense of sight because when I open my eyes everything’s blurry and unfocused. It isn’t until a tear trickles down my cheek that I realize that I’m crying as my body searches for the equilibrium after the most intense orgasm of my life. “Oh my God, that was incredible,” I moan.
“Holy fuck,” I hear before I’m flipped on my back and he’s rubbing against me between my open legs. I wrap my legs around him hoping that he’ll get the message and move closer to me, and he must be driven by his cock, in this moment, because he leans down and hovers over me. His lips an inch from mine. “I kiss you and it’s over.”
“What is?”
“Everything we’ve ever known.”
“I’m willing to risk it.”
“You can’t breathe a word of this to anyone. No one can know I touched yo
u like…this.”
“I know.”
“I’d lose everything. I’d lose…you.”
“I know that too.” My heart hammers faster at the thought of being away from Cal. He’s been my hero, my knight in shining armor, and the love of my life for so long and the lines have been blurry for a while now. But from the looks of it, he’s catching up. “I won’t tell anyone. Our secret.”
I see the very smallest hint of a nod, and then his hands are moving up my body and cupping my face. “You’re so fucking beautiful.”
“When did you notice?” I ask, dying to know when things changed for him. When I was no longer the girl that he saved from the most horrific tragedy of her life.
“You don’t want to know.”
“Yes, I do.”
“A year ago…”
I gasp. “What…?”
“On your seventeenth birthday. You ran over to me and jumped in my arms to thank me for the car…I…I almost dropped you.” My heart skips in my chest and a thousand butterflies shed their cocoons in my stomach. He rubs against me again and I feel my body start to hum with pleasure as it builds again.
“Do you think about me when you touch yourself?”
“Yes, but I never let myself come…not thinking about you. Never about you.” He lowers his head almost shamefully and I press a hand to his cheek.
“Why is that a bad thing?”
“I’m a monster, Maddie. I can’t believe I’m doing this to you. I promise, I’ll pay for a really good therapist one day.”
I chuckle. “Don’t make jokes while your dick is pressed against me.”