“Who is it?”
He stays silent, infuriating me further. “Start fucking talking, Nathan.” I whisper angrily.
“Calm down.”
“I will not calm down!” I snap. “Is this some sort of sick joke?”
He turns his back to me before he goes to the window and looks down at the party below.
Uneasiness fills me. “Nathan?”
Is this why he’s been acting so weird lately?
I feel a lump forming in my throat.
“You said our relationship would never change,” he replies quietly.
“And you told me you like men,” I spit. My nostrils flare as I try to hold in tears. My gaze drops to the floor, he’s been hiding this from me.
A woman.
“How long have you been lying to me?” I whisper.
He spins toward me, angered. “You think I want to lie to you? You think I want to go through this fucking shit?” He throws his phone and it hits the wall with force. I jump, startled. “I don’t even know who I am anymore.”
His silhouette blurs from my tears.
His eyes hold mine, and then, without another word, he picks up his computer and his phone from the floor and storms from the room.
I stare at a spot on the carpet for a long time, unsure what to think, unsure what to do. Did that really just happen?
Ten years.
I go to the window and look down at the party. Everyone is dancing and having the best time. I see Nathan take his computer and hook it to the speakers.
Who is she?
Betrayal washes over me like a wave in the ocean and I pinch the bridge of my nose as I try to calm myself down. And I here I was thinking… feeling.
My stomach rolls at the thought of him with a woman. Another woman.
He was mortified for touching me the other night because he saw it as cheating on her. He doesn’t want to sleep beside me anymore… because of her.
God, I’m a disaster.
And here I was thinking that there was something developing between us.
It has nothing to do with me.
My tears break the dam, and I drop to sit on the bed.
This hurts.
I always knew that one day I would lose him to someone else, but I was mollified by knowing that it would never be completely because I would always be the only woman in his life.
I think back and see the haunted look on his face, and his words come back to me.
I don’t even know who I am any more.