A thousand times more.
But I can't think of anything, and she's looking at me with worried eyes, so I come up with something. "Yay!"
She blinks. Recoils a bit. Smacks my chest. "Yay? That's all I get? Are you fucking serious, Adiron?"
"I'm not good with words," I tell her, my voice stupidly husky with emotion.
She crosses her arms over her chest.
I put my hand between us, touching her stomach. "I just…" Kef me, there must be a breeze in here. My eyes are watering. "I'm good. I am. I just can't think of the right words that you'd want to hear."
Jade's expression softens. She reaches up and brushes a bit of dampness off my face. "Just tell me that you love me."
"I love you," I manage hoarsely around the keffing knot in my keffing throat. "So much."
"Are you happy?" Her voice is soft.
I nod.
A tiny smile curves her mouth. "I'm a little terrified. Happy, but terrified. How are we going to raise a baby in space?"
I touch her stomach again. I can't stop touching it. I wonder how long it'll be before I'll be able to feel the little guy—or girl—in there. "We'll make room on the Little Sister. You're not leaving my side."
"I just…after what happened with Shaalyn, I worry it won't be safe." She bites her lip. "But I don't want to force you to give up your dreams."
"My dreams?" I repeat dumbly. Does she not get it? "Jade, you are my dream. A family is my dream." I rub my knuckles lightly over her stomach. "Corsairing is just a way to make credits. If it becomes dangerous or if you start to hate it, we can do something else."
"Are you sure?"
"A thousand times sure," I tell her. "Who knows, maybe we'll set up on Risda like Kivian's brother. They seem happy enough."
A little smile curves her mouth. "What about your brothers?"
That's definitely a question. It's always been just the three of us—and Zoey. We took in Sophie, of course, not because we needed another crew member, but just because she was lost and afraid and she just seemed desperate to have a job of some kind. After years of Zoey on the ship, it was odd to have no female presence. Jade and I—and a baby—would definitely change the dynamic. I can't do stupid shit anymore just for fun. I've got a family to think about. "When we find them again, we'll work something out. They won't mind more crew."
Even if they do, Jade and the baby come first. They won't, though. I know my brothers. They know how miserable I've been since the Shaalyn incident. They'll be thrilled that I'm happy…and something tells me Kaspar and Mathiras might be tangled up with her friends.
That's a future worry, though, and I'm a male that likes to live in the present. So I press a kiss to Jade's plush mouth…and then kiss her again, because there's nothing better than kissing my female. I bury my hands in her hair when she lets out a soft little sigh, and I deepen the kiss.
Jade chuckles against my lips, trying to pull back. "Won't someone see us?"
"Don't care," I say, capturing her mouth again. I slick my tongue against hers and put my hands on her hips. I lift her up, just a little, and then drag her cunt against the length of my cock. "No one will look."
She moans, rocking her hips against mine, creating more friction between us. "Adi…we shouldn't."
"Yes we should." I tug on her jumper. "You think it doesn't turn me on to know that you're carrying my baby? That I put my child inside this gorgeous body of yours?"
I hear Jade suck in a breath, followed by a whimper. Her hands go on my face, and then she's kissing me even harder while she lifts her hips up so I can undo the fasteners on her trou.
My gorgeous, hungry mate. Kef, I love this female. I growl against her pretty mouth, even as I tear at her clothing. The fasteners come apart, and I shove at the material between us, until it pools between her thighs. When I touch her cunt, she's hot and slippery, and she rocks against my fingers with a moan.
"No one's going to look," I promise her between kisses. With one hand, I undo my own trou, and my other hand plays along the folds of her cunt, searching for her favorite spots. I slide a finger into her heat, using my thumb to tease her clit. She practically sits on my hand in her eagerness, panting my name against my mouth. "If they do look," I whisper, "all they'll see is you bouncing on my cock. They'll see that I'm giving it to you so hard. That I'm so deep inside you. No one's ever claimed you so hard, have they, Jade?"