She eyed him from inside the sleeping bag. The events of the night trickled over her like cold running water. Was he angry? Upset? She couldn’t immediately tell. He hadn’t given her the impression he was angry last night when she’d told him about the baby. Surprised, yes. But not mad.
She would wait, she decided, before she broached the subject again, wait until he’d had time to digest the news and then ask how he felt about it. She hoped he would want to be a part of the baby’s life but she wasn’t holding her breath. She couldn’t let go of a bit of disappointment that he’d not been happy at the news. While maybe it was unrealistic, she had hoped he would at least be joyful. Maybe not ecstatic, but a bit excited. Apparently not.
* * *
The trip back to the ranch was unusually quiet. Clay was absorbed by the information Sophie had laid on his doorstep. She was having his child. He had no doubt it was his. She didn’t date, although why a beautiful woman like Sophie would remain almost celibate he couldn’t begin to guess. As close as they were, he would certainly know if there was another man in the picture.
She’d said she loved him. He’d taken it as something she might say in the heat of passion. Could she truly feel that way? And if so, where did that leave him? He certainly cared for Sophie. Deeply. She was his best friend and a very special person in his life, a life that wouldn’t be the same without her in it. But he didn’t know if he loved her. He wasn’t sure he knew what love was.
Was it a son or a daughter? Either option filled him with a pride such as he’d never felt. He could hand off the reins to his corporations to either one when he decided to retire. No more worries about that. But that was assuming Sophie didn’t take the child and return to Indiana. He refused to seriously believe she would do that because, dammit, he didn’t want to believe it. Through the years of physical therapy and working side by side, she’d come to mean a lot to him. But a wife...? He had never seen himself as the type of man who would settle down with a family. He still didn’t. He needed to make sure she knew he was excited about the baby without giving the impression that he was ready to put a ring on her finger. But his conscience kept hammering the point home: You know it’s the right thing to do.
He would give Sophie the choice.
He flew a semicircle around the ranch grounds before setting the helicopter down on the tarmac next to the others. A
car was waiting to take them to the house.
“Have dinner with me tonight?” he asked as they approached the car. “I think we need to talk.”
She hesitated. “All right.”
“I’ll pick you up around eight?”
She nodded.
“In fact, let me take you home. You must be exhausted.”
She stopped. “Why would I be exhausted?”
“It was a long trip. And in your condition...”
“What? My condition makes me lazy?”
“You said that, not me.”
“So? It’s what you were thinking.” She made a scoffing sound and turned toward her car.
“How, um, how did you arrive at that determination?” He had to get a grip on this. She was picking fights, objecting to anything he said. That was not what he’d meant but he’d be damned if he would follow her around and keep apologizing.
“Don’t worry about it,” she threw over her shoulder. “And forget dinner. You’re right. I’m just too tired and lazy to make the effort.”
“Sophie. Stop.”
She stopped.
“Look, I might not have handled this right from the beginning. I get that telling a guy you are having his child is supposed to be a romantic moment. You just caught me off guard. Actually, you blew my mind is what you did. But I do respect you. I do know, without any doubt, that it’s my baby. And the more time I have to let it soak in, the more I’m realizing I’m kinda happy about it.”
“Really?” Hope mixed with surprise in her voice.
“Really. Look, why don’t you stay here instead of going home? We can have an early dinner—or a late one. Whichever you prefer. I need to go into the office and check things out. One of your old swimsuits is upstairs, in that first small room on the right as you go up the main staircase. Remember, you used to use it for a changing room? Just swim, relax—that’s not calling you lazy. Or, if you want, walk with me inside to the office.”
“I... I would actually like that.”
“Come on, then.”
Together they walked inside the enormous home and turned toward the wing that had been designated as office space. While he returned phone calls, Sophie went through the foot-thick stack of mail.
The office phones weren’t usually answered on Sundays. It was with surprise that Clay noticed the solid white light on one of the secondary lines on his phone. After ending his call, he couldn’t help but speculate about who Sophie was speaking to. Before he could walk over to the connecting door, the volume of her voice increased.