Surrendering (Surrender 1)

He inches in and stops suddenly. “Baby, you are so tight. I’m so sorry, but this is going to hurt.”

It doesn’t hurt at first; it feels incredible. I tighten my legs around him and try to push him deeper. All at once, we move together and I feel him break through my barrier. I cry out and lift up biting his shoulder. He stops moving and braces himself over me. He starts to pull out, but I push deeper against him. The pain is still there, but the pleasure is stronger.

“Don’t you dare stop.”

He seems a little hesitant, but starts pushing back. He slides in and out of me gently. His apa is gliding against my walls and the sensations are incredible. He slows down and lowers his face back down to kiss me. His tongue is dancing with mine as my body accepts him. He pushes in deeper and I groan against his mouth. Every inch of him finally fills me. He moves in a rhythm that matches our kiss. He pulls back and stares into my eyes as he moves above me. I see desire mixed with passion. With every thrust, I get closer to going over the edge. He slows down again and pulls almost all the way out before he eases back in. I swivel my hips to meet his. A bead of sweat begins to fall down his cheek and I lift up to lick it off. He moans and in one swift movement, he’s sitting up and I’m straddling him. I don’t move for a minute and he allows me to adjust to the new position. There’s a burning feeling but it stops when I slide a little. I grind down on him and feel his entire length even more. His hands are on my hips and he’s pumping himself into me at a steady and tender pace. He takes one nipple back into his mouth and moves the tip of his thumb over my clit in a circular motion. I know I can’t last much longer. I squeeze my core muscles as tight as I can to try and hold on. I wrap my arms around his shoulders pulling his body closer. He has to let go of my nipple because I move my hand to his jaw and make him look into my eyes.

Before I can say anything, my second orgasm hits me full force. I throw my head back and call out his name over and over. I hear him calling mine as well. He pulls me tight against him as he empties himself into me. As he finishes, he whispers in my ear, “Fucking amazing.”

My breathing returns to normal and I move to lie down. He twitches under me and his arms prevent me from moving.

“Baby, give a man a minute.”

I can’t help but giggle.

“Are you laughing at me? You know I’m still inside you, right?”

“Sweetie, I’m not laughing at you; I’m trying to figure out why I waited so long.”

“Thank Christ you did.” We wait a minute and he finally moves slightly. I hold him tighter.

“Baby, I need to move. There’s nothing in the world I would rather do than stay like this, but I need to get rid if this condom. I’m leaking back down my dick.”

I loosen my arms and legs so he can get up. I fall back on the bed as he pulls out of me and regret it instantly; I feel so empty. I reach around for my shorts and slip them back on. By the time Declan comes back, I have pulled back the bed and started blowing out the candles. He pulls me straight to his chest and nuzzles his nose in my hair. I wrap my arms around him and breathe in what I have come to love as his scent. He picks me up and takes me back to the bed where he lays me down facing him.

“Baby, you okay?”

“Better than okay, why?”

“I saw blood on the condom. Did I hurt you?”

“No, I think that’s normal.”

“I didn’t hurt you?”

“I wouldn’t say you didn’t hurt me. There was a moment of tenderness, but it passed.”

“Declan, that was perfect. You were perfect.”

“I know I’ve said this before, but I swear I saw fireworks. Just like our first kiss, I felt the electricity flow through us when we came. That has never happened to me before.”

“What do you mean?”

“I’ve never come simultaneously before. With you, I couldn’t hold on. I could feel you getting tighter and my body let go with yours.”

“That’s a good thing, right?” I’m confused.

“Good isn’t a word I would use to describe what just happened; Remarkable, amazing, astounding, earth-shattering- those are terms that come to mind.”

I smile up at him. He leans down to kiss me and I hold him there. I feel him getting hard against my stomach so I adjust my leg over his hip.

“As much as I want to go again, we can’t. I don’t have any more condoms.”

“Why?”

“I haven’t bought any since summer and that was the only one left in my drawer.”

“You haven’t had sex since last summer?”