Nocte (The Nocte Trilogy 1) - Page 59

“Good night.”

I scamper up the walk, and the entire way, Dare watches me go. I feel it. But when I turn around at the top of my porch steps, he’s gone.

I feel buoyed and amazing and wonderful, until I get back to my bed and remember that Finn’s in it. Next to the bed, my flowers have been smashed, by Finn, presumably.

All of my amazing feelings plummet as I realize that I can’t feel wonderful about Dare. I can’t feel wonderful about anything, as long as there is something so seriously wrong with my brother.

I fall asleep with dark clouds hanging around me, consuming my joy.

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VIGINTI

The ocean crashes against the shore, the mist spraying against me as I lounge against one of the rocks in the inlet. It’s low tide, so I can linger here for hours before high tides comes back in to cover all of the exposed pools.

All I want to do is daydream about Dare. To fixate on the fact that he fantasizes about me naked.

But I can’t. Not right now. Because in my jacket pocket, my fingers rest on the tattered leather cover of Finn’s journal. After realizing last night that Finn is even more troubled than I realized, I know I’ve got to figure it out.

So when he and my dad went out to work on the fence, I took his journal. It’s something I had to do because he’s obviously not going to tell me himself. He’ll think it’s lost… and I’ll have to go along with that. It makes me feel dirty, and awful for lying to him, because I know how much his writing means to him.

But he’s just going to have to write in something else.

I’ve got to do whatever it takes to protect him from himself.

My breath hitches in my chest as I pull the book out. Because the last time I read it, it scared me for weeks.

His hidden thoughts terrified me the

n, and they’ll terrify me now.

Regardless, I open the cover with shaking fingers.

And then I’m still.

Absolutely, completely still.

A folded paper is inside the front cover, but I can already see what it is.

Dare’s drawing of me.

When did Finn get it? In the middle of the night?

Unable to breathe, unable to feel, I unfold the paper carefully and then my heart spasms.

MINE is scrawled across the beautiful sketch. Everywhere. Big letters, small letters, in-between letters. Scrawling bold writing.

MINE MINE MINE MINE MINE MINE.

I can’t breathe.

I can’t think.

All I know is that my fingers are trembling and my heart is spasming and what the hell is going on?

Finn crept out of my bed, down to Dare’s house, and stole this picture in the middle of the night. Hell, he might’ve even been watching me the whole time and that’s how he knew it even existed.

Chills run down my back, causing me to shiver and shiver and shiver.

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