Hold Me Close (Bridgewater County 4)

“We started kissing. He had me on my bed and he rolled me beneath him. He got handsy and aggressive and I told him no. I tried pushing him away, but he was too strong.” I didn’t breathe as I said all that, but took a breath now. I didn’t dare look at them, so I stared at the dark green carpet. “He said I wanted it, that he’d make it good, that I’d been a tease.” I whipped my head up. “I didn’t tease him. I didn’t.”

Ethan just nodded, so I continued.

“He was working my shirt from my pants when my roommate came in. He jumped off me and I told him to get out. Julia had been really helpful, all but kicking his ass and then making enough noise in the hallway for the TA to come out.”

I shook my head. “The rest doesn’t matter, just that I don’t like to be touched. I freeze up whenever I’m with someone.”

“I want the guy’s name,” Matt growled.

My mouth fell open. “Andy,” I said without thinking. “Why? It was a long time ago.”

“Because I’m going to hunt him down and hurt him.”

He was dead serious.

“I’ll help,” Ethan added. I watched as his fists clenched.

I laughed then, feeling lighter than I had in a while.

“You can’t go chasing him down.”

Matt’s hand squeezed mine, tugged me up so I stood right before him, between his parted knees. His gray eyes were level with mine. “We take care of what’s ours.”

My heart skipped a beat.

“There’s nothing wrong with you. Trust us. I can see your nipples are hard right now and I bet your pussy’s wet just thinking about being between us. Your mind might say you’re nervous, but your body says otherwise.”

It was true.

“When we touch you, you won’t think because we’ll be doing it right. You’ll just be feeling. Only pleasure,” Matt said. His hand slid around my waist and I felt the heat of it through my shirt. “Trust me, you’re going to come so many times you’re going to forget your own name.”

Oh my.

“We’re not going to rush you into being with us if you’re upset,” Ethan added. “But, sweetheart, I can tell you right now, we’ll only touch you when you want it and in ways that bring you pleasure.”

Matt grunted. “When you’re ready, we’ll show you what it can be like with men who don’t want to take something from you. We’ll give you what you need.”

Oh. My body softened, my nipples hardened further at their words. I’d thought I’d want time, that these two would be too much and I’d panic. Well, I had. But they’d heard me out and not only still wanted me, but perhaps wanted me even more.

I swallowed down the remaining nerves and pulled back to face them. “I don’t need more time, I just need your patience. It might take me a while to, um...”

I couldn’t finish but they seemed to know what I meant.

“Sweetheart, we’ll take this as slow as you like,” Ethan said. The heat in his eyes was enough to make me breathless with anticipation.

Matt’s arm tightened around my waist. “We’ll be gentle. All you have to say is more. And please. And oh god.” He grinned then, which made me smile too. “Deal?”

I nodded. “Deal.”

CHAPTER NINE

MATT

I wanted to beat the shit out of Andy. Whoever he was. Wherever he was. I just had to hope he got some kind of nasty infection or something that made his dick shrivel and fall off. Then again, in a weird-ass way, perhaps I should be thanking him. No guy had touched Rachel because Andy had been such an asshole and so she was just for us. Knowing she was a virgin made my cock jump. Yeah, it was the caveman in me thinking that, wanting her all for myself…and Ethan.

No one else would know what she looked like bare, see her eyes go blurry with her arousal or hear her gasps of pleasure. Fuck no. They were all for the two of us. And while I didn’t wish her the obvious hurt she felt at Andy’s assault—it was assault, pure and simple—she was going to be taken care of now.

Her first time would be perfect. Not a quick college fumble. No, we’d make this good. We’d make it incredible. The responsibility was heady, but I was up for the challenge.