Ruin: Part Two (Ruin 2)

I moan from the weight of the words. They're full of desire. "Fuck me, Ben."

His hand cups my sex. "You want me to fuck this?"

I groan into the still air, my hips grinding into the mattress, searching for more stimulation. "I need to come."

"You need to come with me inside of you." He moves slowly and deliberately, dragging his large body over mine. "I have to get a condom."

His hand leaves my pussy and I whimper from the lost touch. My hand jumps down to replace it. I pull my fingers through my folds, moaning loudly.

"Christ," he growls as he pulls the condom over his erection sheathing it. "You're making me want to blow my load already. Do you touch yourself like that when you're thinking of me?"

I own it. I need to own it. "I do."

He crawls back onto the bed, stopping to kneel next to me. "Show me more."

I circle my clit with my index finger before I slide it deeply into my slick channel. "I do this when I think about you fucking me."

"I'm the only man you think about when you fuck yourself?"

I nod, my voice lost as he climbs on top of me. I reach to grab hold of him. I'm desperate for his touch.

His hand dips into my sex, pulling his fingers through it. "You're so wet. I'm going to slide my cock into you. I'm going to fuck you so hard."

I pull on his shoulders. "Now."

"Now." The word comes from the deepest part of him as he drives his cock into me in one motion.

I open my eyes, stare into his and let my body take all the pleasure he's giving to me as he fucks me hard and fast until we scream each other's names as the rush of an orgasm washes over both of us.

Chapter 16

"I want us to go out more." He runs his hand over my leg. "I love this but I want to do things with you."

"We just did a bunch of things I really like doing with you." I breathe the words into his chest.

"I liked every one of those things."

After Ben and I had made love, I'd fallen asleep in his arms. He'd woken me shortly after three when his tongue lapped over my folds. I'd held tight to his hair in the darkness as I rode his face into another climax.

I'd drifted back to sleep after that only to be awoken by his erect cock tracing a path over my lips. I greedily accepted it, pulling his desire into me after he'd fucked my mouth at dawn. I slept in his arms the entire night but feel more exhausted now than I did when I first closed my eyes.

"Do you have to work today?" I snuggle into his side, pulling my arms around his waist. "I wish we could both skip work sometimes and spend the day in bed."

"It's hard for me to do that." His hand strokes my forehead. "I can take a day off after I get back from Boston and we can spend it at my place."

"I'd like that." I would. I'd love that in fact. It's becoming harder and harder to pull myself from his arms in the morning to shower and get ready for work. Our schedules don't sync up as well as I'd like but that's part of dating a doctor. I'm quickly learning that. I take his time as it's offered, knowing that when he is with me, all of his attention is focused completely on what's going on between us.

"Are you worried about Noah seeing us together?"

The question slaps me across the face. I've done well with avoiding any questions about Noah for weeks now. Any time his brother's name did fall into the conversation it was related to the wedding. I hadn't brought up the fact that I'd seen Noah at all. Now, lying naked in Ben's arms I feel a sense of betrayal.

I shake my head against his chest. "I don’t care if Noah sees us together." It's my truth. I don’t care at this point. Noah knows how I feel. I've explained it to him. He knows that I have no intention of ending my relationship with Ben.

"You don't care?"

I can't tell if there's genuine surprise in his question or not. "No, Ben. I don’t care. Noah has to accept this."

He sighs heavily enough that my body moves from the motion of his. "You're not worried that he'll go off the rails again and tell you what a fucked up excuse of a man I am?"