Wes leaned forward and wiped some of the tears from my cheeks with his thumbs. “Aw little lamb, don’t cry.” He held my hand and squeezed it. How could he have a tumor when he looked fine? “I’m about fifty-fifty at this point. They don’t know if they can get it all, but because it’s so close to my heart, they get too close and they could kill me. They don’t get it all and I die anyway.”
I couldn’t trust myself to speak so I just stared into his crystal blue eyes and prayed the nightmare would vanish.
“Will you…” Wes licked his lips and fidgeted with my hands. “Will you stay with me?”
“Nightmares?” I tried to joke, but the tears kept streaming.
“Yeah,” he choked. “Nightmares. I kind of need a knight in shining armor to chase them away.”
“I’ll fight them,” I whispered. “I’ll protect you, slay the dragon, and wait for you in the castle.”
“Promise?” He smiled, his eyes full of tears.
“With my whole heart.”
“I love your heart.” He sighed against my head.
“Hearts and hair, huh?” I placed my hand over his chest.
“Hearts and hair,” he repeated. “Just do me a favor.”
“Anything,” I whispered.
“No matter what happens over the next few days, promise me you’ll finish the list.”
“Wes—”
“Promise me,” he said sternly.
I closed my eyes as warm tears began to fall all over again. “I promise.”
“Good.” He exhaled. “Good.”
Chapter Forty-One
I held her tight all night. Later on when Gabe came in I told him I was keeping her. With a smirk he told me he’d return with some fresh clothes. A year ago I wouldn’t have picked him out of a crowd — now it felt like he was my best friend. And I owed it all to the girl sleeping in my arms.
Weston
I didn’t have any nightmares, and by five in the morning, when the nurse checked on me again. I felt back to my old self.
Except for the fact that they moved the surgery forward. It was going to happen in less than five days. Which meant my time with Kiersten was now severely limited. In six days I could be dead, and if I wasn’t dead I’d either be in a coma or be sent home to die. I told Gabe I’d fight and I wanted to, but it was hard to be optimistic, so damn hard.
I prayed over and over again that God would spare me, not because I cared that much about my own life — but because I cared about hers.
Sleep wasn’t happening, so by the time Gabe stopped by with a duffel bag I was wide-eyed and ready for coffee — anything but those damn pills they kept forcing down me.
“Sleeping still?” Gabe whispered when he walked in.
“Like the dead.”
“Not funny, man.” Gabe’s voice hitched as he took a seat and put his head in his hands. “So not funny.”
“Too soon?” I laughed.
“I can’t…” Gabe licked his lips and looked at me. “There are others more deserving of cancer, you know? That’s what gets me. Why does God allow people like you—? People who have such a bright future — why do you get cancer when mass murderers live their lives in jail getting to watch free HBO? I don’t get it.”
“I don’t know, man.” I sighed. “I can’t explain it. I guess that’s just what happens when we live. Nobody is promised anything. That’s why life’s so precious.”