“What the fuck are you talking about? You’re sexy as fuck to me, always have been. You’ve gone up a few dress sizes, I don’t give a fuck about that. I think of you and I get hard, you don’t even have to be in the same damned room. Where in the world would you get that idea?” He seems genuinely confused and I can breathe again.
“It just seems that I’m the only one who ever instigates us making love. It feels like it started the week I hit six months and has been that way ever since. A few times, yes early in the morning you’ll make a move but that’s it.”
Closing his eyes, he moves closer, resting his head against mine and kisses me again on the forehead. “I am so sorry I caused you to doubt yourself. I thought I was being thoughtful. I’ve heard all these stories about kids changing a couple’s sex life and how many women don’t have the same sex drive. We have two very highly charged kids and even with the nanny they tire the both of us out. I didn’t want you to feel like I was asking for more energy than you had. That’s why I left it up to you and since you have always been so comfortable and forward with what and when you wanted me, I wasn’t going to ask for more. Sweetheart, I love you so much and find you so damned fuckable, to this day, I would love to spend all day making love to you. Don’t ever doubt the only place I ever find peace is with you and when I’m inside you.”
Feeling him growing hard against me, I press back with a moan. Relieved and feeling like an idiot for letting my fears go so long. “Thank goodness, I’ve been so worried for the last few months. I love you, Drake and making love with you is still always going to be better to me than holding hands. The service will be sending the applicants for a nanny tomorrow afternoon. Meredith is being an angel and will be taking care of the kids tomorrow so we can sleep in. Can we both have an early night and you give me a little reassurance?”
“Perfect, you are still absolutely perfect for me, Mrs. Hawthorne.” Drake picks me up and lays me gently down on the bed and follows me down. His kiss is hot and fierce and all my fears disappear in the fire of his passion.