Is that your decision?
Was it? Pavek asked himself. Was he ready to turn his back on Quraite? On Akashia who-without saying a word, had, last night, asked him to stay? On Ruari-?
Who will keep him in line, if you're not here to do it? Maybe Quraite is also your home?
"I don't know," Pavek whispered as the grass of Telhami's grove began to brush against his legs.
He stumbled when the procession came to an unexpected stop. Craning his neck to one side, peering around the heads in front of him, he spotted a thin, wiry arm and a patch of wild dark hair blocking their way.
Zvain, he thought with guilt and shame, which Telhami echoed. They'd forgotten their prisoner, the misguided, betrayed, and abandoned orphan whose parents' death had brought so many consequences to them all. Especially Akashia at the procession's head. Pavek imagined the looks that had passed between them as Zvain raced away. Belatedly, he noticed that the boy's shirt was in tatters.
It would not have been pleasant for him here yesterday.
The procession started forward again-without Pavek.
He couldn't imagine what the grove had been like yesterday when Telhami and Escrissar had dueled with nightmares as the skies darkened. When Telhami, apologetically-or so it seemed-offered him a glimpse of the horror and carnage, he backed away from the bier.'
"He's a boy! A child." He continued his retreat, heedless of the branches whipping against him. "Everybody stood back and watched. What would he do? How would he grow? What mistakes would he make to doom himself? The Veil wouldn't take him. Oelus wouldn't take him. I left him behind. So Escrissar took him, lied to him, and turned him loose again. Who made the mistakes? We didn't even come out here to tell him who won-"
Then Akashia raised her head. "Come back, Pavek. Come with us to the pool. You're one of us. You're a druid now. Please? Don't run away!"
But he did just that, turning and running to the hollow where he'd found the boy before.
Zvain was there all right, sitting in the grass, contemplating his toes.
"Go away!"
"I'm sorry, Zvain. I'm just a yellow-robe third-rank regulator at heart and I can't say it any better than mat. I'm sorry you got left here yesterday. I'm sorry your mother died. You must have loved her, and she must have loved you-'cause you're not bad, Zvain. You didn't deserve any of this. And I'm sorry."
The boy plucked and shredded a blade of grass.
Pavek sat down on his knees. There were ugly scratches on Zvain's back and arms to match the tears in his shirt. Pavek was careful where he touched when he put his arm around the boy and pulled him closer.
'I'm sorry. No one can give you back what you've lost, or take away the memories. But it will get better. I promise you that. All Athas is changing. We can make it change for the better. Here or in Urik. Together."
Zvain let his breath out with a shudder and a sigh, then he molded himself against Pavek's arms. They were silent a long while. Pavek felt Telhami looking at them from the trees, a part of her grove now and forever.
"Where do you want to go?" he asked when his knees had, at last, grown numb. "Do you want to stay here, or go back to Urik?"
"Right here?" Zvain raised his head with horror. "Everything watches here."
Pavek thought of Telhami all around them and chuckled softly to himself. "Not right here. In Quraite, with the druids."
"Akashia hates me."
He had no easy response for that. "Akashia's not the only druid in Quraite. I'll be here and-"fate forgive me for saying it aloud "-Ruari."
"Ru said he'd teach me what the elves know, and show me his kivits..."
In his mind's eye, Pavek saw the two of them, Ruari and Zvain, and whether it was brawling with the elves, or playing with the kivits, the images were pleasant and warmed his heart.
"We'll stay, then, for a while. I've got to go to Urik sometime-I've got to find that halfling alchemist-"
"Kakzim. His name is Kakzim. He and Escrissar had a fight, and he went back to the forests."
Pavek ruffled the dark, curly hair. "You'll have to come with me. I can see I'll need your help."
Zvain smiled, then buried his face in Pavek's shirt as he hugged him with all his strength.