Finally, he straightened. Creaking almost, like he had to stack each vertebra into place. His face was pale, and his neck sweating.
“I’m fine,” he said, though his voice was still rough, like a growl. “Sorry for the interruption. I’m fine.” He smoothed his suit and shook himself out of the spell. Slowly, Cormac and I sat back in our places.
My heart was racing. I couldn’t help but feel like we’d had a close call. He shouldn’t have been doing this, he shouldn’t have had to face the stress of a courtroom in his condition. He was still just a pup.
Heller resumed. “Both parties should consult in order to agree on a time for a preliminary hearing, at which time the defendant will enter his plea to the charges filed.”
Then, almost abruptly, anticlimactically, it was over. And Cormac wasn’t leaving with us. Held without bail.
The courtroom rustled with activity. Bailiffs approached to take charge of Cormac, who looked over his shoulder at me. “Keep an eye on him. Don’t let him out of your sight,” he said in a low voice. I nodded quickly and watched them lead him away. He knew how close it had been, too.
Marks glared at us across the room, but didn’t stick around for a confrontation.
Espinoza approached Ben, who still looked like he was about to pass out. I could hear his heart racing. I was ready to jump up and leap to his side,
if he showed the slightest indication that he needed help—if he was about to break down. He held it together, though. He didn’t look good, but he stayed upright, kept breathing.
I didn’t like George Espinoza, even though I knew that wasn’t fair. I didn’t know him, I’d never spoken to him. But I saw him as a threat. He was attacking my people. My pack. I kept wanting to slip in between him and Ben and growl at him. But I had to just step aside and let things happen.
They talked in low voices. Ben did a lot of nodding. The bailiff hustled them out of the room then to make way for the next hearing. I trailed behind, trying to eavesdrop. I heard a couple of phrases. “Give me a week,” and “plea bargain.”
I approached Ben only after Espinoza left the lobby outside the courtroom. He stood stiffly, hugging a file folder that stood in for his briefcase. He carried himself rigidly—angry, and trying to hold it in. He was used to being able to channel his anger in the courtroom. Using it to strengthen his arguments. Now, the wolf wouldn’t let him do that.
I put my hand on his shoulder. “Let’s get out of here.”
He let me guide him out of the building, leaning on me until we were outside.
Out in the sun I was able to ask him, “How close did you get in there? How close to Changing?”
He shook his head absently. “I don’t know. I felt like I could have breathed wrong and it all would have come loose. I felt it push against the inside of my skin. I just don’t know.” He closed his eyes and took a deep, trembling breath. “I’m losing it.”
“No, you’re not. You’re fine, you kept it together.”
“Not me,” he said. “I don’t care about me. I’m talking about the case.”
“It can’t be that bad. Can it?” He was the lawyer. Who was I to second-guess him?
“Any rational person looks at the evidence and comes to exactly the conclusion Espinoza presented. If I stand up there and say, no she wasn’t just wearing a wolf skin, she’d actually become a wolf, I sound insane. When it comes to believing the eyewitness reports of a few people who were in the dark and scared out of their skulls, or the hard evidence of the coroner’s report, it isn’t much of a contest. And she was incapacitated when Cormac killed her. He wasn’t defending anyone at that point.”
“We didn’t know that, not for sure. Marks was there— why doesn’t he tell them? He’s a cop, wouldn’t his testimony hold any more weight?”
“He’s signed off on Espinoza’s version.”
Of course he would. “That’s not fair. You’d think after everything he did to me he could at least stand up for Cormac.”
“Except he’s decided that she wasn’t that dangerous, and Cormac overreacted. The coroner’s report makes more sense than skinwalkers, so that’s what he’s sticking to. That’s what’s going to hold up in court. Not the ghost stories.”
I wanted to shake Ben. Tell him to snap out of it and get his confidence back. He had to save Cormac, and he wasn’t going to do it talking like that.
Ben said, “He shouldn’t have shot her there at the end. That was a mistake.”
“I know.”
And that was what we kept talking around. That Cormac had gone too far to save this time. Nothing we said or did would ever erase that moment.
We walked a few more paces, and I changed the subject. “Why wouldn’t the judge set bail?”
He scowled. “Espinoza doesn’t want to take a chance on him getting away. Heller’s right, those militia wing-nuts do have a history of jumping bail. It’s a case of them looking at the facts they want to and not the ones that matter. There might be some past history there that’s coloring her judgment.”