“Let me take care of you, Pia. Right here, right now. Let me hold you.”
“Why didn’t you leave?”
“Something you said earlier made me realize how selfish I am.”
“Mylos?”
I kissed the side of her face. “Yes?”
“Is it because…you can’t?”
I kissed the soft curve of her neck. “Not in the way you mean.”
She turned in my arms. “In another way? Is it the pain?”
It was difficult to speak the things that ran through my mind, especially to Pia. “It is the pain. Sometimes.”
I tensed when I felt her unfastening the buttons on my shirt.
“When it isn’t the pain, what is it?”
When her hands touched my bare skin, my already aching erection pressed against my trousers.
She leaned forward and kissed the indentation at the bottom of my sternum. When her lips trailed farther down my body, I drew her back up.
“I want to see.”
“Pia…”
“Let me see, Mylos.”
I stopped her hand when she started to unfasten my trousers. “I can’t.”
Her eyes bored into mine. “Why not? Have you not seen? Do you not look at yourself every day?”
“It’s different and you know it.”
She sat up so quickly, I was startled until I realized she was pulling the jumper over her head. When she unfastened her bra and freed her breasts, I was screaming inside for her to stop, but my brain refused to say the words out loud. Just to see her naked body would be enough. It would have to be enough.
Pia didn’t stop. Next, she slid her joggers down and off her legs. The only thing she wore was a tiny red-lace thong. She stretched out on her side in front of me, took one of my hands, and put it on her bare breast.
“Feel me, Mylos. Touch me.” I couldn’t resist. I had to have a taste of her. I lowered my mouth to her breast and swirled my tongue around her hardened nipple. I could hear her heart pounding, or maybe it was my own. I licked my way down her abdomen and moved the lace of her thong out of my way.
I shifted to kneel between her legs and breathed in the scent of her. Her hips gyrated on the bed. I stilled her with my fingers, then lowered my mouth.
“Wait.”
I looked up at her.
“Mylos, I need you.”
“I’m right here, sweetheart.”
“No.” She shook her head. “I won’t come until you are inside me. You, Mylos.”
I dropped my head on her tummy. “Don’t do this. Please don’t do this.”
She scooted back so she was sitting up.