Kai shook his head. “I can’t. ”
Lucas looked disappointed and disgusted, and it hurt Kai’s heart to have to keep telling him no. Lucas turned his head away, and Kai reached out to touch him gently on his cheek. He turned his head in surprise and stared down at him for a long time before his eyes finally softened.
“You’re so damned beautiful. So desirable,” he said, almost as if he were talking to himself. “I don’t think I can resist you—I don’t think I want to. ”
“Don’t,” Kai said softly. “I-I want you to be my husband. In every way. ”
Lucas groaned and pulled Kai into his arms. Lucas kissed him for a long time before gazing down at him and giving him a little bite on his bottom lip, then licked it. Kai was beginning to associate this strange combination of pain and pleasure with his mate. It was very disconcerting. “Are you sure you understand what’s going to happen, baby? You’ll be a Lycan mate. Do you know what that means?”
“No,” Kai said with a little shake of his head. “But if it means I can stay with you, then I want it. ” And Kai was almost surprised to find that it was true. This huge, frightening man was oddly fierce yet gentle. He’s already made him feel things that excited him more than anything he’d ever felt before. Even though he’d been taught to find women’s bodies more visually appealing, this gorgeous creature’s body excited him.
“Teach me. Please, Alpha. ”
Lucas moaned and buried his face in Kai’s throat. “Gods, you smell so sweet. ”
Getting to his knees, he looked down on Kai. “This will hurt, Kai. This first time at least. I’ll try to make it as good as I can for you, but you’ll be so tight. I don’t want to hurt you anymore. ”
“I want you to be my husband. In every way. ”
“Balenescu mates need to be with their husbands all the time. They can’t ever be intimate with another man once they mate with their husbands—it would be physically impossible for them to get satisfaction. Do you understand?”
Kai shook his head, and Lucas sighed. “This is so difficult to explain when you know so little about things. ” He tried again. “Your cock—this piece of flesh between your legs—will never get hard for anyone but me, ever again. Do you understand?”
Kai nodded and smiled. “But that’s as it should be, isn’t it?”
Lucas’s eyes softened again, and he seemed to shiver. “Sweetheart. Yes, that’s as it should be. ” Slowly, he rolled Kai over to his stomach, lifting his hips to pull pillows under them. Kai watched his every move from over his shoulder. He took some oil from the table next to the bed and splashed some on his fingers. “I’m going to put this on you, baby. It will help when I enter you. ”
He put one oiled finger at Kai’s hole and Kai tensed immediately. Gasping, he looked up into Lucas’s face. “W-What are you doing?”
His hard fingers began to massage oil gently into his crease and ghosted over his hole as Kai shivered. “This is where I’ll make love to you. You have to open to me, love. I’ll try not to hurt you. ”
Very gently, he eased one finger inside this most intimate place in Kai’s body. Kai hissed in a breath and tried to squirm away, but Lucas held him firmly in place. “Easy, Kai. Try to relax. I’m showing you what men do together. ”
Kai nodded and tried hard to relax his body, opening his legs even further, but he was beyond amazed by this turn of events. Lucas stroked his back and with an oiled finger gently probed inside Kai’s hole. No one had ever touched him there, and it felt strange and burned a little. The finger slowly pressed
further inside and when Kai tensed against the burn, Lucas leaned over him and kissed his ear, licking at the nape of his neck until he relaxed again. He whispered in his ear as he slowly moved the finger in and out. “Have you ever touched yourself here, love?”
Kai shook his head, and Lucas gave a soft chuckle as he kissed his ear. “Good. This is mine, and you’ll never feel anyone else’s touch here again. ” Those whispers in his ear were driving him crazy and he arched his back. He couldn’t decide whether to lean into the fingers or pull away. He felt another finger go inside him and he groaned at the stretch of those fingers within. They only moved in deeper and Kai cried out, trying to get away from Lucas’s strong hand on his hip until the fingers suddenly brushed against something inside him. It was a spot so sensitive he couldn’t decide at first if it hurt or if it felt incredibly wonderful. The fingers brushed over the spot again and again until Kai was whimpering for more, thrashing his head wantonly and pushing his ass up into the air to get it.
Suddenly the fingers pulled away and Kai almost sobbed in frustration and need. Was it over so soon? Then he felt something else nudging his hole, something larger, and he felt a moment of panic. Before he could move away, Lucas’s hand pushed under him and closed around his flesh, pulling down and back up hard several times in a row. He couldn’t decide whether to arch forward or back—he needed more pressure, more sensation. He whimpered in confusion and Lucas whispered to him.
“Shh, baby. Try to relax. Push out when you feel me. Let me take care of you. ”
The fingers pushed in at his hole again, and the pain was back. Lucas took his time, pushing in slowly, a tiny bit at a time and then pulling out just a little until all of Kai’s focus was on this one incredible thing that was happening to his body. “Relax for me. Don’ forget to push out a little,” Lucas instructed and when he did, it began to feel a little better. He still felt tight and full, and it still burned, but the burn was getting less and the pleasure was overriding it. Lucas’s other hand continued to work the flesh between his legs until he thought he’d lose his mind. He couldn’t decide if he should beg him to stop or beg him to do it harder.
“I’m going to give you the mating bite, Kai. It will hurt for just a moment, but I’m here. I’ll take care of you. ”
“Yes,” Kai whimpered softly and Lucas bit deeply into the side of his neck. His teeth were like needles boring into him, and Kai tightened his mouth against the scream that threatened to burst out of him. A burning pain surged into his neck and spread throughout his body. Right away he felt something different at his entrance. The hard rod of flesh seemed even bigger, harder, and it surged inside him and filled him uncomfortably full.
Lucas withdrew until just the fat head of the thing he called his cock was stretching Kai wide, and he just as slowly pushed back in. Kai could feel every inch of Lucas’s beautiful cock as it slowly filled him and drew back again. Every time he brushed over the tender place inside him Kai felt a bolt of ecstasy rush through him.
“You’re doing perfectly, baby. Are you all right? Does it hurt too much?”
“No, I-I love it. Don’t stop. ”
Lucas kissed him on the side of his face and then trailed kisses down his neck. “I’ll give you everything you need, Kai. I’ll take care of you. ”
Almost as soon as he said the words, Lucas began to thrust harder, faster, really hammering at him. Cries of surprised pleasure flew from Kai’s lips and his fingers clutched at the sheet beneath him. The pleasure was almost too much and he wondered fleetingly if it might kill him, simply stop his heart with its intensity. Even if it did, he didn’t want this ever to stop.