Primals (Reverse Harem 1)

I know I should tell her how I feel, now more than ever and not a moment sooner. That became clear to me while I was mulling over my thoughts all by mysel

f. And yet, the words just won’t come out. Even though I’m a bit drunk, my throat still feels so tight.

What do I say? Do I just blurt out that I’m in love with her, that I’ve been in love with her for a while now, even though I don’t know exactly when it started? What if she asks why I didn’t tell her sooner? What if she rejects me outright? What if friendship is all we can have or what if we can’t even have that after I tell her how I feel?

I’m a coward.

Then don’t say anything. Just kiss her.

Staring at her slightly parted lips, I’m tempted to. And this isn’t the first time. I want to kiss those lips. I want to push her down here on the bed right now and kiss every part of her.

But no. Those other guys might be half animals but I’m not. If I’m going to do this, I’m going to do it right.

I take another gulp of air. “Clarissa, I...”

Suddenly, there’s a knock on the door in the next room.

“Clarissa?” It’s Sebastian. “It’s almost time to go. Are you ready?”

Talk about perfect timing.

“Almost,” Clarissa shouts, getting quickly to her feet. She doesn’t even look at me. “Give me ten minutes.”

She gives me a smile over her shoulder, absent-minded. Distracted. “Sorry, but I have to go.”

She heads into the next room without even waiting for me to reply.

“Clarissa,” I call after her, standing up.

She stops with her hand on the latch of the door that connects her room to mine, turning her head to look at me. “Yes?”

“I...” I squeeze my fists. “When you come back, I have something to tell you. Something important.”

Clarissa’s eyes narrow. “You don’t want to tell me now?”

I probably should but I don’t want to trouble her now that she’s about to do something important. Besides, I’ve waited forever. I can wait a few more hours.

“I’ll tell you when you come back,” I answer.

She nods. “Well, I surely will.”

She leaves and I sit on the edge of the bed, sighing, but a moment later, she returns, throwing herself into my arms.

And that’s when I notice that she’s shaking slightly.

“Shh.” I run my hands through her hair. “It’ll be okay. Everything will be okay. I’ll be right here.”

“I know.”

She runs off and this time, she closes the door and doesn’t come back.

I let myself fall on top of the bed and stare at the ceiling, letting out another sigh.

I hope she comes back.

Primal or no primal, I’ll beat the balls out of Sebastian if anything bad happens to her.

Chapter Seventeen