In a little while I will be forty, but even now, when I work out, I remember the Christmas season of 1956. Now they have such fancy weight machines; there's no more sliding the weights on the bar, and forgetting to tighten the screws and having the weights slide together and mash your fingers, or fall off the end of the bar on your toes. But no matter how modern the gymnasium, or the equipment, it only takes a little light lifting to bring back Iowa Bob's room -- good old 3F, and the worn oriental rug where his weights were, the rug Sorrow used to sleep on: after weight lifting on that rug, Bob and I would be covered with the dead dog's hair. And after I've been pushing the weight for a while, and that long-lasting, luxurious ache starts creeping over me, I can bring to mind every scruffy person and every stain on the canvas that dotted the horsehair mats in the weight room of the Dairy School gym, where we would always be waiting for Junior Jones to finish his turn. Jones took all the weights in the room and put them on one barbell, and we would stand there with our empty bars, waiting and waiting. In his days with the Cleveland Browns, Junior Jones weighed 285 and could bench-press 550. He was not that strong when he was at the Dairy School, but he was already strong enough to suggest to me a proper goal for the bench press.
'What you weigh?' he'd ask me. 'Do you even know?' And when I'd tell him what I weighed, he'd shake his head and say, 'Okay, double it.' And when I'd doubled it -- and had put 300 pounds or so on the barbell -- he'd say, 'Okay, down on the mat, on your back.' There were no benches for doing bench presses at the Dairy School, so I'd lie down on the mat on my back and Junior Jones would pick up the 300-pound barbell and place it gently across my throat -- there was just enough room so that the bar depressed my Adam's apple only slightly. I gripped the bar in both hands and I felt my elbows sink down into the mat. 'Now lift it over your head,' said Junior Jones, and he'd walk out of the weight room, to get a drink of water, or go take his shower, and I'd lie there under the barbell -- trapped. Nothing happened when I tried to lift 300 pounds. Other, bigger people would come into the weight room and see me lying there, under the 300 pounds, and they'd respectfully ask me, 'Uh, you gonna be through with that, after a while?'
'Yeah, just resting,' I'd say, puffing up like a toad. And they'd go away and come back later.
Junior Jones would always come back later, too.
'How's it going?' he'd ask. He'd take off twenty pounds, then fifty, then one hundred.
'Try that,' he'd keep saying; he kept going away, and coming back, until I could extricate myself from under the barbell.
And all 150 pounds of me has never bench-pressed 300 pounds, of course, although twice in my life I have done 215, and I believe that doubling my own weight is not impossible. I can get in a marvellous trance under all that weight.
Sometimes, when I'm really pumping, I can see the Black Arm of the Law moving through the trees, humming their tune, and sometimes I can recall the smell of the fifth floor of the dorm where Junior Jones lived -- that hot, jungle nightclub in the sky -- and when I run, about the third mile, or the fourth, or sometimes not until the sixth, my own lungs remember, vividly, the feeling of keeping up with Harold Swallow. And the sight of a slash of Franny's hair, fallen across her open mouth -- no sound coming from her -- as Lenny Metz knelt on her arms and pinched her head between his heavy, running-back's thighs. And Chester Pulaski on top of her: an automaton. I sometimes can duplicate his rhythm, exactly, when I am counting out the push-ups ('seventy-five, seventy-six, seventy-seven'). Or the sit-ups ('one hundred and twenty-one, one hundred and twenty-two, one hundred and twenty-three').
Iowa Bob simply introduced me to the equipment; Junior Jones added his
advice, and his own marvellous example; Father had already taught me how to run -- and Harold Swallow, how to run harder. The technique and routine -- and even Coach Bob's diet -- were easy. The hard part, for most people, is the discipline. As Coach Bob said, you've got to get obsessed and stay obsessed. But for me, this was also easy. Because I did it all for Franny. I'm not complaining, but it was all for Franny -- and she knew it.
'Listen, kid,' she told me -- from Halloween to Christmas, 1956 -- 'you're going to throw up if you don't stop eating bananas. And if you don't stop eating oranges, you're going to have a vitamin overdose. What the hell are you pushing so hard for? You'll never be as fast as Harold Swallow. You'll never be as big as Junior Jones.
'Kid, I can read you like a book,' Franny told me. 'No way is it going to happen again, you know. And if it does -- and you actually are strong enough to save me -- what makes you think you'll even be there? If it happens again, I'll be someplace far away from you -- and I'll hope you never know about it, anyway. I promise.'
But Franny took the purpose of my workouts too literally. I wanted strength, stamina, and speed -- or I desired their illusions. I never wanted to feel, again, the helplessness of another Halloween.
There was still the evidence of a mangled pumpkin or two -- one at the curb of Pine Street and Elliot Park, and another that had been thrown from the bleachers and burst upon the cinder track around the football field -- when Dairy hosted Exeter for the last game of Iowa Bob's winning season. Halloween was still in the air, although Chipper Dove, Lenny Metz, and Chester Pulaski were gone.
The second-string backfield appeared under the influence of a spell: they did everything in slow motion. They ran to the holes that Junior Jones had opened, after the holes had closed; they lobbed passes into the sky, and the passes took forever to come down. Waiting for one such pass, Harold Swallow was knocked unconscious and Iowa Bob wouldn't let him play the rest of the long day.
'Somebody rang your bell, Harold,' Coach Bob told the speedster.
'I ain't got no bell,' Harold Swallow complained. 'Who rang?' he asked. 'What somebody?'
At the half, Exeter led 24-0. Junior Jones, playing both offence and defence, had been involved in a dozen tackles; he caused three fumbles and recovered two; but the second-string Dairy backfield had coughed up the ball three times, and two looping passes had been intercepted. In the second half, Coach Bob started Junior Jones at a running-back position, and Jones made three consecutive first downs before the Exeter defence adjusted. The adjustment was simply recognizing that as long as Junior Jones was in the backfield, he would carry the ball. So Iowa Bob put Junior back in the line, where he had more fun, and Dairy's only score, which came late in the fourth quarter, was properly credited to Jones. He broke into the Exeter backfield and took the ball away from an Exeter running back and ran into the Exeter end zone with it -- and with two or three Exeter players clinging to him. The extra point was wide to the left and the final score was Exeter 45, Dairy 6.
Franny missed Junior's touchdown: she had come to the game only because of him, and she had gone back to being a cheerleader for the Exeter game only to yell her lungs out for Junior Jones. But Franny got involved in an altercation with another cheerleader, and Mother had to take her home. The other cheerleader was Chipper Dove's hiding place, Mindy Mitchell.
'Cock tease,' Mindy Mitchell called my sister.
'Dumb cunt,' Franny said, and whacked Mindy with her cheerleader's megaphone. It was made of cardboard, and it looked like a large shit-brown ice cream cone with a death-grey D for Dairy painted on it. 'D is for Death,' Franny always said.
'Smack in the boobs,' another cheerleader told me. 'Franny hit Mindy Mitchell with the megaphone smack in the boobs.'
Of course I told Junior Jones, after the game', why Franny wasn't there to walk with him back to the gym.
'What a good girl she is!' Junior said. 'You tell her, won't you?'
And of course I did. Franny had taken another bath and was all dressed up to help Ronda Ray wait on tables; she was in a pretty good mood. Despite the rather landslide conclusion to Iowa Bob's winning season, nearly everyone seemed in a good mood. It was opening night at the Hotel New Hampshire!
Mrs. Urick had outdone herself at plainness-but-goodness; even Max was wearing a white shirt and tie, and Father was absolutely beaming behind the bar -- the bottles winking in the mirror, under his fast-moving elbows and over his shoulders, were like a sunrise Father had always believed was coming.
There were eleven couples and seven singles for overnight guests, and a divorced man from Texas had come all the way to see his son play against Exeter; the kid had gone out of the game in the first quarter with a sprained ankle, but even the Texan was in a good mood. Compared to him, the couples and the singles seemed a little shy -- not knowing each other, just having children at the Dairy School in common -- but after the kids went back to their dorms, the Texan got everyone talking to each other in the restaurant and bar. 'Isn't it great having kids?' he asked. 'God, it's something how they all grow up, isn't it?' Everyone agreed. The Texan said, 'Why don't you all pull your chairs over here to my table and have a drink on me!' And Mother stood anxiously in the kitchen doorway, with Mrs. Urick and Max, and Father stood poised but confident behind the bar; Frank ran out of the room; Franny held my hand and we held our breath; Iowa Bob looked as if he were suppressing an enormous sneeze. And one by one the couples and the singles got up from where they were sitting and attempted to pull their chairs over to the Texan's table.
'Mine's stuck!' said a woman from New Jersey, who'd had a little too much to drink; she had a sharp, squeaky giggle of the mindless quality of hamsters running miles and miles on those little wheels in their cages.
A man from Connecticut turned bright red in the face, trying to lift his chair, until his wife said, 'It's nailed down. There are nails that go right into the floor.'
A man from Massachusetts knelt on the floor by his chair. 'Screws,' he said. Those are screws -- four or five of them, for each chair!'