'How could you -- with Ernst?' Susie mumbled to Franny. 'And how could you -- with whores?' she asked me. 'I don't understand either of you,' Susie concluded. 'I'm too old for this.'
'No, I am too old for this, Susie,' said Father gently, to the bear. We hadn't noticed him, standing in the lobby, behind the reception desk; we thought he had gone to bed. He wasn't alone, either. The gentle mother-like radical, our dear Schlagobers, our dear Schwanger, was with him. She had her gun out and she motioned us all back to the couch.
'Be a dear,' Schwanger said to me. 'Get Lilly and Frank. Wake them up nicely,' she added. 'Don't be rough, or too abrupt.'
Frank was lying in bed with the dressmaker's dummy stretched out beside him. He was wide-awake; I didn't have to wake him. 'I knew we shouldn't have waited,' Frank said. 'We should have blown the whistle right away.'
Lilly was also wide-awake. Lilly was writing.
'Here comes a new experience to write about, Lilly,' I joked with her, holding her hand as we walked back to the lobby.
'I hope it's just a little experience,' Lilly said.
They were all waiting for us in the lobby. Schraubenschlussel was wearing his streetcar conductor's uniform; he looked very 'official.' Arbeiter had come dressed for work; he was so well dressed, in fact, that he wouldn't have looked out of place at the Opera. He was wearing a tuxedo -- all black. And the quarterback was there, the signal caller was there to lead them -- Ernst the lady-killer, Ernst the pornographer, Ernst the star was there. Only Old Billig -- Old Billig the radical -- was missing. He blew the way the wind blew, as Arbeiter had observed: Old Billig was smart enough to have excluded himself from this end of the movement. He would still be around for the next show; for Ernst and Arbeiter, for Schraubenschlussel and Schwanger, this was surely the gala (and maybe the final) performance.
'Lilly dear,' Schwanger said. 'Go fetch Freud for us. Freud should be here, too.'
And Lilly, once again cast in the role of Freud's Seeing Eye bear, brought the old blind believer to us -- his Louisville Slugger tap-tap-tapping in front of him, his scarlet silk robe with the black dragon on the back was all he wore ('Chinatown, New York City, 1939!' he had told us).
'What dream is this?' the old man said. 'Whatever happened to democracy?'
Lilly seated Freud on the couch next to Father; Freud promptly whacked Father's shin with the baseball bat.
'Oh, sorry!' Freud cried. 'Whose anatomy is that?'
'Win Berry,' my father said softly; it was eerie, but that was the only time we children heard him speak his own name.
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p; 'Win Berry!' Freud cried. 'Well, nothing too bad can happen with Win Berry around!' No one looked so sure.
'Explain yourselves!' Freud shouted to the darkness he saw. 'You're all here,' the old man said. 'I can smell you, I can hear every breath.'
'It's really quite simple to explain,' Ernst said quietly.
'Basic,' said Arbeiter. 'Truly basic.'
'We need a driver,' Ernst said softly, 'someone to drive the car.'
'It runs like a dream,' Schraubenschlussel said, worshipfully. 'It purrs like a kitten.'
'Drive it yourself, Wrench,' I said.
'Be quiet, dear,' Schwanger said to me; I just looked at her gun to confirm that it was pointed at me.
'Be quiet, weight lifter,' Wrench said; he had a short, heavy-looking tool protruding from the front pants pocket of his streetcar conductor's uniform, and he rested his hand on the tool as if the tool were the butt of a pistol.
'Fehlgeburt was full of doubt,' Ernst said.
'Fehlgeburt is dead,' Lilly said -- our family realist, the family writer.
'Fehlgeburt had a fatal case of romanticism,' Ernst said. 'She always questioned the means.'
'The ends do justify the means, you know,' Arbeiter interjected. 'That's basic, truly basic.'
'You're a moron, Arbeiter,' Franny said.
'And you're as self-righteous as any capitalist!' Freud told Arbeiter.