The Cider House Rules

However, in the one and a half times a month that he could be with Candy, it jolted him to realize that in their union there was (even after fifteen years) a frenzy with which they clung to each other that would not have appeared pale in comparison to their first such meeting in the cider house. But since Melony had first introduced Homer Wells to sex--and it had been only during that brief period of what seemed to him to be his "married life" with Candy in St. Cloud's that he had experienced anything of what sex ideally is--it was Homer's opinion that sex had little to do with love; that love was much more focused and felt in moments of tenderness and of concern. It had been years (for example) since he had seen Candy asleep, or had been the one to waken her; years since he had watched her fall asleep, and had stayed awake to watch her.

This tenderness he reserved for Angel. When Angel had been smaller, Homer had occasionally encountered Candy in the darkness of Angel's room, and they had even shared a few evenings of that silent wondering parents engage in while watching their children sleep. But Homer had fallen asleep, many nights, in the empty twin bed beside Angel's bed, just listening to the breathing of his son; after all, Homer had spent his childhood trying to sleep in a room where an entire population lay breathing.

And was there a feeling more full of love, he wondered, than to wake up a child in the morning? Full of love and apology, both, Homer Wells concluded. It was with Angel that he felt love like that; if Candy had such moments, Homer imagined, she had to have them with Wally. An orphan's pleasures are compartmental. In St. Cloud's, it was best to be hungry in the morning; they didn't run out of pancakes. There was sex, which called for good weather (and, of course, Melony); there were acts of wandering and destruction (Melony again, in any weather); there were solitary acts and moments of reflection, which could occur only when it rained (and only without Melony). As much as he desired a family, Homer Wells was not trained to appreciate a family's flexible nature.

That July--it was one hot and lazy Saturday afternoon--Homer was floating in the pool; he had been in the orchards all morning, mulching the young trees. Angel had been working with him, and now Angel was out of the pool, but still dripping wet; he was tossing a baseball back and forth with Wally. Wally sat on the lawn, on a slight knoll above the pool, and Angel stood on the deck. They would throw the hardball back and forth, not talking but concentrating on their throws; Wally would fire the ball with considerable sting for someone in a sitting position but Angel had more zip on the ball. The ball popped pleasantly in their big gloves.

Candy came down to the pool from the apple-mart office. She was wearing her work clothes--jeans; a khaki field shirt, with oversized pockets and epaulettes; work boots; a Boston Red Sox baseball cap with the visor turned backward. (She cared more about protecting her hair from the sun than her face, because in the summer her blondness could turn whiter, which she knew showed more of the gray.)

"I know the men are out of the fields at noon on Saturday," she said, her hands on her hips, "but the women are working in the mart until three."

Homer stopped floating; he let his feet touch the bottom and he stood chest deep in the pool, looking at Candy. Wally looked over his shoulder at her, then fired the ball to Angel, who fired it back.

"Please hold the ball, while I'm trying to say something," Candy said.

Wally held the ball. "What are you trying to say?" he asked.

"I think that on Saturdays, as long as there are people working at the mart, you should refrain from playing at the pool--everyone can hear you, and I think it kind of rubs it in."

"Rubs what in?" Angel asked.

"That you get to play and live in the fancy house, as they call it, and they get to work," Candy said.

"Pete's not working," Angel said. "Pete got a ride to the beach."

"Pete Hyde is a kid," Candy said. "His mother is still working."

"Well, I'm a kid, aren't I?" Angel asked playfully.

"Well, I don't mean you, especially," Candy said. "What about you two?" she asked Homer and Wally.

"Well, I'm a kid, too," Wally said, throwing the ball back to Angel. "I just play all day long, anyway." Angel laughed and threw the ball back, but Homer Wells glowered at Candy from his chest-deep position in the pool.

"Do you see what I mean, Homer?" Candy asked him. Homer allowed himself to sink; he held his breath for a while, and when he came up for air, Candy was going through the kitchen door. The screen door banged.

"Oh, come on!" Wally called after her. "Of course we see what you mean!"

And that was when Homer said it. Homer spat out some water and said to Angel, "Go tell your mother that if she changes her clothes, we'll take her to the beach."

Angel was halfway to the house before it registered with Homer what he'd said, and Wally said to Angel, "Tell her to change her mood, too."

When Angel went in the kitchen, Wally said, "I don't think he even noticed what you said, old boy."

"It's just that she is such a mother to him--I can't help thinking of her that way," Homer said.

"I'm sure it's hard," Wally said, "not to think of her any way that you want."

"What?" Homer asked.

"She certainly is manipulative, isn't she?" Wally asked him. Homer ducked his head underwater again--it was a cool place to think.

"Manipulative?" he said, when he surfaced.

"Well, someone has to know what to do," Wally said. "Someone's got to make the decisions."

Homer Wells, who felt the word "Right!" rising in him, like an unstoppable bubble surfacing from the swimming pool, put his hand over his mouth and looked at Wally, who was sitting on the knoll on the lawn, his back very straight, the baseball mitt in his lap, the baseball held in his hand (his throwing arm cocked). Homer Wells knew that if the word had escaped him, the ball would have been on its fast way to him as soon as the word was in the air--and quite probably before Homer could have ducked underwater ag

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