Vanvleck's homicide series was more in the vein of understated realism than anything on American television; there was less visible violence, and the sexual content was more frank. Nor did happy endings find their unlikely way into any of the episodes--Christiaan Winter is not reunited with his family. The best he can manage is a civil conversation with his daughter in a coffeehouse, where he is introduced to her new boyfriend. We can tell that the veteran policeman doesn't care for the boyfriend, but he keeps his thoughts to himself. In the last shot, after his daughter gives him a kiss on the cheek, Winter realizes that the boyfriend has left some money on the table for the coffee.
This was noir warm, which was Wild Bill at his best--at least this is what Jack said to Nico Oudejans when Nico called and asked Jack his opinion of Vanvleck's series. Nico liked the series, too. Nico didn't ask Jack how the meeting with Femke had gone. Nico knew Femke; as a good cop, he knew every detail of Daughter Alice's story, too. Jack told Nico about Herbert Hoffmann being a tattoo artist, not an organ. Naturally, Nico asked if Jack was going to Hamburg.
He wasn't. Jack knew actors may be more highly skilled at lying than other people, but they are no more adept at lying to themselves--and even actors should know better than to lie to cops.
"What more do I need to know?" Jack asked Nico, who didn't answer him. The policeman just kept looking at Jack's eyes--then at his hands, then at his eyes again. Jack began to speak more rapidly; to Nico, Jack's thoughts were more run-on than consecutive, but the cop didn't question him.
Jack said that he hoped, for his father's sake, that William had another family. Jack wouldn't invade his father's privacy; after all, William hadn't invaded Jack's. Besides, Jack knew that Herbert Hoffmann had retired. Alice had revered Hoffmann, but Jack would leave Herbert Hoffmann in peace, too. So what if Hoffmann had almost surely met William Burns?
"Now that you're getting close, maybe you're afraid to find him, Jack," Nico said.
It was Jack's turn not to say anything; he just tried to look unafraid.
"Maybe you're afraid that you'll cause your father pain, or that he won't want to see you," the policeman said.
"Don't you mean that I'll cause him more pain?" Jack asked.
"Now that you're getting close, maybe you don't want to get any closer--that's all I'm saying, Jack."
"Maybe," Jack said. He didn't feel like much of an actor anymore. Jack Burns was a boy who'd never known his father, a boy whose father had been kept from him; maybe what Jack was really afraid of was losing his missing father as an excuse. That's what Claudia would have told him, but Nico said nothing more.
If William had wanted a Herbert Hoffmann, Jack thought he knew which kind. He imagined it was one of Hoffmann's sailing ships--often seen sailing out of port, or in the open sea on a long voyage. Sometimes there was a dark lighthouse and the ship was headed for rocks. Herbert Hoffmann's Sailor's Grave was among his most famous; there were his Last Port and his Letzte Reise or Last Trip, too. In most cases, Hoffmann's ships were sailing into danger or unknown adventures; the feeling the tattoos gave you was one of farewell, although Herbert Hoffmann had done his share of homeward-bound tattoos as well.
A Homeward Bound would not have been his father's choice, Jack was thinking. On the ship that had carried Jack away from his dad, Jack sensed there would have been more of a Sailor's Grave or a farewell feeling--at least from William's point of view. A ship leaving harbor conveys an uncertain future.
Or else William Burns had stuck to music on his skin. Jack could imagine that, too.
There was a nonstop flight from Los Angeles to Amsterdam--a little more than ten hours in the air. Richard Gladstein was going to be tired. He would leave L.A. at 4:10 in the afternoon and land in Amsterdam at 11:40 in the morning, the next day. Jack assumed that Richard would want to take a nap before they met Vanvleck for dinner that evening.
For two days, Jack didn't leave his hotel room except to go to the gym on the Rokin. He lived on room service; he wrote pages and pages to Michele Maher. He came up with nothing he would send to her, but the stationery at the Grand was both more plentiful and more attractive than that at the Hotel Torni.
Jack did manage to come up with a clever way of asking Michele Maher the full-body tattoo question--that is, dermatologically speaking.
Dear Michele,
As a dermatologist, can you think of any reason why a person with a full-body tattoo might feel cold?
Please return the stamped, self-addressed postcard--checking the appropriate box.
Yours,
Jack
On a postcard of the Oudezijds Voorburgwal canal, he gave Michele the following options.
o No.
o Yes. Let's talk about it!
Love,
Michele
Of course he didn't send that letter or the postcard. For one thing, he didn't have a U.S. stamp for the return delivery; for another, the "Love, Michele" was taking a lot for granted after fifteen years.
His second day alone, Jack almost went to see Els again in her apartment on the Sint Jacobsstraat. He didn't want to sleep with a prostitute in her seventies--he just liked Els.
Mainly Jack would lie awake at night--imagining his little face on the ship's deck, where his mother had lifted him above the rail. Jack was just smiling, and waving to beat the band, while the damage was being done around him--especially to his dad.