“Because I didn’t want to. I told you I’d give you a chance. I meant it, Tommy.”
“You’ll marry me?” he asked, eyes narrow.
“Yes,” I answered.
He huffed and then pushed my shoulders slightly back so that I was sort of suspended in midair. He grabbed my legs and pulled me tighter to him so that he was driving so deep into me that it felt like he was hitting parts he shouldn’t be hitting.
“You can’t leave me, Tia,” it was more like a plea instead of a demand. There was something that looked a little like pain in his eyes.
I had nothing to hold onto, my abs were killing me. I grabbed at my stomach and he spun me around so that I had the bed to lie on and now he was standing up, pummeling me from standing, pulling my legs up, driving in so deep that I started to cry out but it was sweet pain and the look on his face was so sexy I would’ve swooned if I wasn’t already horizontal.
As he plunged into me he started tweaking my clit with his thumb, almost in a strumming motion and the heated stare, the sensation, and the feeling of him sliding in and out at that rapid pace all culminated in a loud moan from me. But he wasn’t done. I’d come twice and he still wasn’t done. I was flipped back onto my belly, my ass in the air and he climbed onto the bed and drove into me from behind. Ramming hard, fingers gripping my hips, and then out of nowhere he made a low growling sound and a stinging slap rang across on my ass. I jolted, dislodged him, and then he grabbed my hips and rammed back in, eliciting a squeaking protest from me. He gripped my rear hard with his hand and I didn’t know if I loved it or hated it. His breathing pa
ce changed and then he groaned my name as he came. I collapsed face first on the bed under the weight of him collapsing on top of me. He stayed on top of me for a few minutes. The feel of his breath on my neck, of his heart pounding through his chest against my back, it gave me a weird feeling, a peaceful feeling.
He started to caress my head, then gathered my hair to one side and began running his fingers through it.
“I’m sorry,” he whispered against my ear, “It’s going to take time for us to both trust one another. I want us to have a good day together. Still upset?”
“Not really,” I answered, but in truth I wasn’t sure how to feel.
“Did I fuck you into submission?” I felt him smile against my shoulder and then he planted a soft kiss against it.
“I think you might’ve.” I smiled back.
He rolled me onto my side and spooned me, “I may do that often, you know?” he kissed my ear and gave me a squeeze, “But you didn’t submit 100%, did you?”
I knew he wanted that Yes, I’m yours, from me and I didn’t give it to him. But he didn’t seem angry right now, “Mmm, maybe 90ish.” I said and he let out a little laugh.
“Progress,” he murmured, “Huge progress.”
I heard a flock of birds overhead and as they flew over the barn and the expanse of the property and I sighed, “It’s lovely here.”
“I love it here,” he said, “I needed to feel like you were safe. Home wasn’t safe. Here feels better.”
I turned over so that I was facing him and put my arms around him and nuzzled into his chest. His bruises were fading. He looked down at me happily. I felt safe there, then, in his arms, which was the strangest thing because I’d probably never known actual true danger before I’d met him. I traced his tattoo with my finger and enjoyed the feel of a gentle breeze that swooped through the loft.
Tommy
I hadn’t earned it yet. I hadn’t earned a “Yes, I’m yours.” I hadn’t earned, “I love you” yet. But I would.
After making love we laid in bed for the longest time. It was funny to think of it as “making love” instead of fucking, like it’d always been, but I guess my mindset had started to shift. Did it qualify as making love if it was a little rough? To me it did. I loved her and I wanted her and I was expressing that love and that hunger with my body.
She cuddled up to me and drew circles on my arm and then my back with her fingertips and then I did it back and she squirmed. She made me feel like a teenager. A horny teenager who couldn’t get enough of her and who, in that moment at least, didn’t care if it was vanilla, chocolate, or blackjack berry thunder as long as it was with her.
“You’re very ticklish,” I told her, “I like how you squirm against me when I tickle you.”
She blushed and batted her eyelashes at me.
“Why don’t we warm up those sandwiches and eat and then we’ll go fishing?” I suggested and tapped her on the bottom. She smiled and stretched.
I got out of the bed and popped the bag into the microwave. She got up and put a new pair of panties on, a sexy silky pair that I’d bought her, put a matching bra on, and then pulled the yellow cotton dress over her head and started hunting for something to put her flowers into. I found her a mason jar that was down in one of the stalls and she cleaned it, put the bouquet in, and then put the yellow strap back around the waist of her dress.
We ate and then I walked her downstairs and pulled out the new fishing rods I’d bought that morning. I bought her a pink one and she thought it was hilarious that it was pink. We made our way down to the pond and I put the worm on for her and taught her how to cast. She was a natural; she caught twice as many fish as I did but wouldn’t touch the worm or the fish. I finally grabbed her as she muttered “one more cast” for the fifth time and carried her back to the barn over my shoulder, “We’ve been fishing all day. We have reservations, no more casts.”
She giggled as I put her down near the bed and reached for my keys. She wanted five minutes to freshen up and grab her purse so I waited in the jeep for her, thinking about the fact that I had to go to Vegas for some business and that I didn’t want to leave her at the house.
I didn’t want to leave her because, a) I still wasn’t content the security issues that plagued me after Earl and then after the shooting yesterday were totally resolved. I knew that there’d very likely be blowback from what I did in Mexico because Castillo had a local nephew who was a small time drug dealer and thug and it was him and his guys that’d breached security and gotten in by scaling up and in from behind the swimming pool but I had taken care of it and now that threat was eliminated. A taller fence was being put in today to make sure no one could get in that way.