“Tell me you’re mine.”
“I’m yours, Tommy.”
“Forever.”
“Forever, baby.”
“Tell me you love me.”
“Love you so much, Tommy.”
“Good girl.”
Goosebumps rose all over me. I melted at that.
“Say it again,” he grunted against my ear.
“It again.”
Slap. “Ouch!” I laughed.
“Naughty girl.”
I laughed again.
“I like it when you’re a little bit naughty, you know that?”
“Mmm.”
“Why do I like it when you’re naughty?” he squeezed my ass really hard.
“You get to punish me for being naughty,” I answered hoarsely and he moaned,
“That’s right. I get to spank this sexy ass. I want to fuck this sexy ass, too.”
My throat went instantly dry. He flipped me over and kissed me hard. I kissed him hard right back. My ass cheeks were on fire, my girlie parts, practically begging for it. He gave it to me hard and fast, thankfully not in the ass (I was flipped out by that idea) and it didn’t last very long but we both came hard. I fell asleep pretty quickly afterward but woke up to him whispering to me, “Athena,”
“Mmm.”
“I love you.”
“I love you, too, Tommy.” I put my palm to his cheek.
“Do you really? Or have I just fucked you up so much that you think you have to love me so you can survive me?”
I opened my mouth but for a second but nothing came out, then “I don’t know” spilled out and sorrow lanced through me.
Tommy
I pulled her tight to me and just fucking broke, “Thank you, baby girl. Thank you for being honest. I know I’m a fucking asshole and I’ve hurt you so bad and messed with your head and I don’t deserve you but please hang in there with me. I’ll try. I’ll try to be what you need, try so fucking hard. Keep being honest, okay? You are everything to me, do you understand me? You’re more important than the family, the money, the power, the control, any of it. Be strong for me, baby. I need you to be strong. Don’t let me break you. Please don’t let me break you.”
She clutched me what must’ve been as tight as she could, “I won’t. You’re worth loving, Tommy. You are worthy of real love and that’s what you are going to get from me, okay? And I’ll be everything you need, too, okay? I will love you and be yours forever. I won’t break.” She wiped the tears from my cheeks with her fingers and put her lips to my chin.
“I’ll hold you to that,” I said, kissed her nose, and then we fell asleep locked together.
Tia
I meant it. I wanted him to know unconditional love. I think that’s what he needed. Why did I fall in love this man who had fucked with my head so much? It was a combination of things, maybe. Maybe it was what he’d been through and that I thought my love could cure him. It must be unconditional if I was still willing to be in this at this point, right? I told myself I was strong enough, that I could endure, for him, for myself.