Three, Two, One (321)

Gabriel is right about one thing. I love JD. And I’ll do anything for the guy.

I turn around and go back inside, the snowflakes sticking to my hair, the cold sticking to my body, making me need to warm up in the shower. I head to my room and stop short when I see them both in my bed.

Fuck. My eyes linger on JD’s hand on Blue’s bare breast, JD’s long, muscled leg wrapping over her in a protective embrace. And there’s empty space where I’d fit in perfectly, if I just gave in to my feelings.

I turn away and get into the shower, letting the hot water wash away the filth I deal in four nights a week.

If I give in… we’d have a life of porn-selling. And as long as we ran the business by the book, it’d be a very nice one. Filled with whatever we wanted. Vacations together. Christmases. Birthdays. Hell, kids. We could have kids like any other partnership. I picture this place filled with a family we make together.

Is that stupid?

Is Blue even invested? She’s a girl missing from a very prominent family. How long can we keep up the charade? How long before she misses her family so much, she risks contact? And once there’s contact, this life evaporates. There’s no way she’d stay with JD and me. No fucking way.

The only possibility of making something real out of this is to take care of all the outside threats. And if I do that, can I continue to be this person? Can I continue to contribute to the demise of hundreds—hell, thousands—of girls involved in the industry each year?

How the fuck do I justify that?

It’s a no-win. There is no way to win this game without tearing my whole life down in the process.

I turn the water off and grab a towel, wrapping it around my waist. When I open the door, the steam from the bathroom pours out into the bedroom, covering the two people in my bed with mist. Making them look like apparitions. Like they can disappear at any moment.

I drop the towel and walk over to the bed. JD is facing me, hugging Blue to his chest. He opens one tired eye and smiles. “Just get in bed, Ark.”

His voice is soft, but Blue stirs, twisting her body so her shoulders are flat on the mattress, her breasts exposed to me. Her breathing is still deep, telling me she’s asleep.

I pull the covers back and slide in next to her and when she turns into me, her cool body hits my overheated one from the shower. She moans and snuggles in closer, making me chance a look over at JD to see what he’s thinking about this.

He closes his eyes and places a hand on her hip, then slides it down her belly so that it rubs me as well. My dick is already hard, but that adds to my growing desire. I want to touch him. I want him to touch me. And I want to share more than Blue.

His hand spends a few moments caressing Blue’s pussy, and she moans again, but this time her eyes flutter for a few seconds. When she finally opens them, the desire in there seals the deal.

I want them both.

They both want me.

We want each other.

Her hand comes up, her palm sliding along the rough stubble of my cheek. And then JD’s hand is on top of hers and we lie there, enjoying the moments. Enjoying the beginning of something new.

Not sex.

Not lust.

Love. It’s the official beginning of our shared love.

And then we pass the start line.

“Blue, baby,” JD says in that low throaty growl he likes to use on the whores. But this time, it opens up a level of desire in me like it never has before. And when he grabs Blue’s hand and slides it down my chest, both their fingertips caressing my skin the whole way down to my cock, I reach up and grip his hair in a tight fist.

Blue’s little palm circles my dick, and JD’s big one circles hers. Together they pump me in a slow, easy rhythm. My eyes dart between them. And then JD’s hand lifts off of Blue’s and he brings it up, pressing down on her head. “Suck him off, Blue.”

She smiles at me and lets JD’s pressure guide her head down my stomach. She kisses me as she goes, her tongue licking my abs, then my groin, then her hand cups my balls as her lips find my head.

“Fuck,” I moan out, my eyes closing. Her mouth moves up and down my shaft, licking me, then sucking my tip, her hand still kneading my balls.

“Take him deep, baby. Like you did me earlier.”

I should feel rage at Blue sucking another man. But I don’t. I don’t even come close. Those words turn me on so bad, I yank on JD’s hair, pulling his face to mine. And when our faces are only inches apart, I do something I never thought I’d do.

I lean in and kiss him on the lips.

His mouth opens in response, his tongue twisting us together. I pull his hair again and he groans, grinding his hips against the back of Blue’s head as she continues to suck me.

He tastes like pussy, and my tongue can’t get enough of it. My hand falls from his hair, pressing against his throat, squeezing him the way I’ve seen him squeeze hundreds of girls as they sucked his dick in public.

“Fuck, Ark,” he says, pulling out of the kiss.

“Fuck, no?” I ask. “Or fuck, yes?”

He stares at me. It’s the most intimate moment I’ve ever had with him. Maybe with anyone. “It’s a definite fuck, yes.”

And then he smacks Blue on the ass. “Baby, climb on Ark.” He guides her up to her knees, then turns her around so she’s facing me and has her straddle my hips. I watch the whole process, my dick swelling, so fucking ready for this it almost hurts. She hovers over my tip, her pussy so wet it’s practically dripping. And then JD’s hand is there, his finger pushing up against her opening, making her moan in the most delicious way. My hand goes to JD’s shoulder and then drops down, caressing his muscular back.