Home For Christmas

Just then the two of them emerge from the top of the stairs. Mom’s cheeks are flushed and Dad is smiling like the Grinch. Oh god, I’m going to be sick.

“What are you kids up to tonight?” Dad asks as he and Mom sit on the loveseat on the other side of the fire.

He has his arms around Mom and she’s looking at him with eyes full of love. I sometimes think back to when Mom and I were away and how much I missed Holly. But it couldn’t have been near the pain she felt being away from Dad. To be with someone for so long and have that taken away would have been my worst nightmare. And yet, somehow, she was able to manage it for so long. Seeing the two of them together now, I know we made the right decision, but I also know it was probably the hardest one of her life.

“Just trying to drink away what I saw in your bedroom earlier,” Hunter says as he turns up his beer.

My mom laughs and covers her face with both hands. “You should have knocked.”

My dad looks proud. “Maybe we should have put a sock on the door, sweetheart.”

“Oh god, make it stop,” I groan while Autumn and Holly fail miserably at keeping it together.

“Your mother and I are just making up for lost time,” he says, and kisses her on the cheek.

“It’s been a year,” Hunter says, but he’s just giving Dad a hard time.

“Is that as long as you think it takes to make up for it? We can talk in private, Hunter, and I’ll give you some pointers.”

“That’s it!” Hunter announces, scooping a nearly hysterical Autumn up in his arms. “We’re going to bed. See you in the morning.”

“I think we should probably put him down, too,” Holly says, and she nuzzles the baby and stands up from the couch.

“I think we’re going to sit by the fire for a bit longer,” my mom says when I get up and kiss them goodnight.

“Merry Christmas,” I say as we walk up the stairs.

“Do you think they know?” Holly whispers when we round the corner.

“No way. It’s going to be the best gift ever.”

Bonus Chapter

Neil

Christmas 2017…

I look into the eyes of my bride, whom I haven’t seen in five years. The woman I’ve loved since before I knew what that was. The woman whom I’ve spent years trying to live without and have only barely managed.

She and Vance just walked through the front door and it’s a miracle. I wished for this every night, but I never thought it would truly happen. I thought I’d lost them both for good. I thought I’d never see them again and still after all this time, I never learned to live without them.

I hug Vance goodbye before he walks out the door to go find the woman he loves. It’s then I turn my eyes back to Ariel and pray that I’m not dreaming.

“Neil,” she whispers, and her voice is so beautiful it’s like I’m hearing it for the first time.

“I think maybe we should give you guys some privacy,” Hunter says.

All I can do is nod as I keep my eyes locked on my wife.

I wait as he takes a stunned Autumn out of the living room, leaving Ariel and me alone. For a moment there’s only silence. My knees feel weak again, so I walk over to the fireplace and stoke the coals. A few flames come to life and I throw a couple of logs on the fire. When I close the grate I turn around and see Ariel has followed me.

She sits down on the couch and folds her hands in her lap. “Why won’t you say anything to me?” she asks as she stares down at her fingers.

“Because I don’t trust myself,” I say, and it’s the truth. “I want to scream, I want to shout.”

“Then do that. I deserve it,” she says, looking up at me with tears in her eyes.

I go over to the couch and sit down, but I’m careful not to touch her.

“Not at you, my love,” I say. “I want to yell at myself. I’ve betrayed you. I’m so sorry.”

“What do you have to be sorry for?” she says as she wipes away her tears. “I was the one who left.”

I want to hold her. I want take her in my arms. But I can’t. Not yet.

“Because I married someone else. She’s gone, and she meant nothing to me, but I did it. It happened right after I thought you died. I know you probably hate me, and right now I hate myself.”

The pain and guilt of how I betrayed her fills my chest. I can’t even look her in the eyes right now. I’m so ashamed of what happened, and it’s going to kill me to see the pain on her face.