Tainted Gold (Providence Gold 3)

But what had I been researching online?

Normally, I was a curious person as it was, so it wasn’t unusual for me to look shit up. My search history on my phone was absolutely insane, and if anyone investigated me, they’d probably recommend a psych eval. Like the time I looked up the size of a squirrel’s balls – those bitches were freaking huge, FYI.

But last night, I’d been searching for hours, but why?

Shifting my ass slightly, I dropped the phone onto the bed relieved to be getting the feeling back in one part of my body. That’s when I heard a groan and felt something tighten around my cock – my very hard cock which was standing to attention and loving the soft hand that was holding it firmly inside my boxers. Apparently I had feeling in areas of my body that I hadn’t realized…

My head snapped to look down at the owner of the hand, and I saw the mass of dark hair on the head resting right beside my crotch. As in, it was so close to my lap that if the person shifted forward a couple of inches, they could angle my dick toward their…

Lily!

It all came back to me at once, Lily, the fight, Lily again, the memories of that night we had together – finally – jail, and the fact she was carrying my baby.

I was scared, nervous and excited all at the same time about the fact I was going to be a dad. I wasn’t lying when I told Beau I believed her and that it was mine. The James’s were a rare breed of people, not unlike my family in terms of their honesty and morals. There’s no way Lily would lie about it being mine.

Plus, it sounded strange, but I could feel it. Something inside me just knew it was mine. Strange, but true. My family were good judges of character, and so far my Spidey senses had never led me astray.

I had other senses that were overriding those Spidey ones at the moment though, mainly how soft her hand was, and how good it felt as she tightened and loosened her grip. If she could just move it up and down slightly…

Fuck, no! Just before I fell asleep, I’d decided that I wanted to do this the right way for Lily and the baby, in fact for all of us. I know we’d already done it backwards, but I wanted to get to know her and for her to get to know me. I didn’t want the baby to come into the world, and for its parents to still be treading carefully around each other because they didn’t even know the other one’s likes and dislikes. That’s not how it was meant to be, so I was going to make sure that we did it properly.

I’d come across a women’s chat site before I fell asleep, and one of the threads had been called How do I get my man to woo me? There had been over a thousand comments under it on the things women wanted him to do to woo her, ignoring the bitter Betty’s whose comments would scare the shit out of a man.

So, armed with notes, I was going to woo Lily James.

This meant no sex. It also meant no hand around penis, regardless of how good it felt.

I couldn’t stop the whimper that came out of me as I reached down to try to free my cock, but the determination to do this right won over the feeling of her soft hand rubbing up and down, and maybe stopping at the tip to rub the... My dick would totally hate me for this – I hated me for it.

Apparently her determination was stronger than mine though, because she just gripped it even tighter. Random muttering came out of her shifting my eyes from here grip on my dick to her face, bracing for whatever she was going to come out with, but none of it ended up being like it was last night.

That was also something I’d looked up to see if there was anything I could do to help her when I’d realized how easily she could just walk out of her door and get hurt or killed. It had ended up being a lesson in why you should never look up things like that online because the horror stories and advice had scared the shit out of me. Regardless, I’d clenched tight, so I didn’t shit myself, sifted through it all, and had focused on the best bits of advice available. I really hoped she didn’t want to sleep alone ever again though, that just wasn’t happening.

I’d even looked at getting some sort of alarm to attach to her so that if she passed a sensor on the door, it woke me up. That was being overnighted and would arrive tomorrow, so I only had tonight to get through without it. Maybe I could tie her wrist to the bed or something?