At first I protested, not knowing at the time about my father’s own indiscretions and thinking that he was being a wimp by taking her back after she had made him so sad, but I saw that she made my dad smile, so I stopped giving him such a hard time.
But the older I got and the more I found out about their relationship, the more I started to realize that their kind of “love” was sick and twisted, and I didn’t know whether anything else could exist. I certainly didn’t want to risk finding out.
I knew that I wanted nothing to do with any serious relationship. I could never risk putting my heart on the line and getting hurt.
So, for me, I chose to have pets— contractual BDSM arrangements with subordinates, to whom I would be dominant. Sometimes it was just for a night, other times it lasted longer, but I was always clear that it was temporary and not part of any real relationship. My pets helped me to destress and gave me somewhere to go to escape the loneliness of my apartment.
But now Club Skin was closed due to COVID-19. And everyone was isolating. How would I get my needs met in this environment?
I wished that there was a way that I could bring a pet to me. I would have a playmate. And, plus, it would be a way for me to fill the open assistant position, now that my secretary had to take family leave for what could turn out to be the remainder of the pandemic.
There wasn’t a lot to do, other than normal clerical duties like filing, saving files to the computer, and answering emails, but those tasks still had to be done. And with the new workload that I was going to have, I knew that there was no way that I could do all of it and do it well.
I started formulating a plan when a voice shattered my thoughts. It was Ray, one of the last partners to leave the building.
“Hey, you’d better head home,” he said, anxiously. “There’s a statewide ordinance to close down all businesses. You don’t want to get into any trouble or anything.”
“Yeah, I know,” I said, annoyed that he felt he needed to tell me what to do. I was no child, after all. “I was just finishing up some things and then I was heading out.”
I packed up my laptop, still wondering how I could work out the dilemma I had found myself in.
All of a sudden, like lightning, an idea struck me.
Now I knew how I could solve both my problems at once.Chapter 2 – CandaceI was browsing the help wanted ads with my cup of coffee at the kitchen table. It was weird for me to be home at this time of day, but I had just lost my job as a waitress because the restaurant that I was working at had closed down due to the Coronavirus.
I had hoped that they would have stayed open, maybe for take-out orders, but the owner thought that we wouldn’t get enough business for it to be worth it.
I was immediately worried because waitressing was how I paid my bills. I didn’t have any savings or any kind of a back-up plan, really. So, I went through the want ads in hopes of finding a job that would work for me.
Unfortunately, the pickings were slim. This pandemic had had more of a rippling effect than I thought that it would, and it seemed to affect every service industry. Unfortunately, those were the only industries for which I was qualified or in which I had any experience.
What I really wished was that I didn’t have to worry about finding a new job. I wished that I could spend time focusing on other things, like having a social life.
I hadn’t had time for dating at all and now there was nowhere to go to meet someone to date. And nowhere to go on a date since everything was closed.
But, even beyond all that, I really wished that I could have lost my virginity by now. But, nope, after several disastrous dates in the past, I was still holding onto it at the ripe old age of nineteen.
Bored now and wanting to distract myself from the stress of not having a job, I pictured my dream man, to whom I would love to lose my virginity. He was tall, dark, handsome, and older than me, so that he would have plenty of experience. And it certainly wouldn’t hurt if he was wealthy, too.
I imagined him asking me out like a gentleman, taking me out to a fancy restaurant and then to a swanky nightclub lounge to have a good time, and finally, taking me back to his place. I crossed my legs as I thought about him taking me in his arms and laying me down on his bed.