Predatory Game (GhostWalkers 6)

"Or it can be used to save someone, the way it did Patsy."

She shook her head. "I'm not having this discussion with you. I'm not. I don't care if you get angry with me, I'm not risking your life. I won't do it. And you'd better keep those two friends of yours away, because neither one of them is doing it either." She sent him a smoldering look, controlled fury in her eyes. "I'm going to work. Never, and I mean never, bring this up to me again."

She turned to walk out of the bedroom. The door slammed closed, trapping her inside the room.

CHAPTER 17

Saber turned around slowly, trying to tamp down the anger suddenly churning in her stomach. "Open it."

Jess reached down to the floor to scoop up his trousers and shirt. "We need to talk about this, and since I can't chase after you..."

"Don't you dare play your wheelchair card on me," Saber hissed. "I don't deserve it. I'm going to take a shower and find clean clothes. I'll talk to you when I've calmed down. Open the door, Jesse."

Jess realized getting her to say she would talk after a shower was the best he was going to get. If he made her any angrier, she wasn't going to listen to anything he had to say. "After your shower we can meet in the kitchen."

She stood waiting, tapping her foot in silence.

"It's easier to close doors than open them," he admitted. "I'll meet you in fifteen minutes."

Saber yanked the door open and stalked through to the hallway. She ran up the stairs, furious with Jess, angry that he would risk his life. He had a good life. Most people would have given anything to have what he had. A family. Parents who loved him. A sister like Patsy.

"Damn you, Jesse," she yelled and slammed the bathroom door.

It didn't improve her mood to find the stack of brand-new clothes neatly folded, tags still on, waiting for her. She wouldn't have minded had Patsy bought them, or even Mari, but she suspected Mari wouldn't have thought of it and Patsy was in the hospital. No, this was from Lily. All the sizes were correct and there was just about everything she would need.

She took a deep calming breath and stepped under the water, turning her face up to let the hot stream run over her. She couldn't blame Jess for asking her to try to help him walk, as much as she wanted to. He would never have been a SEAL or joined the GhostWalkers if he didn't have a strong need for action and risk. He had to be intensely patriotic and he desperately needed the use of his legs to get back into action.

As she shampooed her hair she thought about patriotism. She detested everything about Whitney and tended to want to believe the monster had no good qualities, but he was a brilliant researcher and his training methods did bring results. She was afraid of the dark, yet she could move through a house unerringly to find her target in complete darkness. Her natural personality was to be emotional, yet she could be tortured and not cry out. She wasn't good at pain, but she'd learned to accept it. And why did Whitney fool himself into believing that the end results justified the means? Patriotism.

Whitney was a patriot. She washed the soap from her hair and added conditioner. The GhostWalkers were all patriots. "I'm not." She said it aloud. Said it defiantly. She wasn't killing because some bastard high up in the government decided someone else needed to die. What was wrong with everyone? How could they trust an order that came down from someone they didn't even know? Someone who could care less about them. Someone who maybe even had their own agenda, or was as loony as Whitney. It made no sense to her.

She dried off, repeating to herself that she was not going to let Jess persuade her. It was the height of stupidity. But with a sinking heart she knew if Jesse said just the right thing, looked at her a certain way, she'd give in--because she loved him. And love seemed to make her do really stupid things.

She dressed carefully, hoping to provide herself with a little armor, and went back down to join him. Jess always took her breath away with how handsome he was. She'd seen him once standing and he'd been an imposing sight. She felt safer with him in a wheelchair. Was that the reason she wanted to say no? Was it more than her fear of harming him? She hoped not. She hoped she wasn't that petty, but for the first time in her life she'd been happy. Jess standing, walking, working as a GhostWalker would change everything.

She crossed the room to avoid getting too close to him. She perched on the countertop and folded her arms, waiting for him to speak first.

"You have to be open-minded, Saber."

He even smelled good. Her heart ached looking at him, drinking him in. It would all change. Didn't he realize that? She shrugged. "I'm trying to be, but you have to be open-minded too, Jesse. There are a million reasons not to try this. One misstep and instead of regenerating a nerve, I could give you cancer."

"Before we get into all the reasons we shouldn't try it, angel face, just tell me what you remember of the report."

Saber's blue eyes glittered at him. "I think you're crazy to even consider doing anything Whitney advises."

"Whitney may be insane, but he's still a genius. If he thinks he has a solution to making the bionics work without a power pack, I'd like to hear it." He kept his voice calm and even.

"He has a solution for a lot of things, Jesse, and none of them are acceptable in a civilized world."

He refrained from arguing. She'd stall as long as he let her. "Just give me the information."

"Fine."

She shrugged, but he noticed she twisted her fingers together and held them tightly against her middle as if her stomach was churning in protest. He wanted to put his arms around her and comfort her, but he stayed still, knowing she had to come to terms with the idea of using her talent on him by herself.

"Apparently it's been known for some time that using electrical currents on wounds can regenerate lost limbs and even repair severed spinal cords in a variety of fish and mammals. Fish, Jesse. Mammals. Not humans. No one has tried what you're suggesting."

"Humans are mammals," he pointed out.

"Don't even try to be funny." She jumped off the counter and began to pace with quick, restless steps. "This isn't funny, Jesse. What you're asking me to do..."

"I know it isn't funny," he replied. "But there has to be something to this."

"Maybe." She pushed at her hair, making it more tousled than ever. "Whitney concluded that the neural pathways need electrical stimulation for regeneration, and that without it, any attempt will eventually fail. There are drugs that stimulate growth, but he concludes that they will never push the neural pathways to form correctly. The downside appears to be that if you overstimulate, it can cause excessive cell growth and cause tumors. Cancer, Jesse. That's what he's talking about."

"But without the electrical current, there's really no hope."

She whirled around to face him. "I knew you'd jump on that. I knew it. Whitney doesn't know everything. He doesn't, Jesse, and he's capable of terrible things. I've seen it. I've been a part of his experiments and believe me, he doesn't revere life. We're inferior to him. He wants the perfect soldier, and we're not quite up to his standards, so if he needs to find out how far electrical current can be used before it causes cells to become cancerous, he has no compunction about doing so."

"I'm aware of that." Jess kept his tone low, careful not to let the energy swirling in the room near her. He was worried enough without hearing what he already knew. "But you can manipulate the electrical current and read my rhythm at the same time, can't you? Isn't that what you do?"

"Nothing is that simple. I'll admit that the report supports findings that bioelectricity plays an important role in cell regeneration and that electrical induction of tissue regeneration may have some application..."

"Not some application, Saber. Significant application."

"Maybe. But you want neural pathways reestablished from your brain to your legs. The nerves are damaged. You have no feeling."

"I have some feeling now. Since they operated and put in the bionics. You saw me walk. Something is happening to allow that. Before the operation, I

couldn't move my feet. Now I can. I have to concentrate, but I can do it."

"There you go, then. Give yourself more time."

"I would be walking by now if it was going to work."

"You don't know that, Jesse, and you're risking cancer." She knelt in front of him, looking up. "Please, for just a minute, put yourself in my place. How could I live with myself if I ever harmed you? How could I go on? Do you have any idea what you're asking of me?"

He framed her face with both hands. "Yes. I know I'm going to do this. If you don't help me, I'll ask Lily and Eric, and neither of them can monitor me the way you can. I'm asking you to do this because I believe you're my best chance."

His thumbs brushed against her soft skin as he stared down into her eyes. It was difficult to ignore the fear he saw there, but he was going to try the experiment. He'd had too many operations and had worked too hard to give up.

"Do you have any idea what this will do to us?" she asked. "The changes it will bring?" She had to bring it up. He had to go into this with his eyes open.

"Having me on my feet can only make things better."

"Is that what you really think, Jesse? Because I love you enough to try this madness with you, but you'll go back to active duty. You will. It's what you live for. You and your team will be all over the place and where will that leave me?"

He shook his head. "You're part of us, Saber."