Kiss of Vengeance (True Immortality 2)
Fionn cut her an unreadable look. She half expected him to commiserate, offer comfort, but that muscle ticked away in his jaw and he seemed to glance away guiltily. Why? It wasn’t his fault she was fae.
“What age were you when you had Diarmuid?”
At first, Ro
se thought he wouldn’t answer. Then …
“Sixteen.”
“What?” Her eyebrows must have hit her hairline.
Fionn smirked at her. “You’re reacting as a modern woman. Back then, I was a man at thirteen, already warring. The fae invasion distracted the clans from their wars for territory. They hadn’t come together as one just yet, but each were doing what they could to keep the fae from hurting their people. Aoibhinn and I grew up in the same village and as soon as she had her first bleed, she was considered a woman. She was fourteen when it happened. I was fifteen, almost sixteen. She was beautiful, her father was head of our clan, and she was much sought after. She could have been given to an older, more experienced clansman, but I’d proven myself in battle, her father viewed me as a son, and Aoibhinn wanted me.”
“Jesus Christ,” Rose croaked. “You got married when she was fourteen and you were sixteen.”
“Again, Rose, times were very, very different.”
“You were children.”
“No,” he snapped. “That was not a world you could be a child in for long. We’re known as the Celts now. And we were a warring, violent people. You were lucky to hold on to even a modicum of childhood.”
“Okay, okay,” Rose soothed. “You’re right. I don’t know what I’m talking about. Twenty-first-century minds do not belong in the Iron Age.”
Fionn relaxed marginally. “Aoibhinn fell pregnant quickly. Diarmuid was born just before I was about to enter my seventeenth year.”
Rose couldn’t even imagine being a parent at that age. “What was he like?”
His expression hardened but it was at odds with the softness of his voice. “He was my shadow. By the time he was seven, I’d taken over the clan and had started to bring the other clans together. He wanted to be like me, wielding the wooden sword I gave him with skill belying his young age. He even wanted his own wolf. Aoibhinn used to complain that she’d never met a child so focused on the duties of men. Diarmuid was a good boy.” Fionn swallowed hard. “I was taken to Faerie days after his eleventh birthday. By that time, I was king, grooming my son to take my place when the time came. But I missed six years of his life. When I came back, he was already a man with his own wife and child on the way.” His voice grew cold. “I’ll never know what happened to him. Or to my gentle Caoimhe who cried when others cried and laughed when others laughed and felt more deeply than those around her. She was goodness and beauty in a violent, wicked world. She was the sky and the rolling hills and the wondrous sea—she was what made that life worth enduring.”
Tears Rose couldn’t control spilled down her cheeks at his beautiful but haunted words. “I’m sorry,” Rose whispered.
Fionn looked down at her, following her tears. “She was loyal like you, Rose.”
That ache inside her intensified. “No. She was loyal like you. The man you used to be.”
Although she hadn’t meant it as an insult, Fionn winced slightly and picked up his pace.
Rose hurried to follow. “I’m sure she and Diarmuid had a long, good life. They were no longer battling the fae, and they were royalty, right?”
“Which made them targets. A simple man often enjoys a more peaceful life than a chief or a king. Still, the village we built under my kingship was a hillfort. Highly defensible. It was called An Caomhnóir.”
“Like the castle?”
“The castle is named after the village.”
The trees began to clear, water sparkling in the distance, the sound of it rushing filling the silence.
“What about … Aoibhinn?”
Fionn didn’t reply. Instead, he kept walking until the trees fell behind them and they walked over massive, moss-covered rock. Hills that stretched for miles surrounded them. The stream of rushing water disappeared into the hills beyond and fell in a shallow waterfall into a pool separated by an arm of rock. The pool with the waterfall was large, the other small and enclosed.
The water was a startling Mediterranean turquoise.
Magic tingled in the air.
The faerie pools.
“I loved Aoibhinn,” Fionn said, lifting his voice to be heard over the waterfall. “She was fierce and protective of our children. She wanted to able to protect them if I was ever gone so I trained her to fight, with her fists and with a sword. But … not long after our marriage, a fae stole into the village and took Aoibhinn’s mother. The fae used magic to fend us off. A powerful, powerful fae. We failed to protect her, and she was found a day later in the woods, naked and mutilated.”
Rose covered her mouth, aghast at what her imagination conjured.
“Aoibhinn hated the fae, but that day something twisted inside her. I vowed to find the fae and kill him. And I did.” He looked down at her. “I used An Breitheamh.”
She pieced together what he wasn’t saying. “He was the fae prince you killed.”
Fionn nodded.
“You killed him for Aoibhinn and in turn started a war with Aine. Everything you did was for Aoibhinn, and she betrayed you for it.”
“Her hate for the fae was stronger than her love for me.”
“No,” Rose said, her voice gentle, free of accusation. “Her thirst for vengeance was greater than her love for you.”
She watched him process this, his nostrils flaring as their gazes held.
Satisfied she’d made her point, Rose took a step toward the faerie pools. “What exactly are these pools capable of?”
It took him a moment but Fionn eventually joined her on the edge of the rocks. “For us? They’re warm and relaxing. Like a natural spa. The water can wash away the trace.”
“How do you know?”
“Because it washes away all spells.”
“Wow.” She stared down into the water. “What’s it like for humans and other supernaturals?”
“Cold.” He smirked. “Uninviting. But it does wash away spells for them too.” Fionn frowned. “I found An Breitheamh buried at the bottom of the largest pool. It was inside the silver box, with a parchment note from the Faerie Queen herself.”
“Instructing that you needed to kill a fae-borne with the dagger to enter Faerie?” Rose guessed, hurting at the thought. “Knowing it wouldn’t be easy for you.”
She understood now, more than ever.
Fionn Mór was a betrayed husband, a grieving father, and a displaced king.
“Aye,” Fionn answered quietly, so quietly she barely heard him over the falling water. “That dagger is the only thing that’s come out of those pools with its spell still gripped tight to it.”
More silence fell between them, the water rushing into the pool a soothing, peaceful sound at odds with the turmoil writhing inside her.
“I forgive you,” Rose announced.
He stared down at her, arrested.
She nodded, a small, sad smile on her lips. “I forgive you for trying to use me to open the gate.”
“Rose …”
“And I get that you’re on a mission that I might not be able to stop. But you have to promise me that you won’t take me somewhere against my will again. Twice you’ve knocked me out. Promise me … never again.”
He nodded, turning toward her. Her breath caught as Fionn lifted one large hand toward her, his fingers tickling her cheekbone before he tucked her hair behind her ear. As he lowered his hand, his fingertips caressed her neck. Rose fought a shiver and Fionn lowered his arm back by his side. “I can promise that, Rose. However”—his expression hardened—“I can’t promise to be something that I’m not. I made a vow long ago that I intend to keep. I’m sorrier than I can say that the vow conflicts with how I feel about you … But I’m from a different time, mo chroí. I’ve lived too long. I will always have one foot on the wrong side of morality. I will never be the man who follows the rules or always does what’s right.”
Rose stepped closer to him, feeling the conflict emanating from his very being. She wished he could see that what they could be was worth giving up the vow he’d made centuries be
fore. If he couldn’t see it now, then Rose was determined to make him.
And she wouldn’t play fair to do it.
She rested a hand on his strong chest, near his rapidly beating heart. “I don’t know if you noticed, but I’m not exactly that woman either.”
A small smile prodded his lips. “No, you’re not. You follow your impulses, Rose. You embrace what you are with a freedom I admire.”
“I can teach you.” She grinned, only half teasing. “I can teach you to embrace being fae. To make it an existence you find joy in.”
“I fear it’s too late for that.” He closed the distance between them, bowing his head toward her. “But I’d be happy to pass our hours here more pleasurably. I’ve never bedded a gymnast before.”
Rose’s lips parted in shock before she could stop herself. She snapped her mouth shut at his smug expression. “You didn’t just say that.”
Fionn’s grin caused a riot of fluttering in her stomach. “Come on, Rose. Show an old man some new tricks.”
Fighting a smile, she cocked her head. “How old are you, anyway? I mean … how old were you before …”
“Thirty-three.”
“So you’re almost a decade older than me.”
This time, he chuckled. “Oh, if only that were true.”
His laughter did more to knot her insides than his flirting. “I liked you better as Mr. Cold and Distant.”
“I liked you better when you were flirting with me all the time. Ironic, that.”
“I flirted because I liked you.”
“And now you don’t?”
Instead of answering, Rose retreated a few steps and crossed her arms over her chest. “How do you know we’re mated? Niamh told me but how do I know she’s right? How do you know?”
If Fionn was surprised by the turn of conversation, he didn’t show it. “I didn’t know at first. However, there were signs. To begin with, the way we were drawn to each other at the club in Zagreb. That sense of familiarity and attraction are symptoms of a mating bond.”
Rose looked down into the faerie pools, considering this. When she first set eyes on Fionn, it was like someone had lassoed a rope around her, pulling her body toward him.