Lock Step - Love Under Lockdown

Oh, my God, I would die! I would just die. Diamond and Gillian would never let me live this down, either. My little crush on my stepbrother was supposed to be a joke, not something I’d actually do!

But this was just a fluke, right? No biggie. Phil probably didn’t think anything about it, right?

I’d just talk to him and we’d agree that it was all a big mistake. Obviously, he’d be in as much trouble as I would be if word got out about us, so he wouldn’t tell anyone.

My God, Dad would kill me and him!

He had to know that he would. So, he also had to know not to tell him, of course. That would be the absolute worse thing he could think of doing.

How had I let this happen?

One trip to the supermarket and a few fights and I end up grinding on my stepbrother’s hard cock. I guess we had so much passion and fury that we just wanted to fuck it out of each other.

But that was it.

From now on, Phil and I couldn’t fight anymore, because that only lead to hooking up.

We clearly couldn’t hook up, because that would only lead to sex.

As much as I wished I could taste, feel, touch and be fucked by that amazing cock of Phil’s, I knew it was off limits.

I had to stay far away from him from now on, to make sure that didn’t happen again!Chapter Ten - TracianneAt first, after our crazy little hook up incident, I avoided Phil and he avoided me. We didn’t even look at each other.

Then, I realized, we were the only two that knew what happened and that by acting this way, we could arouse suspicion. I didn’t like Phil, but I was attracted to him. We had to talk about it, or our parents might find out. That would certainly complicate things.

While it was true that I resented Phil and his mom for coming into my life and upending it, I couldn’t blame them. Dad picked this woman, for whatever reason, and I would have to try to accept it.

But, ugh, that was easier said than done.

Was this what I had to look forward to in the future? A broken marriage and then a remarriage after I cheated on my husband? No way. I was not going down that path.

Suddenly, Phil started approaching me and I lost my nerve. Maybe it was better if we both forgot about the whole incident. We could pretend it never happened and just go on with our lives. People do that, right?

“Hey, uh, Tracianne, you have a minute to—”

“Sorry! No. Bye,” I replied, turning too quickly in the hallway and running into a wall instead of through a doorway. “Busy!”

It was then that I went back to my resolution not to talk to Phil at all. If I avoided him long enough, he’d give up and that would be that.

Sure, we’d exchange awkward looks around the dinner table once in a while, but eventually that would fade. I was just being paranoid to think our parents would pick up on our big secret. They would never think we’d actually do that!

Plus, this pandemic would be under control sooner or later, and we’d end up going back to college. Who knows? Maybe they already had found a cure for the virus and hadn’t announced it yet.

I locked myself in my room and searched for information on the Internet about the virus. There was lots of talk about what to do, but no one seemed to be able to agree on anything but locking everyone down for two weeks to “flatten the curve.”

Great. Now I was definitely stuck in this house for another two weeks!

Maybe I could do what Diamond did and sneak out. I could go to Jersey City and hook up with her boyfriend’s friend. Maybe start something up with him and then that would send a clear message to Phil.

He’d see me with another guy and then he’d be too afraid to make a move or say anything. I mean, it wasn’t like he was in love with me, right? I just needed to keep the distance between us.

Socially distant to the max!

But I knew I could never work up the nerve to sneak out or hook up with a stranger during a pandemic. It wasn’t even something I did during normal times. It was a desperate thought to try to get Phil out of my head, but it didn’t work.

If I was being honest with myself, I had to admit that he was the only person I had the hots for. I wouldn’t be able to get with another guy without wishing it was him.

Fuck.

What had I gotten myself into?

I was so stupid!

I wished I could hibernate until we could return to campus.