Possession (Explicitly Yours 1)

“I’m fine.”

“You mad because your side lost?” He wasn’t a sore loser, but it was the only plausible reason for his shift in mood.

“I said I’m fine.”

“Okay.” She smiled and scooped him more potato salad. “A little extra for my man,” she said. “Don’t tell Mark.”

“Thanks, babe,” he said and pressed a quick kiss to the top of her head.

Lola sat across from Johnny once she’d made herself a plate. Mark gestured as he told everyone about the harrowing adventure of taking his six-year-old son to the mall. They’d gone to find his wife a birthday present, only to go home empty-handed because his credit card had been declined.

“Maybe that’s because you’re at a picnic in the middle of a workday,” Johnny said.

“Shop’s closed for renovations this weekend, asshole. You calling me out in front of my wife?”

“Now, now, boys.” Brenda smiled. “Mark and Kyle ended up surprising me by setting up the Slip ’N Slide in the backyard. We played in the sprinklers all day. Couldn’t have asked for a better birthday.”

Mark put his arm around Brenda’s shoulders.

Johnny winked at Lola. He held up a forkful of potato salad before cleaning it off in one bite.

Mark’s son ran from the playground to the table. He stuck his shoe on the bench. “Tie,” he demanded.

“Kyle, why don’t you show everyone how you’ve been learning to tie your own shoes?”

“I don’t want to,” Kyle said.

“I’ll do it, buddy,” Lola said. Kyle ran over to her. She snuck him a smile as she fixed his shoe. “You know how to do this, don’t you?”

“Yeah.”

“So I’ll tie this one, and you can show me how you do it on your left shoe.”

“But that one’s not untied,” he said.

Lola reached down and yanked one of the laces. “There you go.”

“Lola,” he cried out, raising his arms in the same exasperated way his dad often did.

“Come on,” she said. “Your daddy’s been bragging about this all week. But I never believe anything until I see it with my own eyes.”

Kyle made a face but swapped feet on the bench and went to work. “I got it,” he said, brushing her hands away when she went to help. After a few tries, he hollered “I did it” and took off back to the other kids.

“You’re good with him,” Brenda said to her.

“When you grow up without brothers or sisters, everything kids do is entertaining,” Lola said.

“Well, you’re welcome to take him any time and see all the entertaining things he does.” Mark laughed. “Love that little shit, but can’t say I’m not glad school starts next week.”

Brenda turned to Johnny. “Wasn’t she good with Kyle?”

Johnny half rolled his eyes.

“Aw, come on,” she said. “Indulge me.”

“Our answer’s still the same,” he said. “Kids cost money. Right, babe?”

She almost said they were figuring it out. The night before might not have come up again, but Lola hadn’t forgotten anything. Her eyes were now widely open to their inaction. As long as they were ‘figuring it out,’ she and Johnny weren’t doing much of anything. Her chest was tight.

“There’s never a good time,” Brenda said. “Mark and I were still living at my mom’s when I got knocked up. You just have to go for it.”

“Maybe Lola’s waiting for Johnny to propose sometime this century,” Mark said.

“With what, a fucking cucumber?” Johnny asked, visibly irritated.

“Why not?” Lola asked. “I don’t need anything fancy.”

Johnny’s fork stopped halfway to his mouth as his eyes cut to her.

“We could do it here in the park,” she said, sitting up a little straighter. “Maybe Mitch would donate some beer to cut down on costs. It could be a small thing, friends and family only.”

Brenda clasped her hands together. “That’s a great idea,” she exclaimed. “We’ll find you a vintage dress for next to nothing on Melrose.”

Lola wasn’t the type to get swept away. She’d never thought much about her wedding day like the girls she knew, but the idea of something simple brought a smile to her face. “That sounds nice, doesn’t it, Johnny?”

“Sure,” he said as he forked a watermelon chunk. “Tell you what. We’ll pick up a lottery ticket on the way home and if I win, that cucumber’ll have a big, fat diamond on it.”

Someone laughed uncomfortably.

Johnny chewed, looking around the table. “What? It was a joke. Except maybe the lottery ticket. Now that is a good idea.”

Lola blinked at him. “The lottery?”

“Since when do you play the lottery?” Mark asked.

“Since today. Might as well. Not like my life is going anywhere.” Johnny squinted into the distance, just beyond Lola. “Brenda, be a doll and pass a lemon square over here.”

The table got even quieter, but Lola barely noticed. She didn’t care about a wedding, but she didn’t like the way he’d just dismissed her and their life together.

She ignored Johnny the rest of the meal, which wasn’t hard since he kept to himself. After, she clea

red off the picnic table alone so the other women could get their kids ready to go.

“Need help with that?” Johnny asked from a few feet away.

She glanced up at him. “What was that just now? Were you trying to embarrass me?”

“No, just myself.” He stuck his hands in his back pockets. “Mission accomplished,” he joked.

She tossed paper plates into a large garbage bag. “I don’t care about a wedding. I thought the park was a nice idea, but that’s all. I don’t need it.”

“I know you don’t need it. You never need anything or anyone. But you deserve more than this crap.” He gestured at the dirty table. “I want you to have a nice ring and a Hawaiian wedding.”

“Hawaii?” She rested the bag on the bench. “What are you talking about?”

“When we were younger, you said you wanted to go to Hawaii one day because it sounded romantic. Remember?”

“No,” Lola said. “I never think about Hawaii. We could get married at the Pomona Swap Meet for all I care.” She tossed some plastic silverware and resumed cleaning. “We don’t have to get married at all, Johnny. We’ve been fine without it this long. But I’ll tell you one thing—we’re not doing it in Hawaii.”

“Why not?” he asked.

“Why would you even want to?”

“Last night got me thinking about how we never splurge,” Johnny said. “You were right yesterday when you said time off would be good for us.”

Lola shook her head, grabbed a beer bottle and poured the remains onto the grass. “I think you should forget about last night.”

After a beat, he asked, “Have you?”

She dropped the bottle in the bag and picked up another. She didn’t like lying to Johnny and hadn’t forgotten about last night. “No, but I’m trying.”

“Yeah, well. I don’t blame you. I’d feel pretty special if someone thought my dick was worth half a mil.”

He clearly had a bone to pick with her. Lola wanted to get to the root of what bothered him, but not when he acted like that. She picked up the garbage bag. On her way past him, she said, “I don’t know what your problem is, but you’re being a real jerk.” She walked briskly to the nearest trashcan and dumped the bag in it. When she turned around, he was behind her.