Sleeping Murder (Miss Marple 13)

“I never wrote her many—two, perhaps three. She said she had destroyed them—but women never do destroy letters, do they? And so they came into your hands. And you want to know.”

“I want to know more about her. I was—very fond of her. Although I was such a small child when—she went away.”

“She went away?”

“Didn’t you know?”

His eyes, candid and surprised, met hers.

“I’ve no news of her,” he said, “since—since that summer in Dillmouth.”

“Then you don’t know where she is now?”

“How should I? It’s years ago—years. All finished and done with. Forgotten.”

“Forgotten?”

He smiled rather bitterly.

“No, perhaps not forgotten … You’re very perceptive, Mrs. Reed. But tell me about her. She’s not—dead, is she?”

A small cold wind sprang up suddenly, chilled their necks and passed.

“I don’t know if she is dead or not,” said Gwenda. “I don’t know anything about her. I thought perhaps you might know?”

She went on as he shook his head: “You see, she went away from Dillmouth that summer. Quite suddenly one evening. Without telling anyone. And she never came back.”

“And you thought I might have heard from her?”

“Yes.”

He shook his head.

“No. Never a word. But surely her brother—doctor chap—lives in Dillmouth. He must know. Or is he dead too?”

“No, he’s alive. But he doesn’t know either. You see—they all thought she went away—with somebody.”

He turned his head to look at her. Deep sorrowful eyes.

“They thought she went away with me?”

“Well, it was a possibility.”

“Was it a possibility? I don’t think so. It was never that. Or were we fools—conscientious fools who passed up our chance of happiness?”

Gwenda did not speak. Again Erskine turned his head and looked at her.

“Perhaps you’d better hear about it. There isn’t really very much to hear. But I wouldn’t like you to misjudge Helen. We met on a boat going out to India. One of the children had been ill, and my wife was following on the next boat. Helen was going out to marry a man in the Woods and Forests or something of that kind. She didn’t love him. He was just an old friend, nice and kind, and she wanted to get away from home where she wasn’t happy. We fell in love.”

He paused.

“Always a bald kind of statement. But it wasn’t—I want to make that quite clear—just the usual shipboard love affair. It was serious. We were both—well—shattered by it. And there wasn’t anything to be done. I couldn’t let Janet and the children down. Helen saw it the same way as I did. If it had been only Janet—but there were the boys. It was all hopeless. We agreed to say good-bye and try and forget.”

He laughed, a short mirthless laugh.

“Forget? I never forgot—not for one moment. Life was just a living Hell. I couldn’t stop thinking about Helen….

“Well, she didn’t marry the chap she had been going out to marry. At the last moment, she just couldn’t face it. She went home to England and on the way home she met this other man—your father, I suppose. She wrote to me a couple of months later telling me what she had done. He was very unhappy over the loss of his wife, she said, and there was a child. She thought that she could make him happy and that it was the best thing to do. She wrote from Dillmouth. About eight months later my father died and I came into this place. I sent in my papers and came back to England. We wanted a few weeks’ holiday until we could get into this house. My wife suggested Dillmouth. Some friend had mentioned it as a pretty place and quiet. She didn’t know, of course, about Helen. Can you imagine the temptation? To see her again. To see what this man she had married was like.”

There was a short silence, then Erskine said:

“We came and stayed at the Royal Clarence. It was a mistake. Seeing Helen again was Hell … She seemed happy enough, on the whole—I didn’t know whether she cared still, or whether she didn’t … Perhaps she’d got over it. My wife, I think, suspected something … She’s—she’s a very jealous woman—always has been.”

He added brusquely, “That’s all there is to it. We left Dillmouth—”

“On August 17th,” said Gwenda.

“Was that the date? Probably. I can’t remember exactly.”

“It was a Saturday,” said Gwenda.

“Yes, you’re right. I remember Janet said it might be a crowded day to travel north—but I don’t think it was….”

“Please try and remember, Major Erskine. When was the last time you saw my stepmother—Helen?”

He smiled, a gentle, tired smile.

“I don’t need to try very hard. I saw her the evening before we left. On the beach. I’d strolled down there after dinner—and she was there. There was no one else about. I walked up with her to her house. We went through the garden—”

“What time?”

“I don’t know … Nine o’clock, I suppose.”

“And you said good-bye?”

“And we said good-bye.” Again he laughed. “Oh, not the kind of good-bye you’re thinking of. It was very brusque and curt. Helen said: ‘Please go away now. Go quickly. I’d rather not—’ She stopped then—and I—I just went.”

“Back to the hotel?”

“Yes, yes, eventually. I walked a long way first—right out into the country.”

Gwenda said, “It’s difficult with dates—after so many years. But I think that that was the night she went away—and didn’t come back.”

“I see. And as I and my wife left the next day, people gossiped and said she’d gone away with me. Charming minds people have.”

“Anyway,” said Gwenda bluntly, “she didn’t go away with you?”

“Good Lord, no, there was never any question of such a thing.”

“Then why do you think,” asked Gwenda, “that she went away?”

Erskine frowned. His manner changed, became interested.

“I see,” he said. “That is a bit of a problem. She didn’t—er—leave any explanation?”

Gwenda considered. Then she voiced her own belief.

“I don’t think she left any word at all. Do you think she went away with someone else?”

“No, of course she didn’t.”

“You seem rather sure about that.”

“I am sure.”

“Then why did she go?”

“If she went off—suddenly—like that—I can only see one possible reas

on. She was running away from me.”

“From you?”

“Yes. She was afraid, perhaps, that I’d try to see her again—that I’d pester her. She must have seen that I was still—crazy about her … Yes, that must have been it.”

“It doesn’t explain,” said Gwenda, “why she never came back. Tell me, did Helen say anything to you about my father? That she was worried about him? Or—or afraid of him? Anything like that?”

“Afraid of him? Why? Oh I see, you thought he might have been jealous. Was he a jealous man?”

“I don’t know. He died when I was a child.”

“Oh, I see. No—looking back—he always seemed normal and pleasant. He was fond of Helen, proud of her—I don’t think more. No, I was the one who was jealous of him.”

“They seemed to you reasonably happy together?”

“Yes, they did. I was glad—and yet, at the same time, it hurt, to see it … No, Helen never discussed him with me. As I tell you, we were hardly ever alone, never confidential together. But now that you have mentioned it, I do remember thinking that Helen was worried….”

“Worried?”

“Yes. I thought perhaps it was because of my wife—” He broke off. “But it was more than that.”

He looked again sharply at Gwenda.

“Was she afraid of her husband? Was he jealous of other men where she was concerned?”

“You seem to think not.”

“Jealousy is a very queer thing. It can hide itself sometimes so that you’d never suspect it.” He gave a short quick shiver. “But it can be frightening—very frightening….”

“Another thing I would like to know—” Gwenda broke off.

A car had come up the drive. Major Erskine said, “Ah, my wife has come back from shopping.”

In a moment, as it were, he became a different person. His tone was easy yet formal, his face expressionless. A slight tremor betrayed that he was nervous.

Mrs. Erskine came striding round the corner of the house.

Her husband went towards her.