Omens (Cainsville 1)

Howard stayed in the doorway. I sat on the love seat and patted the spot beside me, but she was already heading for "her" chair--a very pretty antique so hard it felt like sitting on a rock. She hated the love seat, which didn't match anything in the room. But it was comfortable. Some of my earliest memories were of being curled up on it with Dad as he read to me.

"What's up?" I repeated.

"There's something I need to tell you. Something we probably should have told you years ago."

"Okay..."

She paused a moment, then blurted, "You're adopted."

"I'm...?"

She nodded. Didn't say the word again. Just nodded.

I stared at her. That wasn't possible. I looked just like my parents. Everyone said so. I had my mother's ash-blond hair and green eyes, and my dad's height, wide mouth and strong jaw.

"Did you say I'm ... adopted?"

I waited for her to stare at me in confusion. Maybe even laugh. Clearly that was not what she'd said.

Instead, she paused for at least five seconds and then nodded.

I thought of the reporter at the door. "So he didn't get the wrong place. Someone found out I'm adopted. They went to the press. You wanted to warn me before someone showed up on our doorstep."

She nodded again.

"And now they're saying I'm the daughter of America's most notorious ... what? Actor? Rock star? Politician? Oh God, please tell me it isn't a politician."

She said nothing. As we sat there in silence, her words finally sank in. Forget whose child I was. I was someone else's. Not hers. Not my dad's.

"I'm sorry," she said at last. "You shouldn't have had to find out about it this way."

"No, I shouldn't."

I looked over at her and the shock cleared, pain seeping in. Hard, angry pain. "You had no intention of telling me I was adopted until you were forced to."

Howard stepped forward. "Olivia, your parents were unable to have children of their own. They decided to give a wonderful, loving home to a child in need."

"I'm not questioning their motives," I said. "It's the part about not telling me for twenty-four years that I'm having trouble with."

"Twenty-one, actually. You--" Howard stopped. His sallow cheeks flushed. Then he cleared his throat, and stepped back. "I'm sorry. This really isn't my place."

"No shit," I muttered.

My mother didn't tell me to watch my language. Didn't even flinch.

"So I'm not twenty-four?" I said.

"You are," Mum said. "It's just that you weren't an infant when we first got custody of you. You were a little over two and a half. I wanted a toddler. Everyone wants a baby and there are so many older children who need a home."

And it was much easier to find an older child who looked like you. Shame plucked at the edges of my anger, telling me I was being unfair.

We sat in silence. I didn't want silence. I wanted to rage and shout and throw everything within reach.

I wanted Dad. If he was here, I could rage and shout and throw things. He'd expect no less. But with Mum's worried eyes fixed on me, there was no way I could give in to a temper tantrum. Sitting there quietly hurt, though. Physically hurt.

"Okay," I said finally. "So I'm not your daughter--"

"Of course you are. Don't be melodramatic, Olivia. I only wanted to keep it a secret because I feared how others would treat you. When you live in a world of privilege, everyone wants to believe you don't deserve it. I had a younger cousin who was adopted and people always behaved as though she didn't really belong. I made your father swear that wouldn't happen to you."