Finally (Neighbor from Hell 12)

For several minutes, he was content just to lay there, looking into her beautiful blue eyes.

“I love you,” Charlie said, having absolutely no idea what hearing those words did to him until she added, “But if you ever screw me over for your own entertainment again, I’ll be forced to kill you in your sleep,” making him wince.

“Duly noted,” he said, chuckling as he kissed her one last time before he reluctantly moved off her. Without a word, he took her hand in his and gave it a gentle tug that had her climbing off the bed and heading to the bathroom. They spent the next half-hour in the shower where he took his time worshipping her until the hot water ran out and it was time to call it a night.

That’s when he pulled on his clothes as he watched Charlie curl onto her side and-

He couldn’t do it.

He couldn’t force himself to walk out that door one more time and spend the rest of the night in his bed, alone.

At least, not yet.

Telling himself that he would make sure that he was gone before the kids woke up, Devin climbed onto the bed behind her and pulled the woman that had stolen another one of his shirts into his arms. He pressed his lips against the back of her neck as he closed his eyes and felt himself relax only to open his eyes sometime later when he felt something push against his back.

Frowning, Devin looked over his shoulder and-

“You’re in our spot,” Abbi said, narrowing her eyes on him.

Before he could open his mouth, Dustin spoke, “She was ours first.”

That was followed by them crawling onto the bed and pushing him over, ignoring his pained grunt as they stretched out with satisfied sighs that had him glaring at the little bullies.

“They’re brutal,” Charlie mumbled sleepily, sounding amused as a small knee was lodged against his back and-

“They really are,” Devin muttered as he found himself once again shoved over with a pained grunt when the dog jumped on the bed and another small knee was pressed against his back.

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“I’m very disappointed in you, young lady,” Ben said with a long-suffering sigh that was going to get him killed.

“Please don’t make me kill you right now,” Charlie said, dropping her head in her hands only to find herself standing up and pacing the bathroom when sitting still became impossible.

“Sex before marriage,” Ben said, shaking his head with a disappointed sigh that was quickly cut off with a pained grunt when her foot somehow connected with his ankle.

“God, you’re mean,” he muttered, absently rubbing his ankle as he looked down at the pregnancy test that she’d convinced him to pick up for her and sighed. “Still counting down.”

Nodding absently, Charlie continued pacing the bathroom until even that wasn’t enough and she found herself pulling out her phone and double-checking that she’d counted right and-

She was definitely late, she realized, unable to help but smile as she finally allowed herself to think about what this could mean. She hadn’t planned for this to happen, but now that it was, Charlie realized just how badly she wanted this. It didn’t matter that she wasn’t married or that she was finally getting Dabbi Digital Marketing off the ground because she wanted this more.

She wanted another baby, one that she would be able to be there for from the beginning, to watch grow up and be there for all the things that she’d missed out on with Abbi and Dustin. She wanted another baby boy who loved hanging out in his tighty-whities and a little girl who had her father wrapped around her little finger.

“Shouldn’t Devin be here for this?” Ben asked, taking a sip of his coffee as he glanced back down at the test.

“He doesn’t even know that I’m late,” Charlie said, shaking her head as she released a shaky breath and-

“You want this,” Ben murmured thoughtfully as he considered her.

“Would that be so bad?” Charlie asked, worrying her bottom lip between her teeth as she sent him a questioning look to find him shaking his head.

“No, I don’t think it would be a bad thing, not when it makes you this happy,” he said, shooting her a wink that had her biting her lip to stop herself from crying.

“Thank you,” she said, glancing at the test that was taking forever, praying that-

“What’s going on?” came the question that had Charlie glancing back to find Devin standing in the doorway, staring at the pregnancy test with a look that she couldn’t quite figure out.

“What are you doing here?” Charlie asked, shifting nervously as she sent Ben a questioning look.

“Well, it looks like my work here is done,” Ben said as he stood up and headed for the door only to pause so that he could kiss the top of her head as he said, “Call me when you find out,” before heading out the door.

“You said that you were working from home today, so I thought I’d surprise you with donuts,” Devin said, holding up the small white bakery bag that she hadn’t noticed before. “What the hell is going on here, Charlie?” he asked hollowly as he stared helplessly at the pregnancy test that should be finished by now.

Licking her lips, Charlie said, “I might be pregnant,” as she forced her legs to take her across the small distance so that she could look down at the pregnancy test and-

“No, you’re not,” he said firmly, making her frown as she glanced back at him to find him watching her with something close to dread as he added, “I can’t have children.”

Chapter 40

“What are you talking about?” Charlie asked as she glanced back down at the pregnancy test as he was forced to stand there and watch as the last glimmer of hope slowly died in her eyes.

“I can’t have any more children, Charlie. I had a vasectomy,” he said, forcing the words out of his mouth as he tossed the bag on the counter.

For several minutes, she didn’t say anything. She just stood there, staring down at the pregnancy test that confirmed everything until he couldn’t take it anymore.

“Say something,” he snapped.

“When?” came the softly spoken word that had him slowly exhaling.

“Right after the twins were born,” Devin said, watching as she slowly nodded, never taking her eyes off that fucking test.

“Were you ever going to tell me?” she asked, finally looking at him.

“I don’t know,” he said hollowly as he watched the tears run down her face.

“You don’t know,” Charlie said, nodding absently only to shake her head in disgust as she frantically wiped at the tears that he would give anything to stop as she added, “Well, that’s perfect.”

“Charlie, I made a promise to my children that-”

“I don’t want to hear about your stupid promise, Devin. Okay? I just don’t!” she snapped as she pushed past him and headed into her bedroom.

“It wasn’t stupid!” he snapped back as he followed her.

“No, you’re right,” Charlie admitted with a firm nod as she turned around and faced him. “It wasn’t stupid. It was cruel.”

“How? How was it fucking cruel to make sure that my children were taken care of and never once, not fucking once, had to question how much I wanted them? I made sure they knew that they were loved and that they would always come first and-”

“And you really don’t think that you could have done that without giving up everything? Do you really think that Abbi and Dustin wanted to see their father miserable? Do you really think that they needed their father to punish himself because their mother didn’t want them?”

“You don’t know what you’re talking about,” he bit out, deciding that they’d finish this conversation later after she had a chance to calm down and headed for the door only to find himself cut off by the small woman that he’d never seen get angry before.

“You don’t think I know what it’s like to have a mother that doesn’t want you? Are you serious? That’s all I know, Devin!”

When he went to reach for her, she shoved his hands away as sh

e continued. “But your kids don’t! They have no idea what it feels like not to be wanted by their mother and that’s because of you! She never got a chance to hurt them because you never gave her a chance to. You never reminded them that their mother didn’t want them. Instead, you made sure to tell them just how badly you wanted them and that made the difference. You gave them more love than they could have ever hoped for and you didn’t need a promise to do that, Devin. The only thing that promise did was cause pain.”

For a moment, he couldn’t say anything as he watched her shake her head in disgust as she turned around to leave and-

“Why aren’t Abbi and Dustin enough?” he asked, watching as she slowly turned back around to face him.

“Are you kidding me?” Charlie asked, shaking her head slowly in disbelief. “It’s because of them that I want children. Do you have any idea how much I love those kids? How much it kills me that I wasn’t there for them? I missed so much with those kids. I missed holding them when they were born, seeing their first smiles, the first time they crawled, walked, and a hundred other things that I will never experience with them and it kills me!”

“And I don’t want to go through that again! I don’t want to have to be scared out of my fucking mind every time one of my children gets a fever. I don’t want to have to sit by their cribs at night when they’re sick because I’m fucking terrified that they’ll get worse if I’m not there! I don’t want to have to worry about what will happen if I take my eyes off my children for even one fucking second because they keep getting into fucking everything! I don’t want to lay in my bed at night, fucking terrified to close my eyes because my kids might need me and I won’t be there for them! I don’t want to have to worry that I’m not doing enough for them or that I’m not giving them something that they need! I don’t want to have to worry about what will happen to my children if something happens to me. I don’t want to have to go through that alone again, Charlie.”

“You wouldn’t be alone, Devin.”

“Charlie, I-” he said, reaching for her only to have her step away from him, again.