The Squad

My eyes fluttered open and landed on the clock across the room. What the hell? Two hours had passed. I don’t even remember falling asleep. The last thing I recall is laughing with her and feeling my cock growing hard inside her again. I’d apologized and asked her if she could take me again that soon knowing full well that I wasn’t about to stop because I wasn’t ready to leave the warm cocoon of her pussy.

The second time was even better than the first if that can be believed, and maybe that’s why it had put me on my ass. I felt her tiny warmth seep into me where she rested on my chest, still wrapped in my arms as I laid on my side with her held tight against me. I had a moment of panic when I questioned whether or not I’d moved too fast.

Then I reassured myself with the fact that it was good that our first bout of physical intimacy was out of the way. She hadn’t reacted negatively, and there didn’t seem to be any lingering trauma from her past. If she felt any way about it later, I’ll be there to help her through it, but I feel like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders. I pulled my head back ever so slightly and looked down at her face; she was out cold.

I smiled like a sap as feelings of warmth and excitement welled up inside me. I don’t think I knew it was possible to be this happy. I’ve felt joy before. At the birth of each of my nieces and nephews. Each time my sister celebrated some milestone or the other, watching my brother achieve yet another goal, and each time, I’ve saved someone from the clutches of some trafficking asshole. But those pleasures pale in comparison to this.

I kissed her forehead lightly, not wanting to wake her, and started to ease my cock from her depths where it was still lodged. I’d fallen asleep inside her. But her eyes fluttered open, and the roller coaster ride started all over again. “One more!” I rolled her to her back and started in on her one more time, not giving her a chance to deny me.

ROXY

He’s a machine! Not sure why that’s the first thought in my head when there are so many others running around in there. I’m stupefied at the way this day has gone. I’d woken up, ready to put him on his ass for knocking me out, so how did we get here? I felt fear and doubt sneak under my defenses as I remembered how I’d acted in the last few hours.

What does he think of me? Does he think I’m easy because I let him have me so soon? The thought brought tears to my eyes. I’d never planned to share myself like this with anyone again, not willingly. I’m smart enough to know that not all sexual contact between the sexes is as ugly as what was done to me. But somehow, I’d convinced myself that no one worth anything would want to have that with me, not in a healthy way anyway.

Is that why he’d done it? Because he saw me as used goods? As someone who didn’t matter? Something to be cast aside once used? But his touch… the way he held me, and the words he spoke… I opened my eyes after our third time to find him watching me. Our bodies were still joined, and he didn’t look like he was in any hurry to leave me, to turn away.

For the first time in way too long, I was at a loss. I felt naked, bare, exposed. “What’re you thinking, baby? Why have your eyes gone so sad?” I wanted to turn my face into the palm of the hand he reached out to cup my cheek. His voice sounded so tender, so gentle, loving, kind. But how can I trust that?

“I have to go run you a bath. Are you sore?”

“Why are you pretending?” I left all the anger I felt in my words and tone, not willing to avoid the truth of what I knew was coming. He’s part of the people here, one of them. I am not and will never be.

“Pretending what?” His words were even and nothing at all like the harshness of mine.

“I’m not stupid. I told you about that guy upstairs, and the next thing I know, we’re here. Did you two have a nice long convo about the things he used to do to me? Is that what got you so hot and bothered?” I almost wish I could take back the words at the look that came into his eyes.

There was fire, then ice, then a kind of calm that I’m not sure I can trust. But his words left to reason for doubt. “Roxana, if you ever say anything that stupid again, I’m going to beat your ass black and blue. How dare you compare me to that monster?”