Crank (Crank 1)
further by definition and distance.
New boyfriends, one definite
but distracted,
and no shortage of Avenue wannabes.
Siblings, one too close and curious,
the other much
too far away to serve as confidant.
Parents, ever-present shade, dimming
my sparkle,
kryptonite to quell my bid for superpower.
Teachers, counselors, preachers,
scaffolding,
crumbled by the weight of my monster.
Problem Number Three: Connections
How to get high
and stay that way?
(Coming down was a bitch and a half.)
Finding crank
wasn’t really difficult.
Most of my new crowd knew
someone who dealt
(or knew someone who
knew someone who did).
Getting what you paid for
proved more problematic, unless
you went straight to the source.
Even then, things were iffy.
(Stoners aren’t the most reliable people.
Even they would have to agree.)
Fronting years of hoarded