Okay, I didn’t know that, specifically,
but it doesn’t surprise me. Part of me
is revolted, part fascinated. What kind
of videos, exactly? Do I know any
of the girls? Would I ever stoop that
low? [How much does it pay, anyway?]
I formulate a careful answer.
“Uh, I don’t really think so. Not now,
anyway. I’m still getting my figure
back, and I don’t have a lot of spare
time, with the baby and all.
But I’ll think about it, okay?”
We Leave It at That
And it isn’t until I run to
the bank on my lunch break
that it comes to me Kevin
thinks I’m some sort of whore.
I don’t see myself that way at all.
Open-minded, yes. A druggie, sometimes.
An unwed teen mother, for sure. But
a sleep-around? No way. Never.
So why am I so hot for Trey?
Sex with him is definitely not
out of the question. Maybe even
tonight. So am I a whore?
[I am!] But I’m not. I want more
than just sex. I want a relationship—
someone to love and to love me.
Will Trey be that? I don’t know.
The attraction between us is sexual,