New York Rain

He let his head sink. “I’m really sorry. You have to understand I can’t go by my instinct all the time. A beautiful woman who stands up for herself can happen quite often. I know it makes me seems cynical, but I have to be careful. I may not have an heir to my fortune yet, but I hope to one day.” Harold stated. “I hired a man to look into your background and make sure you weren’t someone looking for money.” Harold figured it was best just to say it and get it over with.

Sandra’s mouth fell open at his words. “You did what? You have absolutely no right to pry into my personal life. I didn’t invite you into it. I didn’t ask you for help? Maybe I wasn’t wrong about you. You use your money to control people.” She looked at him disgustedly.

“I deserve it, but I’m not trying to control you at all. Don’t you understand that? I don’t want to control you, no I think you’re perfect just the way you are. You’re so much like Emily.” Harold stated.

Chapter 14

Sandra was appalled at learning he had run a background check on her. “How dare you do that?” She had said a lot more but by that time she had no conscious control over the words. They flew out on their own. She couldn’t have stopped if she wanted too. Her anger controlled her at points like this.

Then we he said. “I deserve it, but I’m not trying to control you at all. Don’t you understand that? I don’t want to control you, no I think you’re perfect just the way you are. You’re so much like Emily.”

She could have been knocked over again. “Oh my goodness he isn’t doing it on purpose. He’s honestly just like this. He’s cautious.” What’s wrong with that? She asked herself.

Sandra herself was just as cautious about her life. Well her personal life that was, because her career was done. Unless she actually let him call David and get her job back. But right now Sandra didn’t want to focus on that at all. She wanted instead to study and learn more about Harold.

At that moment she wished she had access to his type of connections. She would run a background check on him too.

“Who’s Emily?” Sandra asked honestly.

She watched as his eyes clouded with pain. “She’s my wife.” He saw her shocked face and held his hand up. “I’m not done and I said that wrong. She was my wife; she’s been dead for 10 years.” Harold stated.

“Oh my goodness, I’m so sorry.” Sandra uttered.

She wondered how she was like this Emily. But then she saw the pain in his eyes and felt bad for yelling at him once again.

“Look it seems like I’m judging you by someone else’s record. I don’t mean too. Really I’m sorry I can’t apologize enough for my behavior. How did she die?”

“She had lung cancer. It ate her up bad. I wasn’t a very good husband in the end either.” Harold hung his head and shook it back and forth.

“I’m sure you were just having trouble dealing with the upcoming loss of your wife.” Sandra said she really felt like hugging him. Not sexually, but to comfort him.

She walked over to him and put her arms around him. Sandra felt as the tension in his body left. He broke down and cried in her arms. She didn’t know what to say, so she just stood there and let him cry.

Sandra’s heart lurched at that moment. She knew a lot of the feelings that were coming up from her were sympathy. But she felt another pull of her heart. It was that one that held the area of love. She couldn’t let it out. However, she felt it beating against the wall she had thrown up and built up through the pain of Jason.

Chapter 15

As soon as she asked who Emily Harold knew he was lost. He told her about Emily. “I wasn’t a very good husband at the end.” He said, and it was the first time he’d admitted to another person.

He broke down and cried for the pain he had put Emily through in the end. He didn’t want to ever be selfish like that again in his life.

She walked up and put her arms around him. Harold wrapped his arms around her tightly. The comfort of her arms around him made him feel better. He hadn’t felt this good in such a long time.