Forever Changed

In between sets, I swiped the beaded up sweat on my forehead with the back of my hand, catching the admiring gaze of Miranda. Of course, I wished it was someone else. I shook my head to dislodge the thoughts of

Kassandra. I didn’t need the distraction at the moment. Miranda was cool, and I knew she was into me. She looked at me appraisingly when I returned her smile. When we launched into our next set, I kept my eyes fixated on her, taking in every curve of her body. She returned my heated glance as we eye-flirted throughout the song.

The small crowd cheered as I rolled through my solo. I grinned at them, tossing my drumsticks up above my head and catching them at the last moment as I continued on.

“Dude, you rocked,” John said, knocking his knuckles against mine as we sat around after the last song. “It’s good to have you back. The jams just weren’t the same.”

“Yeah, we missed your sorry loser ass,” Drake added, throwing a mock punch at my shoulder.

I shrugged my shoulders as I pulled on my t-shirt that had been discarded halfway through the set. I was just grateful they didn’t want to hash out my reason for bailing lately. They had been around me enough over the years, and had even witnessed some of the poundings I had endured from dad.

Dex opened his mouth to ask me a question when a pair of smooth cool hands reached up behind me to cover my eyes.

“Guess who?” Miranda whispered in my ear as she pressed her body snug up against my back.

“Ummm, Shannon,” I teased.

“Guess again,” she said, breathing into my ear before leaving a nip on my earlobe.

My body responded and in one fluid movement I twisted around so she was locked in my arms. I slowly backed us out of the garage with my hands locked firmly on her hips, keeping her right where I wanted her the most. Her eyes sparkled with anticipation as my mouth crashed down on hers. Thrusting my tongue deep in her mouth, I pretended she was the one person I wasn’t allowed to have. I moved one hand up under her shirt while my other hand snaked around to her backside so I could pull her tightly up against me.

I woke up late for school Friday morning, stiff from sleeping on the couch with Megan the night before. We stayed up later than we should have watching old Disney movies in a vain effort to lighten the mood. Megan crashed around midnight, but I stayed up several more hours before finally falling into an uneasy slumber.

I left Megan sleeping on the couch while I hurried upstairs to get ready for school. I didn't have time for a shower, so I just sponged off a little and threw on my comfy cheerleading sweats I normally wore after the football games. My hair got swept up on top of my head in a messy bun with an oversized clip. The dark circles under my eyes could have used some attention, but I didn't feel like putting in the effort to cover them up, so after a touch of eyeliner and some lip gloss, I was ready to go. I snatched up my book bag off the floor and my iPhone, which was ready to die, off my bed where I had left it.

I checked on Mom before heading down stairs with a change of clothes for Megan. She was still zonked out on her side of the bed so I softly closed the door behind me.

Megan was sitting up blurry eyed on the couch when I returned. “Here, Peanut, put these on quick, we’re running behind. I’m going to go grab you something for breakfast,” I added, heading toward the kitchen.

I grabbed a couple packages of Pop-Tarts from the pantry, a juice box for Megan and a diet Coke for me from the fridge before hurrying back out of the room after seeing the time.

“Great, nothing like getting to school late on my second day back,” I muttered to myself when I realized the bell for first period was most likely ringing at that moment.

Megan was still sitting on the couch in her pajamas when I returned. “Megan, I told you to hurry,” I said sharply, pulling her attention from the cartoon on the television.

Her eyes widened at my sharp tone, but my lack of sleep kept me from feeling bad. I hurried her along, not taking the care I probably should have to be gentle. Her casted arm snagged on her shirt as I tried to pull it on.

She remained silent, but I noticed her draw in a gasp of pain. I felt remorseful, but ignored it as I steered her upstairs to brush her teeth. The added responsibility of getting her ready in the morning irritated me today, and I threw a resentful glance toward my parents’ suite as I waited in the hallway for Megan to exit the bathroom.

Looking at Megan as we headed downstairs, I felt terrible about taking my frustration out on her. It wasn’t her fault Mom hadn't recovered yet. I reached over and grabbed her hand as we reached the bottom step. She was still obviously hurt when she looked up at me.

“Sorry, Peanut, I’m just grumpy this morning, okay?”

She nodded, but I could still see she didn’t quite believe me. I really couldn’t blame her since my track record with her wasn’t all that great. Only a month ago, I treated her much like a gnat buzzing around my head bugging me. I had made a promise to myself at the hospital that I would put my family above all else from that point on. It was the last gift I could think of to give my father. I would have to win her trust and my grumpy mood this morning had not helped matters, but I would try harder in the future.

***

My day only went further downhill after that. Lacey gave me the silent treatment when I finally got to school halfway through second period. I tried to make amends for my bitchy text the day before by passing her a note, but she crumpled it up and tossed it aside without bothering to look at it. She leaned over to whisper something to Allie who glanced back at me and snickered. By the time third period started, I could tell Lacey had been busy, judging by the snubs from my other friends. When lunch came around, I wasn't in the mood to deal with anymore drama and wound up hiding out in the library, and by the end of the day, I was over all the whispering and stares my so-called friends were shooting my way. I couldn't believe Lacey had allowed my text to get so blown out of proportion.

When the last bell rang, I headed off to the girls’ locker room.

“Oh, now she’s interested in the squad,” I heard Lacey say snidely behind my back.

I ignored her dig and headed to Mrs. Hanson’s office in the far corner of the locker room. I tapped lightly on the door before pushing it open. Mrs. Hanson looked up from the stack of flyers she was sorting through.

“Kassandra, it’s so good to have you back. How are you doing?” she asked, giving me a tight hug.

“Okay,” I said, stepping back after an appropriate amount of grief-hugging time had passed. “Sorry about missing practice yesterday, I had to pick up my sister from her new school.”