Dare You to Hate Me
Mom’s words hold tight and squeeze.
But the pressure never bursts.
I’m absentminded at the bakery and Elena’s persistence on making conversation makes it hard to sink into routine without notice. “What’s going on with you and Aiden? He came in here all the time when you were sick to get you things like a boyfriend would or something.”
As I finish making a hot chocolate for one of the customers waiting, I say, “Not that it’s any of your business, but nothing is going on. Are you going to help me with this or not?”
“Are you going to quit lying?” she quips, walking over and grabbing a few requested pastries from the case with a grin.
“I’m not.” I walk over to the young woman and her eager-looking little girl with the kind of curly hair my little brother used to have when he was younger. I pass the mother her drink, give her daughter a small smile before focusing back on Lena perched against the counter. She doesn’t need to know where I spend my nights, or she’ll start planning some football themed wedding. “Quit staring at me like that and get back to work, twerp.”
She sticks out her tongue and flicks my hair before getting the rest of the order set. “You know you love me. And when are you going to let me do your hair? I’m sure Aiden would love to see something new.”
I choose to ignore her. “Get the banana nut cookies out of the back please. Your grandma wants to get the last tray sold before closing.”
Like Bea, her hand goes to her hip in exasperation. “You can’t avoid this conversation forever, Ivyprofen. I see the way he looks at you when he comes in. It’s not the same way it used to be. It’s…I don’t know. Intense.”
Ignoring the statement, I hip bump her out of the way and greet the next customer. When a middle-aged man walks up to the counter wearing a jacket that says COACH, a baseball cap with Lindon’s logo on it, and a stoic expression on his face, I’m surprised when the first words out of his mouth are, “So you’re the girl that’s got my best player all twisted up.”
I hear Lena’s squeak from behind me. From the corner of my eye, I see her grip her drink and stare between me and the man I can only assume is Lindon’s football coach based on his attire and brazen remark. “Can I get you anything?” I ask instead of entertaining his question.
The man crosses his arms over his chest, clearly uncaring of the people lining up behind him. “You can explain why you decided to make a move on my player right before his big move.”
I blink at his dry comment, replaying it in my head before asking, “Excuse me?”
“I normally stay out of my play
er’s business, but I think of Aiden as a son and want to see him succeed. Those boys gossip worse than middle school girls and the second your name popped up I knew there’d be trouble.”
My face heats as the young couple behind him start whispering. “Er…”
Elena clears her throat. “We’re in the middle of a mid-afternoon rush, Coach Pearce. If you don’t want to order anything you should probably head out so everyone else can get something.”
I give the teenager a quick, grateful look.
“I want no trouble for you two or your grandma,” Coach Pearce tells us, looking directly at me as he says it. “I’m just here to say that if you really care about him then you’ll step away until he gets his life figured out. If it’s meant to work out then it will, but you’re both young and I’ve seen a lot of men with great potential lose it because they’ve made untimely decisions.”
Untimely decisions.
How many times am I going to be categorized as that in my lifetime? People don’t see me as a human being anymore if they can brush me off as an untimely decision. A mistake.
Elena’s hand taps mine from under the counter, wrapping around it and squeezing once in comfort before directing a firm tone I’ve never heard from her pointed at the coach. “You should probably go.”
I count my breaths as the man tips his head once at her and steps out of the line, but not before digging into his pocket and stuffing $20 in the tip jar on the counter.
For some reason, that’s more infuriating than the insinuation I’m a gold-digging mistake. I pluck out the bill, walk around the counter to him and shove it into his chest until he has no other option but to take it back. “I don’t need whatever this is because unlike your rude assumption, I don’t like free handouts.” Dropping my voice when customers start turning to us, I add, “And considering I’ve known Aiden since I was eight, I think I can confidently say he’s the type of person who can make his own choices without his coach or anyone else butting in. If he wants me out of his life, I won’t stop him from shutting the door in my face. Frankly, he’d be better off if he did, and I’ve told him as much already. But you and I both know he’s not that kind of guy.”
His eyebrows arch in surprise as he slowly wraps the $20 bill in his fingers and stares down at it. I take a step back and wait for him to say something, anything, but all he gives me is a cleared throat and a, “No, he’s not.”
When he leaves, I walk silently back to my spot behind the register where Elena has already taken new orders for me to fill. She gives me a concerned look that I brush off as we work together to get the customers cleared out as fast as we can. It goes like that for half an hour before there aren’t any more people coming or going.
Eventually, I pour myself a cup of coffee, slowly mix in some milk and sugar while my young coworker watches, and murmur, “Sorry about the money. You probably would have liked to keep it.”
Her hand waves in dismissal. “It’s okay.”
I pause, staring at the steam coming from the hot liquid in the ceramic mug. “Maybe you can help me with my hair when we’re both free one of these weekends.”
The teenager bounces, her hands clapping a little too loudly. “Really? What color? I think you’d look amazing with rainbow streaks. Or what about unicorn—”