Black Knight (Royal Elite 4)

“My name.”

“Xan.” I brush my lips against his. “I missed you, Xan.”

He groans as his back turns rigid and he joins me over the edge.

Xander brings my bandaged wrist to his mouth and kisses it so tenderly, it actually hurts.

Not physically, but emotionally. The fact that he sees it, that he saw it even when I refused to see it myself, makes me want to hide.

But I don’t hide, not from him.

He’s been the only one I could never hide from.

“I missed you, too, Green.”

31

Xander

Cole wasn’t wrong to call me a watcher.

I am. It’s not something I can resist.

My gaze follows Kim as she disappears into her house, a huge grin on her face.

Her flushed, reddened face that I haven’t gotten my fill of.

The face that will never leave my vicinity, even if she wants to.

Now that all those facts have come to light, I’ve passed the watcher state and gone into a different type of category.

Addiction.

There’s a difference between being obsessed and watching from afar and the inability to stop thinking about something.

It’s even worse than alcohol because that addiction only started to kill this addiction.

Needless to say, it’s not working.

“Turn around,” I whisper to myself as I stand by my front door.

If it were up to me, she wouldn’t leave my bed for…years, that’s about right.

We’ll begin with the seven years I resisted her and me and everything that made sense, and I’ll multiply them for recompensation.

And then I’ll tie her to me because there’s no way in fuck she’s staying out of my sight now.

Kim stops at the threshold and glances over her shoulder, trapping the corner of her lip under her teeth.

Fuck me.

“You’re killing me, Green,” I mouth.

She smiles. It’s a special one, her smile. There’s still pain in that green gaze, so much bottled pain that I know won’t be healed magically, but she still fights. She still wants to smile and be normal. She still gives her entire heart and secretly believes in magic, and that’s probably why she has that much pain.

That pain will be mine now, just like the rest of her.

I remain there like a fucking idiot long after she disappears inside.